Nyctophile
Spending Time
South Jakarta
My white Honda Civic penetrated the hustle and bustle of the city, said traffic jams as if just a conversation that is not an excuse, at 11.00 I have arrived at the basement of a mall in South Jakarta,
My arrival to the mall this time is not to shop but meet with Girls, yes my former assistant when I used to be a model.
"Assalamualaikum." I greet the girl who just stood in front of me in my typical outfit, long hijab and dark channel dress.
"Waalaikum... Za... I really miss you how many months we did not meet, O God finally" he said without pause.
"Sit down. we order food first, then later the story." said I while calling waiters, this time we were in a cafe inside the mall, the mall, after our order was in session, the girl started talking again.
"Za, are you sure you don't want to dwell in the world of modeling? dear loh Za, Mr. Aditya is still interested in using you in some of his latest designs."
"Dis, you know, now I'm no longer single and I'm free to decide where I am going, I have a husband, who I have to ask for permission and opinions, and I have to ask for permission, after all I intend to fully take care of mom and dad until bang Fahri returns from service." I explained.
"In fact, almost eight months you are not bored Za, at home, take care of mom, clean up the house, most just the living room, room, kitchen, tv room already, come on Za at least there is busyness outside, so your life is not flat, anyway I'm sure your husband will permit you, you are not the type who macem-macem."
"Dis, it's not that easy, I'm bored, honestly I'm bored with my daily life, but behind it all, I have a new learning, I'm more patient, I'm more patient, I can know what my mother's true character is like, I can pray and teach freely, and can take care of the house well, although sometimes still like to be helped anyway. even at home I have friends, I'm not alone."
"Za, next week there is a new design launch from MOesFive Pak Aditya invites you to come, here is the invitation, try to come yes, oh yes one more, yes, you get one outfit that's going to launch next week." The girl gave a tote bags with the brand logo.
"Seriously, is this for me?" I said I can't believe it, Mr. Aditya is really good.
"Yes, Mr. Aditya said, he really expects you to come with your husband Za."
"God willing I will come, but if my husband will come and allow yes, but I will try to come."
"Gadis, say thank you to Mr. Aditya yes, if for the problem of rejoining, I will think again" said I calm down.
After lunch and Zuhur prayer, the girl took me to a park not far from the mall, when she arrived in the park we chose to sit under a shady tree, which is a shady tree, our eyes are not interlocked, but looking far ahead.
"Za, what's it like to have two complete parents? your father is protective while the mother is an anxious person, how does it feel to be cared for in such a way?" girl asked, this child does have a strange family problem.
"Either Dis, even I had wanted my life in exchange, rather my father in exchange, my father was very hard and firm, there was no rejection, but I always denied his words, and he always called me a dissident."
"Should you be grateful Za, someone gave you direction, while I? I never knew who my father was, watching my mother struggle to raise me on her own, making me cry in the middle of the night without a single person hearing my moans" she said, without me seeing it clearly, a drop of her tears fell.
"Girl." I hugged her channeling a sense of calm, I hoped a hug could make her comfortable.
"I prefer Za's night, I love the night and don't expect the morning to come."
"Why Dis? why not expect the morning to come when maybe when the morning comes all things have changed" I said.
"When night, I can be myself, fragile, crybaby, broken, and suffering without anyone knowing, but the third morning came, everything I have to keep tight and I have to put my cheerful mask back on." This kid, it turns out, has another side that I just know, all this time looks cheerful it turns out he can be destroyed.
"In the future you are still very on display, be a strong person and able to control the situation, you must be strong and think from all directions, do not look at the green grass in the yard of someone else's house, if in fact the weeds that thrive in your yard are more useful for livestock."
"Za.. why is your parable like that, annoying." The girl smiled at my words that were difficult for her to digest.
"Because like this, when you think everything you have, that you feel is so exhausting and useless, there's actually someone who wants to live like you, the unpleasant experience was actually very useful for survival and the future." I explained, the girl just smiled and enjoyed the dish.
Me and the girl talked all day, spent time in the mall, we went into the bookstore area and bought some books to re-study, honestly I also want to go back to my religion, he said, to be able to get through the night I loved so much, to keep crying and asking my creator only.