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Deep Pain
Bogor became the place where Sara was headed today. The woman had arrived at her boarding house. A boarding house that has bathroom facilities in and is located far from Bogor Botanical Garden. Access to the city center does not need to be too far away.
Entering the boarding room, Sara circulated her gaze. Observe around him, and the woman just sat on his bed which this time was only single size. The conditions are so different from the rooms in the Belva residence which has the best facilities and super king size beds. While in this boarding house, the facilities are only perfunctory.
“You're there doing Evan? You're not crying, are you? Mother already misses you .. but, Mother is sure that you there will be good. Mother believes that Mama and Papa you will take good care of, care for, and nurture you,” Sara muttered so softly.
Afterwards Sara took out some photos from her sling bag. Her picture while pregnant used to be with Belva which was taken in one of the photo studios. His fingers moved through the photo.
“Suami I could never reach .. Thank you for letting me stop for a while in your life. Even if it is short, but all the memories with you will not be forgotten. Did you know Mr. Belva .. I love you. I love you so much, I've fallen too much with this feeling for you. I have had time to hold my own love. However, as much time as I have, as much time as I have to wait in fact you never express your feelings. I don't want to survive without certainty. If it is enough for you to just care about me, but I want your love. I chose to leave, to keep my feelings alone. However, I pray for you and Brother Anin is always happy, until death separates the two of you,” Sara said with tears in her eyes.
Her photo with Belva may be the most beautiful photo of her life, the next day Sara will intend to print the photo and will put it in her room. At the same time he will print photos of Evan, photos that he can see as solace for his heart and soul.
After that, Sara observed the wedding gold ring that was still coiled on her ring finger. With a heavy heart, Sara took off the ring and made it as a pendant in her necklace.
“This ring will no longer circle on my ring finger, our marriage is over. However, this ring will be close to my heart, close to my heart that keeps beating, just like the love I have for you that keeps ticking like this heartbeat of mine.”
Sara lays herself slowly on her bed, staring at her picture with Belva and the photos of baby Evan on her phone. Her tears just ran. His heart is so painful. This morning she could still see Evan, suckle him, carry him, and now Sara had to go back alone, a bar with no one by her side.
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Meanwhile, at Belva's residence. That night, Evan fell asleep. Apparently Belva did not fall asleep immediately, the man came out of his room and instead entered Sara's room. The man seemed to remember how almost every night he came to this room and put Sara to bed.
Belva sat on the sofa and looked at the bed in front of him. Recalling how she put one hand into Sara's backrest, hugging the woman's body while rubbing her distended belly while pregnant with Evan, Belva remembered the struggle between the two.
A struggle so full of tears. How Sara sighed slowly, until she gripped her back. Ah, imagine all that as if Belva's head became so dizzy.
“Sara, where do you live now? Just one night, why has this been going on for so long? Why didn't you choose Sara?” ask Belva alone that night.
In her heart Belva guessed what was really a consideration for Sara so that she chose to leave her house. Though he and Anin both do not mind to continue their relationship. After all, Anin and Sara had also been in harmony, loving each other like brother and sister. Sara also supports Anin until Anin can recover from Tokophobia she suffered. Sara's existence had a positive impact on Anin as well.
“Sara, I hope ... someday your decision will change. I wish we could be together again Sara. It's so hard to see this room empty without your figure. All sides of this room are filled with your shadows, even I remember the last time our union here was. Damn, all that can never pass, Sara.”
Belva muttered slowly, “Sara .. Sara ...”
The real pain felt not only Sara there, but also Belva. Yeah, the strong impulse of loss that made the man come to Sara's room. Sitting alone in that room.
Meanwhile, Anin realizes that Belva is not in her room. The woman then came out of the room, intending to find where her husband was. Apparently Anin saw Sara's half-open room door. Anin peeked out from the opening of the door and the woman saw Belva sitting with her back on the sofa with her eyes closed.
Slowly Anin came and approached Belva.
“You're here? I'm looking for you,” said Anin slowly.
Stunned, Belva opened her eyes and straightened her back. The man turned his neck to look at Anin who was already sitting next to him.
“Ah, yes ... difficult to break the habit for the past year,” reply Belva.
Of course it was a custom where most of the night Belva would come to Sara in her room. Waiting for the woman to fall asleep, Belva returned to her own room in the middle of the night.
Anin nodded, her feelings as a woman as if she could accept the words of her husband.
“Iya .. I know. It's okay, here it is. If you're back in the room,” reply Anin.
After saying that Anin stood up, her hand moved to pat her husband on the shoulder. Yes, Anin will also give time to Belva. He knew it wasn't easy, not just for Belva, but for himself. Yes, Anin also felt lost the figure of Sara.
Belva nodded her head faintly, and rested her back on the sofa. His heart was too painful at the moment, but he could not speak. Can only hold everything alone. Her feelings for Sara were like anything, unspoken.