Solihah Women the Love of the Heart
ep 53 - If I Became a Mu'alaf?

The pain of giving birth is as painful as a thousand diseases gathered into one.

“Hikz... A Yusuf where are you? Do you know? I risked my life for another. I still endure that pain. My life really feels crumpled. Is this what it feels like to give birth? Plus the pain was felt when Aa was not beside me!” inner Hafidzah screaming.

Hafidzah awoke from his sleep, he looked around the room still not finding Joseph beside him. Her eyes again broke because she remembered the promise of her husband who would accompany her while struggling to give birth.

“Have weaned, Ma'am?” said doctor.

“Iya Doctor, Where is my child?” tanya Hafidzah can't wait to meet her son for the first time.

“For a while, Ma'am! Being bathed first by sister,”

“...” Hafidzah nods a sign of understanding.

The atmosphere of the hospital is very crowded and peaceful. The doctors do their job very well because the patients want to get good service as well. This is the spirit of a beautiful woman and a solihah named Hafidzah was fighting to give birth to her child. Alhamdulillah Hafidzah's first daughter with Joseph, Siti Mikaila Khadizah, was born safely.

Soon a small baby who had been bedonged by a nurse was handed over to Hafidzah. Hafidzah who saw his little baby was of course happy he was unceasingly saying hamdallah while crying tears.

“Ea…! Ea...!” The baby's voice was so loud that it was heard by all corners of the world that even the angels witnessed the whining sound that was so melodious.

“Cup... Umi's son is sweet in voice. Solihah yes, Son!” said Hafidzah to the baby he was struggling with.

The baby was silent and smiled as if he understood what the mother had told him. When Hafidzah was busy fondling the baby, suddenly Joseph approached Hafidzah.

“Masya Allah son of Abi!” yusuf said with a smile.

“Aa where are you? I fought alone! Where is the promise of Aa who will accompany Hafidzah at birth?” ask Hafidzah while crying.

“Excuse Aa Hafidzah! Aa was meeting earlier did not open the phone,” said Yusuf with a face to regret.

“Ya has gapapa, A..” Reply Hafidzah.

“Im sorry Aa yes! Here Aa wants to carry this beautiful princess Aa!” yusuf exclaimed, taking Mikaila from the lap of Hafidzah.

“Iya, A” while thrusting Mikaila on Joseph.

“Eh has slept beautiful baby Abi,” said Yusuf while putting Mikaila to bed provided by nurses.

Shortly after, I entered the room. I saw Hafidzah with Joseph talking suddenly I remembered the past when I was Joseph's wife.

I saw that cute little baby fell asleep with pretty pink cheeks like Mom.

“Whose name is it, Zah?” I asked while holding the cheeks of the baby Hafidzah.

“Siti Mikaila Khodizah, Mbak” reply Hafidzah while smiling at Hafidzah.

“Masya Allah is beautiful as her name is her face and her mother.”.

“Alhamdulillah, Thank you..” Reply Hafidzah.

“Ya already then excuse me first!” I'm saying retreat.

“Thank you Ma'am, have helped Hafidzah..”.

“...” I nodded a sign of understanding.

My gaze still did not want to share with Mikaila the beautiful-faced little baby, who was still sleeping soundly on the Mattress that warmed her body.

Unknowingly the time has shown at 10:00 p.m. I was too late to go home and when I got out of the hospital I saw the road had started to be quiet vehicles were rare. I'm confused about going up, am I going home? I just walked forward little by little until there was a taxi.

“Raisa!” Call someone in a white car.

I stopped my steps and turned towards the loud voice. The voice of the young man in the white car was Morgan. My eyes were back to water when I looked at them. I can't keep going like this. This love is too deep but togetherness is impossible to unite. Without thinking Morgan got out of his car and walked up to me.

“Raisa..” greet Morgan.

“Why are you still outside gini nights?” morgan asked, smiling.

“I've visited Hafidzah in the hospital. Hafidzah gave birth.” replied me then continued my steps.

“Means you met Yusuf?” Morgan began to raise his voice.

“Iya,” I stopped my steps and turned to him.

“You don't know, if I'm jealous!”

“You're jealous?” my ask while gnashing my forehead out of astonishment.

“Morgan, you want to be jealous or not it will not change the state of our love, our love cannot be united!” I reply by raising my voice. I also put my feet back.

“If I convert how?!” ask Morgan.

I heard the words of the convert that came out of Morgan's mouth I immediately stopped my steps and turned towards him and approached him.

“Mu'alaf?” my many.

“Iya, if I am mu'alaf and moved faith how?”

“That's impossible! Religion can't be played by Morgan! Don't because you love me you move on. That bragging must come from your heart!” I looked back at her eyes.

“But Raisa!”

“Taxi!” not only has Morgan continued the conversation I've called a taxi and then boarded that taxi.

“Raisa!”

“Raisa!”

“Raisa!”

Morgan was shouting at me.

***

Today is sunday. Morgan was sitting in a gym chair playing with his phone, suddenly his stomach was hungry and Morgan rushed to the kitchen to cook eggs because Ms. Angel was out of town.

As Morgan was walking towards the kitchen Morgan glanced at the living room table. He saw a book called “ISLAM ITAH” which he bought yesterday afternoon. He stopped his intention to cook the egg and went to the book and sat down at the soup and read the book from the beginning.

She had read it until she found a quote that made her knock on the door of her heart when she found a Hadith of Prophet Muhammad Sholallahu Alaihi Wassalam narrated by Muslims :

أَمَا عَلِمْتَ أَنَّ الْإِسْلَامَ يَهْدِمُ مَا كَانَ قَبْلَهُ وَأَنَّ الْهِجْرَةَ تَهْدِمُ مَا كَانَ قَبْلِهَا وَأَنَّ الْحَجَّ يَهْدِمُ مَا كَانَ قَبْلَهُ

It means “Don't you know that Islam aborted (sins) before, and that the hijrah aborted (sins) earlier that the hajj aborted (sins) earlier.”

Morgan also discovered the Hadith of Prophet Muhammad Sholallahu Alaihi Wassalam narrated by Bukhari :

إِذَا أَسْلَمَ الْعَبْدُ فَحَسُنَ إِسْلَامُهُ يُكَفِّرُ اللَّهُ عَنْهُ كُلَّ سَيِّئَةٍ كَانَ زَلَفَهَا

وَكَانَ بَعْدَ ذَلِكَ الْقِصَاصُ الْحَسَنَةُ بِعَشْرِ أَمْثَالِهَا إِلَى سَبْعِ مِائَةِ

ضِعْفٍ وَالسَّيِّئَةُ بِمِثْلِهَا إِلَّا أَنْ يَتَجَاوَزَ اللَّهُ عَنْهَا

It means “When a person converts to Islam then the Islam becomes good, Allah will remove all evil that has been done. After that, he will be rewarded, and every good will be reciprocated by Allah ten to seven hundred times. While his crime is avenged (only) as good as his crime, unless Allah forgives him.”

From some of the hadiths above it can be concluded that becoming a convert will bring the priority/great benefits for someone, including

Allah SWT will forgive his past sins Allah will record all the good that has been done and will repay those good deeds with a reward of 10 times to 700 times, for a crime he committed, he will be rewarded with a just reward unless Allah has forgiven him.

Morgan began to knock his heart and Morgan began to be strong with his belief to be a mu'alaf.