The Aisyah Love Pier
When the Heart is Doubting

Aisyah still could not believe what she had just heard. He was really worried about what decision he had to take so that there would be no regrets later on.

No matter how big the problem is, life has to go on. Choosing silence will only waste free time, but stepping onto the wrong path will also only bring harm, whether now or later. And stepping onto the right path is certainly a desire, but again, it is only God knows.

Not only about which steps Aisha should take, but also about the disposition of the heart that still shows doubt.

Aisyah raised her face looking at Bude Luna beside her who was smiling while nodding her head, then her gaze turned to Mother Sofi who also threw a friendly smile at her. Do not ask Zafran, the veiled woman did not even once dare to look at the man sitting right before her.

"Sofi's mother, Mr. Zafran, I'm very grateful for her good intentions, but do you know, I'm just a ja..."

"We already know son, and it's not a problem for us, Zafran is also a widower of one child," said Ms. Sofi quickly before Aisyah finished her words.

"For sure if you marry nak Zafran, you don't have to worry anymore because you will immediately have children" continued Bude Luna.

Now that all the gazes were directed at him, a look of hope and a look of sincerity could be felt from the mother and child before him.

Aisha bowed down again, contemplating the desires of her heart. However, to the extent that he dived in search of answers from his heart, he still felt doubtful.

"I'm sorry, can I ask for time to think?" ask Aisyah later.

"Please, son, we are not in a hurry, Zafran is also ready to wait for your answer whenever it is," said Sofi's mother, "yes right, son?" he asked Zafran.

"Yes Aisyah, please think carefully, whenever you find an answer I am ready to wait for him" said Zafran, making his heart a little relieved.

After the meeting that afternoon, Aisyah chose to return home to calm her tired self.

Not only tired, he was also really upset about the barrage of problems he faced over the last two years after his divorce.

However, Aisyah was confused by her heart. The proposal this time came from a good man who looked sincere, already had children, so of course the man would not demand her to give birth to children immediately.

Perfect actually, but somehow, deep in his little heart there was a speck of doubt he felt.

Prayer istikharah also began to do, hoping that God the Ruler of the Heart gives him steadfastness in determining the best choice.

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A few days had passed, but Aisha had not yet obtained the steadiness of a choice she had to make.

Like this morning, it felt like Aisyah was reluctant to leave for school, there was no particular reason, she said, it's just that he feels bad if he always meets Zafran at school and he doesn't have an answer to the man's proposal.

Even so, he still has to be professional and not drag personal problems into work affairs.

Aisyah's motorbike has now stopped right on the school grounds. Today he chose to come early to avoid meeting with Zafran. It seemed that all the students were passing by in the corridor, not least the teachers who began to arrive one by one.

"Assalamu 'alaikum Bu Aisyah," said one of the teachers who had also just parked his motorbike.

"Wa'alaikum salam, Mr. Ahmad," he replied.

"It just so happens that we meet here. Sorry, did Ms. Aisyah have a minute, I want to talk" asked Mr. Ahmad.

"Sorry, what's wrong, sir? Let's just talk here" replied Aisyah who started to feel a little uneasy with the other teachers.

"Is it tonight you're home? I want to go to both of your parents" said Mr. Ahmad.

Aisyah shrugged her forehead hearing Mr. Ahmad's words, "sorry sir, but what's wrong?"

"I, I want to ask you Ayesha." Mr. Ahmad said softly.

"What's? How could? Doesn't this man have a wife?" aisha wondered.

"Sorry sir, I'm ..."

"Ummi," called a girl who had just gotten off the car cutting Aisyah's conversation.

"I will go to your house later tonight Aisyah, we talk about it carefully," said Mr. Ahmad then immediately left when he saw one of his students walking towards Aisyah with his father.

"Aisha, come to your class, dear, papa wants to talk to Ummi for a moment" Zafran said.

Aisyah again feels uncomfortable with Zafran, especially when the man says 'Ummi you', sounds like a husband who wants to talk to his wife and mother of his child.

Though this morning Aisyah had arrived early to avoid meeting with Zafran, but because of Mr. Ahmad, his efforts this morning failed.

But come to think of it, it was not entirely the fault of Mr. Ahmad, because at first he was the one who requested that the man speak in the schoolyard only.

"Yes, Pa," answered Khaira obediently and ran into her class.

"Sorry, there's something I want to talk about" Zafran said softly.

"Speak, sir," replied Aisyah.

The man seemed to feel uneasy when talking in the school yard, evident from his views that had not been calm since.

"I'm sorry, can we talk somewhere else, I'm not comfortable talking here" he said.

Aisyah glanced at the glance of the watch circling her wrist.

"Calm down, it's just a moment" he continued, who understood Aisyah's attitude.

They also went to a park not far from the school, the park happened to be quite crowded in the morning.

"I'm sorry, I took your time for a while" Zafran said after sitting on one of the park benches.

"It's okay, speak up, sir," said Aisyah bowed but reluctant to sit down.

"Sit Ayesha" pinta Zafran.

"It's okay, sir, I'm more comfortable like this" Aisyah said.

Zafran was heard breathing out slowly, he looked at the veiled woman beside him but was not close. Obviously the woman was very careful while talking to the opposite sex, even she tried to keep a safe distance between them and that was a plus in Zafran's eyes.

While several other women are vying to offer themselves up to be her special friend, Aisyah seems to be keeping her boundaries and her views, no matter how handsome the man before her is this time.

"Did you not have an answer to my proposal the other day? Honestly I really hope you can accept it, because Khaira really needs a mother figure, even I need a wife figure beside me."

Zafran paused his words for a moment to calm the turmoil in his chest.

"Tante Luna has told me all about your condition, and you should know that I am ready to accept all your shortcomings, so you don't have to worry" he continued.

"Think carefully Aisyah, however you have the right to make a choice and I will not force you" he added.

"Thank you for giving me time to think, God willing I will think about it carefully" replied Aisha.

They separated in the garden with their own thoughts.

As Zafran's car drove away from school, a little girl came from behind Aisyah.

"Ummi."

Aisyah turned her head and her eyes instantly faded when she found Khaira behind her.

"Khaira's? Why are you here, baby?" he said while gently pulling Khaira's hand to get into the class but the girl kept trying to keep quiet.

"Why baby?"

"Ummi, be Mama Khaira."

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