
Giving up does not mean losing or not having the effort, even though the ego in the heart does not want to lose, but deep in the heart seems to want to fight with difficulty.
Love makes one's ego increase, but not infrequently, because one's love discards his ego.
If this is the case, which path to choose? Putting ego forward or forgetting ego?
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That night, everyone gathered in Zafran's spacious outpatient room, where there was a sofa of a large size, enough for some. Aisyah and her parents and Ainun sat there with Ibu Sofi and Khaira, while Akmal preferred to be near Zafran.
The man was sitting right beside Zafran's bed, where the man was currently half lying down. While Akmal took out the laptop from his bag and began to return to work as usual.
Unlike Akmal, Zafran prefers to read the Qur'an in a quiet voice. Verse by verse he chanted so solemnly, he dived and sought tranquility in every of His beautiful words. Until it does not feel he has finished his reading with the closing sentence 'shadaqallaahul 'azhim'.
Zafran glanced at Akmal who still remained focused in the same position. The face of his cousin was so tired. How not, in addition he must continue to work to manage the company in Indonesia, he also takes care of Zafran, and helps all the needs of Ibu Sofi and Khaira.
"Akmal," he called out quietly, making the man beside him instantly turn towards him.
"Rest, you must be very tired" said Zafran.
"A little while now, Bang. This is a responsibility."
Akmal returned to work, this time he did not immediately accept the advice of his cousin's brother. According to him, under these circumstances, everything must be done without delay because it will only accumulate other work later on.
"Akmal," Zafran called back, making Akmal again turn towards him.
"Have you no desire to get married yet?"
Akmal furrowed his brows at Zafran's completely unpredictable question.
"Why is that all of a sudden? You want to marry me, Bang?" asked the man, making Zafran round his eyes.
"Astaghfirullah, as sick as I am, I am still a normal man." I don't know why just hearing it Zafran has enough goosebumps.
"You want to marry me to someone? That's what I mean, Bang, duh," said Akmal immediately clarified his words before rumors emerged that were not true that could certainly harm him in the future.
Zafran shook his head slowly. "Do you have no one in your heart?" ask again.
"Hmmm, it seems not yet," Akmal replied casually as he checked the incoming email on his laptop.
"Lied you, Mal," inner Zafran. He clearly realized Akmal was hiding his feelings by no longer staring at him like he had when answering his question.
"What did I know yesterday about you? You're not interested in him?" ask Zafran oenuh.
"That yesterday I didn't rek, Bang. You see he's a little chatty for the size of the person who just met the man for the first time. I prefer women who are calm and keep the boundaries of men instead of mahrams" Akmal replied at length.
"Like Ayesha," inner Zafran.
"If it's Ayesha's friend?" Zafran flicked his chin pointing at Ainun who seemed to be playing with Khaira.
"Hufth, you electorate," dumel Zafran, made Akmal laugh softly.
"Look easy, Bang. Don't think too much about who my soul mate is. Just focus on your health so that during the operation your body will be fit," said Akmal then returned to work.
Zafran stared at the ceiling for a moment then let out a rough breath. He re-thought about how the continuation of the wedding plan later, what should be continued or how?
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Time continues to run, until it is not felt two more days Zafran kidney transplant surgery will be done. The doctor who will operate on Zafran began to recheck the health condition of his patient, so that he can ensure that his patient this time can be operated on.
While outside the room, Sofi and Khaira's mother, along with Aisyah and her family are waiting for the doctor to check on Zafran.
Shortly after, Akmal arrived at the hospital with his mother and sister. Well, that guy just picked up two other women of that generation at the airport.
"Why are you guys outside? What's wrong with Bang Zafran?" akmal asked with a worried face. The man thought something was going on with his cousin's sister.
"Calm down, kid. The doctor is currently checking Zafran's health before performing surgery in two days" Sofi's mother replied.
Hearing that, Akmal immediately let out a sigh of relief. "Thankfully, it seems like I'm thinking too far," Akmal said as he scratched his non-itchy head.
Inside Zafran's nursery, the doctor was speaking seriously with his patient.
"Do you know who donated his kidney to me?" ask Zafran.
"I'm sorry, sir, we can't name his identity because the man himself asked to be kept secret" the doctor said.
"Please doc, just this time," pinta Zafran said.
However, whose name the doctor of course has to keep his promise to keep his patients confidential, it is his code of ethics. Both donors and donors are both patients because later they will be operated on.
"I'm sorry, I can't, sir," the doctor refused again.
Zafran let out a rough breath. "Then let me guess, is the name of the kidney donor Akmal El-Mumtaz?" asked Zafran while watching the eye movements and mimic the doctor's face.
The look on his face was shocked as well as the movement of avoiding the look of the eyes. Right, he is Akmal.
"If it is the person who will donate a kidney to me, then I do not want to continue this operation" Zafran said, immediately making the doctor round his eyes to look at Zafran.
"Sorry, Sir. Butwhy? It is very difficult to find a suitable kidney donor at this time, we do not know how you are in the future, but at least while there is an opportunity, please use it well," explained the doctor.
"I just don't want my brother to always sacrifice for me. It's time for me to sacrifice for him" he said in a soft voice.
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