
When interest approaches, when caring begins to take hold, and when longing begins to haunt, what is the definition of that feeling?
Do not ask how restless the heart is when the feeling is present but the mind rejects it.
Is this heart fortress still solid, or is it starting to crack by new seeds that unwittingly begin to grow and bloom in the heart?
God, You are as good as the Lord of Hearts, I leave my heart to You, where it will be anchored, then there I will also achieve Your Ridho.
(Aisha Sidqia Rahman)
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Aisha was in her room now. But strangely, his heart was still beating fast when he remembered the incident this afternoon.
Not because of the good looks of the face, because in fact, his heart started pounding when he heard the man's voice. A very familiar voice in his sense of hearing, but he did not remember when he heard the sound.
"Aisyah, can Ummi come in?" asked Lina's mother who was currently in the doorway of Aisyah's room.
"Just enter Ummi, why should you ask permission?" aisyah said with a smile.
Lina's mother came in and sat on the bed, right next to Aisyah who was sitting.
"So Ummi was in contact with Bude you, he asked the answer to the proposal of a man named Zafran," said Lina's mother softly.
"Either Ummi, Aisha was completely confused by Aisha's heart" said Aisha lethargic.
"Try to tell Ummi son what is disturbing your heart and mind, Ummi see you seem a lot of thoughts," said Ms. Lina.
"Ummi, Aisyah feels sorry for Khaira, she whines for Aisyah to be her mother, as well as her father, Mr. Zafran, she is really good and ready to accept all the shortcomings of Aisyah," Aisyah said while bowed.
"Then what do you doubt dear, if it is already like that, accept the proposal, perhaps God deliberately brought you together to complement each other." Lina's mother rubbed Aisyah's head gently.
"Aisha Ummi's heart, Aisha's heart until now is still doubtful, even it seems that Ayesha's heart is currently attached to someone but I don't know who Ummi is." Aisyah pointed at her chest with almost cluttered eyebrows.
"Darling, try to calm your heart, and dive into it carefully, lest your heart still clings to your past son, so many men have come to you, and Zafran is the most perfect, right? Try to open your heart to her, son" asked Ms. Lina.
In the end the middle-aged woman felt the need to convince Aisyah's heart, she was worried that her daughter would continue to be cooped up by her past if no one treated her heart with love. And he firmly believes that Zafran is the right man.
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Days continued to change, and it did not feel like a month had passed since Zafran asked Aisyah, and to this day, Aisyah had not given the man an answer.
This morning on Sunday, Ms. Lina asked Aisyah to help buy some vegetables at the end of the road not far from her home. And it was certainly not a difficult thing for Aisyah, although she rarely went to the forging because she more often bought vegetables at the super market when she came home from teaching.
And here it is now. They are among those mothers who also want to buy vegetables.
"Yah's aisha?" ask one of the mothers who is choosing vegetables.
"Yes Ma'am" Aisyah replied politely.
"Dear of? That's Kyai Rahman's son, right?" ask the other mother.
"Yes, ma'am" he replied again.
"It turns out you're still here, I thought you were married again" the mother said.
"How to marry Jeng, all men who come are always rejected" said another mother.
Aisyah's heart began to feel uneasy about the mothers' conversation. He began to choose vegetables dengat fast in order to leave immediately, but their story actually widened and cornered Aisyah.
"I can see, I see the men who proposed to you are all great and handsome, why is it still rejected anyway?"
Aisyah tried hard not to pierce their questions, while paying for her vegetables and was about to leave, but the words of one of the mothers slightly tickled her hearing.
"Yes, don't be widowed dong, you are still very young and beautiful, we-we as married women honestly feel afraid."
"Sorry Mom, I'm afraid why?" ask Aisyah curiously.
"Yes be afraid that our husband will be with you" said one of the mothers.
Deghs
Instantly Aisyah felt her pride as a woman was trampled by their fellow who claimed to be a woman.
What's wrong? After all Aisyah never spread charm to their husbands, Aisyah even more often stay at home after finishing teaching and college, if you leave the house, at least the dock is the goal.
But why would they even say such a painful thing, their prejudice had really hurt Aisha's heart.
"Sorry Mom, if my status here makes you feel uncomfortable, but you should know, I never think about what you're thinking about right now, I hope mothers no longer judge someone just because of their status," said Aisyah then sege+ra left the place with teary eyes.
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In the middle of the sea, the waves this afternoon seemed unfriendly. Seen from the tugboat ship that several times up and down due to the lunge of the waves.
However, instead of worrying, Akmal actually looks relaxed in the middle of his daydream that is anchored in no direction. Whether Zafran's offer to work at his company or the two pairs of beautiful eyes that have always graced his dreams lately, what a mystery the port of the heart is complicated.
"Hey bro, if you're not ready to part with that one over there, you're just gonna come back ashore, instead of you like that. Your body is here but your soul is there. Not ready to standby because there are waves, instead daydreaming," grumbled the Great.
"What the heck are you, disturb my calm" murmured Akmal.
"Hey, don't you see that wave in front of you?" Agung pointed at the waves in front of their ship that was rolling high as if to show its prowess.
"Look" he replied casually.
"Then why are you still relaxing like this?" tanya Agung did not think.
"Bro, I may look relaxed at the moment, but I remain vigilant" Akmal replied.
"It's up to you then, dizzy I see you like that," said Agung then went to prepare himself if suddenly the Captain gave instructions on standby.
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Elsewhere, Zafran was holding a white paper on his desk. His face looked so tense and a little pale.
Somehow his heart was agitated at this time, until he decided to send a message to Akmal, hoping that his cousin could read it while his ship was leaning for the contents of the cargo.
Right after he sent a message to Akmal, an incoming message from a foreign number suddenly distracted him.
Unknown
Assalamu 'alaikum warahmatulli wabarakatuh
Sorry in advance Mr. Zafran because I was slow to give an answer to Mr. Zafran's proposal a few weeks ago. But now I have the answer, and I am willing.
Please Mr. Zafran come to the house with the family to apply officially. We waited. And once again I apologize for giving an answer only through a short message like this, hopefully Mr. Zafran can understand. Wassalam
Aisha.
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