The Future of Princess Sabina
Chapter 30 & 31

Chapter 30: Feelings of Sadness and Regret

Later that same night, I lay alone in bed and felt sad. I touched and studied the Zeto Crystal, but nothing differentiated it from the typical blue sapphire. I felt sorry, depressed, and full of anxiety. My innocence has been lost in the last few months. It started with Joshua's fucking party. I ignored my premonition that I shouldn't have left, and I kept going. I ignored my feelings, as I followed a drunk Joshua into his room to 'speak privately'. He has tried to force himself on me, and I have unleashed my supernatural powers on him, causing havoc in his sanity and leaving him as a self-mutilated mental accident.

But had it been justified of me to turn him into a soul, which caused him to cut himself off, and had he confessed to being mentally ill? I felt a sense of guilt engulfing me. I quickly put away that feeling. Despite Joshua's emotional state, he had no right to rape me! Josh is a real jerk, selfish. Alex, on the other hand, has been infatuated with me for years, yet she refuses to have an **** with me unless I'm mentally prepared. Alex has always been so kind and observant to my feelings, I knew that he would never take advantage of me.

My mind wanders to Yussuf, the suicide bomber, who has killed dozens of people and would have killed me, if not for divine intervention. Could it all be different, if I used my superpowers and crushed Yussuf subconsciously with a psionic explosion, as soon as I felt his restless state of mind? There's no way for me to know, and it doesn't make sense to make him faint on the move just yet. But that thought did not leave my mind.

I thought of Jakub Kluger, the Mossad agent who had killed Dov before my eyes and was about to kill me, when lightning struck him. I could save him, but I let him die. I decided that the result was due to his own actions, but do I have the right to leave the bad guys to suffer and die?

Most importantly, I thought of Simona Fischbein. I had dragged him into a dangerous situation, when I took him to the Templar Tunnel in the Temple of Solomon. There was no reason for him to come with me, and in the end, his contribution didn't matter. However, I was willing to risk his life, taking him to the Tunnel. Although it was Ben Yehuda who had ended his life, I was involved in his death, and it was something I had to live with.

I looked at the selfie we took together, disguised as a happy tourist outside the Temple of Solomon. She looked so beautiful, youthful, and innocent in the picture, yet, less than an hour later, the Mossad killed her. When I cried myself to sleep, I promised myself to no longer let innocent people die because of me.

Chapter 31: The Lifting Meeting with Eric Orchard.

A few days later, I felt a little better, and I met my best friend and half-brother, Eric Orchard. Most of my classmates thought that we were a couple, because no one knew that we had a family relationship other than my current mother, Ellen and I. The late father of Eric Marvin Orchard, was, it was my real father, because he had an affair with my mother, under the influence of the True Creator. Not knowing this secret, Eric considers me his best friend, and I have played together.

Before I left home, I did something I normally wouldn't do; I applied simple yet sweet makeup to my face. I've spent the last few days in anguish, crying a lot, and having trouble sleeping. I realized that it was a natural response for someone who had lived a safe and sheltered life, to react like this after witnessing all the deaths and bloodshed in Israel, he said, but I don't want to talk about it anymore.

I met Eric at an expensive sushi restaurant, close to the chess club where we used to hang out after school. As we sat down, Eric looked at me and spoke, "Wow, I never thought I'd see you wearing Sabina's thick makeup... You look like a charming clown!" He grinned and looked at me, mischievously.

" pst. I'm going to date Alex today, and I want to look mesmerizing for the occasion, ” I replied, a little annoyed at Eric's brotherly jokes.

"lex? Who's Alex? " Erik asked in a confused voice. "Alexander O'Neill from 12C" I replied and smiled. "I saw. I have heard that Alex is very popular among many girls. ” Said Eric in doubt. “ Well, he has expressed his admiration for me. Now that I finally see him eye to eye, I will be happy for the moment he is official,” replied I am confident and added in, I will be happy,“ And no matter whether he is a person or not, I cannot live my life as a virgin hypocrite anymore. I want to lose my virginity to her. " I replied, "OK, I just want you to be aware of it" Eric said. "Yes, and it doesn't bother me that I'm not the first time" I replied. I called a waiter to attend our table, and I ordered, "An extra-large Sushi Canape plate for two, a teapot of Earl Grey and Hibiscus, and a packet of beer."

“I just want to sample everything the restaurant has to offer. Money has been easy for me lately. Remember how we used to walk past this place, on our way to the chess club, amazed at how expensive it was? “ Yes, Sabina. That was just a few months ago! ” Eric reply. “This feels like a lifetime ago. You know, I went through a near-death experience while I was in Jerusalem. I died briefly from a suicide bombing. I remember that the True Maker told me that this was not yet the time for me to leave. And I woke up. Dying and changing my perspective on life. And that's why I ate expensive sushi and dated Alex. " "I understand, " answered Eric. But Eric couldn't understand, not completely, because Eric was just an ordinary guy, and I wasn't. I am a unique girl, packed with the supernatural power of empathy and mind-altering abilities.

Our Sushi tasting plate came in, and it was delicious. My younger, innocent self would object to killing animals for food, but I was more preoccupied with deeper feelings of guilt. As I had more Sushi and Nigiri scrolls, I felt my moodiness return. While the taste of fresh Sashimi stimulated my taste buds, it did not satisfy my soul. My soul needs a goal to be happy, and I struggle to find a satisfying goal after what I've experienced.

Eric noticed something was bothering me and took it: “What's bothering you? Don't you like the food? ”

I shrugged, looked away, and replied, “ I think the food is good. It's nothing. ”

Eric grabbed my hand and looked for eye contact. He looked me in the eye and spoke, “Sabina, I've known you for years. I know when something is bothering you. "

I nodded and replied: "I just... It's just that I'm an adult now, and I want to make the world a better place, but I don't know what to do? "

Eric gave me a reassuring smile and replied: "But you make the world a better place! You make it better for me, your parents, and everyone around you. "

"Thank you, Eric. It's just that I want to make a lasting impact and make humanity better as a whole. ” I replied calmly.

My statement silenced Eric for a while, and he looked like he was thinking about something intensively. Finally, he spoke: "How about you use your talent for online trading to do good?" I shook my head and replied: “There is nothing good about trading, it is just a system created by the rich to maintain the status quo. Regardless of how much money I make from trading, I have not contributed to society. “ Don't be small-minded, Sabina. The world is unfair because the rich are too strong. Revolutions don't work, but what if you beat them at their own game? ”

Eric's response lifted my spirits. I have been depressed over the past few days because I realized that taking the Zeto Crystal did not cause anything, and I have lost my innocence, witnessing all the death and suffering in Jerusalem. But Eric has given me an idea of how I can use my abilities to make the world a better place. Many projects can improve the future of mankind, but they do not get funding because it is not profitable. If I can make a lot of money from trading, I can spend it on philanthropy, and projects that will make the world a better place.

"Erics... Thank you for lifting my spirits. It's a good plan! “I exclaim with joy. "Uhm, equally, Sabina," Eric replied, amazed at how quickly my mood improved. " I have to go, it's time to make some money" I said happily. I le ft a few hundred dollars for the bill, and I took off with a flabbergasted Eric sitting there, unsure how he was going to eat all the left Sushi plates.