The Shadow of the Former
I don't want the same
Hendrawan tried to hold back, himself to stay calm.
"Why are you stubborn Renata, asked Hendrawan.
"Yes .indeed I have been stubborn for so long, why do you love a stubborn person like me, Renata replied.
"what do you mean by saying that ' asked Hendrawan.
"I am stubborn and can't be submissive and gentle like your ex Renata replied
"I never compare you to my ex, for me you are you, I never compare you ? Hendrawan.
"Of course you never compare me to your ex, but you ask me to diet so that I am the same as Andini is not it ? "because Andini used to be full and you made her slim and asked me to wear the same dress with ? The angry word Renata .
"have you not moved on from him, .. I don't want to be your Bonek I don't want to be his shadow , I will not live from the shadow of your ex I do not want to be your escape, cried Renata who harbored his frustration for a few days because of the treatment of Hendrawan who continued to manage his life after deciding to date him.
"Every night Andini told me she used to eat potato chips in her bed and you know you're not angry, and the so sweet scene instead helped her replace her bedsheets, Renata said.
'so because you were jealous that you denied and tried to rebel ? ask Hendrawan who has begun to ignite emotions.
" No I am not jealous, even if you go back to him I will not be jealous, said Renata also had lost her mind.
'you....!! Hendrawan held a dizzy head and sat there calming down but he was lying at the table making the bodyguard immediately ran over and immediately called the ambulance.
Renata pecked for a while before holding and shaking Hendrawan's hand.
"Hendrawan.. don't scare him me, you why. asked Renata looking at Hendrawan.
not how long the ambulance had come and immediately handled Hendrawan's body bringing him to the hospital.
Renata followed her, with tears, sadness, regret and a sense of annoyance that became one in her heart.
after Samapi and being dealt with, Renata was still sitting in the waiting room chair when, Madam Angi came.
"Re... What's wrong with Hendrawan ? ask Mrs Angi Hendrawan's mother.
"i didn't know he just looked dizzy and then fell unconscious at the table where we had breakfast, you could ask the doctor, Renata said.
"alright, you may go home I will wait for him here, replied Mrs Angi.
"then excuse me my mistress went to work first, said Renata, stabbing respect and leaving.
Renata leaves the hospital feeling erratic, wirerir and blaming himself, but he also still feels upset if he is not hard on him of course he does not need to fight with her.
And he was upset about all this, and, maybe also because Renata who had lived very freely and all the guwe had to be given very strict rules let alone hear that Andini was never treated so while with him, with him, Hendrawan is very hard and tight.
How could he accept all this easily and be able to obey all this without refuting like the demands of Hendrawan, who complied without refuting all the rules and words.
he will use, the most famous verse in the whole universe, a wife must submit to her husband and I must study Muslims from now on because I am his only future wife , achh it's just his excuse, Renata argued inwardly
although Renata also knew that the verse was indeed in the Bible probably, because his heart was already in a rage and he asked himself if it was true that he was jealous of Andini .
Renata let out a long sigh and immediately got off the bus he was riding after knowing it was near his workplace.
Renata said to remain calm even though his heart was not out of his mind, how Hendrawan is now, whether he is aware, whether he is okay.
all those feelings were raging in her heart, and the lunch seat saw Andini coming to the food stall where she worked.
Renata approached her after Andini waved a ladder at her.
"Re.. do you know that Hendrawan is in the hospital ? andini asked after Renata sat in front of her.
"Yes, I know, said Renata lirih
'Do you know why he went to the hospital ? ask Andini again.
"i don't know ' said Renata lirih.
"said my friend who became a nurse who was there , said that she had high blood pressure so high that she had a heart attack and had to be treated in the hospital , andini said while looking intently at Renata as if investigating something.
"Do you know, if it keeps on like this is very dangerous for his heart ? andini.
Renata simply shook her head and shed tears, biting her own lips trying to endure the pain that pierced her heart.
Andini after, eat then go from there and Renata just looked at Andini's tall slim body, using a dress very gracefully .
Renata can't lie to her very different from Andini .
Ranta is 153 cm tall with a weight that is over weight, his cheeks that friends make him look cute according to his, and he feels no need to change anything that is on him.
He also does not need to be like Andini or anyone . all this time he always believes that people love him, because his heart is not body or appearance, he does not even care so much about appearance.
No need to dress up just attracts someone's attention and he always says that if people love us, he should also be able and able to accept the good and bad of a partner .
no need according to the appropriate partner we want but must respect and respect each other, Renata has been thinking too much about Hendrawan who he feels like he wants to change himself like Andini.
he thought too much that Hendrawan wanted to make Andini present in him.
"No I will not do it, I will not be made into his shadow, cried Renata in heart .
Renata thought too much and wandered with all his own thoughts to the extent that it concluded.
although in fact it may not be as he thought, Renata himself is indeed alive and developing with his own way of thinking and perspective ,for many years he has been used to doing whatever he thinks is good and right and he will continue to walk on what he thinks it is, a very stubborn and not easy to set up or on stand .
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