The Shadow of the Former
you Jealous.

after two days of Renata, waiting for Hendrawan finally reply to WhatsApp, Renata.

📱️good morning also Ren.balas Hendrawan.

📱️ Can I ask you something ?

⁇ ️📱 what do you want to ask ? balas Hendrawan's.

📱️ is there another woman besides me ?

⁇ ️📱 what do you mean talk like that ? ask Hendrawan.

📱️ do you still have feelings with your ex girlfriend ?

️📱 no need to discuss the past ? answer Hendrawan.

📱️ what is meant by Andini who says , if one day you find your partner met his Ex girlfriend.

️📱 I don't know , why do you ask me , ask him who he means ? ask Hendrawan again .

📱️ I just want to know from , you because you are my partner, to be honest I'm not why don't let me ,Find and get information from others , it will irritate me even more, replied Renata starting to get angry.

️📱 do you accuse me of playing behind you ? ask Hendrawan.

📱️ I didn't say so ? renata said he would not lose.

⁇ ️📱why do you always suspect me with Andini are you jealous , how do you get jealous of something that has passed and is it wrong to establish a relationship with an ex-girlfriend" ? ask Hendrawan.

📱️ I'm not jealous ?you can go back to her trust me I won't get in the way and beg you ?" answer Renata.

⁇ ️ you don't make excuses, do you intend to leave me ? " answered Hendrawan.

📱️ why you even accuse me who is not - not , reply Renata.

️📱 because you are , saying something as if I was cheating behind your back with Andini, while you know it is not possible and she , is already engaged ? how do you make something into a problem that actually never existed, replied Hendrawan who began to be provoked by his emotions.

he was sometimes very dizzy to face the stubborn Renata and loved to argue with her .

📱️ what it really is , it's hard to say honestly, have you ever met your ex girlfriend ? what a hard thing, Renata replied.

📱️ I will not bother , if I know of you alone ,"Hendrawan Atmanegara , Renata sent WhatsApp again.

⁇ ️📱 whatever and think as you please I am tired.The last answer from Hendrawan, and after that there is no reply again even though Renata asked several times.

Not long after that, a friend of Hendrawan told him that Hendrawan fell unconscious and high blood rose making the heart have problems .

the feeling of anger, sad regret re-entered in Renata's heart, , he was so self-loathing that he could not control himself, he said, but he is also a person who can not keep the problem or something that makes him curious for too long, he wants everything finished as soon as possible so as not to interfere with his mind, he wants,because Renata is the type of person who will continue to think about his problems until there is a way out.

all day Renata shut herself up in room , did not open her buttons and just cried releasing all the sadness and frustration of her heart.

However, it is very difficult for people not to think of old love blossoming back when the two ex-lovers who love each other continue to be friendly.

although repeatedly Re , denied his jealousy more , felt angry and upset because Hendrawan did not want to honestly say who the woman who met Hendrawan, why should he hide .

relationships without honesty will be difficult for him, Re prefers openness relationships about the painful past though, as long as mutual openness is certainly not a problem for him.

But Hendrawan prefers not to open the past and throw it away need not be remembered in the open or in the story, for him it is not important that the most important thing for him is to think about the future and the relationship between the two of them, Hendrawan prefers to discuss what we will do later, how many children will be born to Renata, they will live where, how will grow up a child together.

But the feeling that disturbs Renata's mind and heart is not because of jealousy, he is more just making sure that he is not the third person among people who still love each other

he just wanted to make sure, that no heart hurt either Hendrawan or his ex if they still love each other and want to come back

and more especially he also wanted to keep his feelings, so as not to be hurt that he was only a shadow lover for Hendrawan when he was down and helpless.

he is not a problem if it turns out that Hendrawan does not love him, he is just afraid that Hendrawan only makes his lover a shadow in times of loneliness, filler his soul is empty when abandoned Andini, when he was down and just carried away.

hearing that Andini and Hendrawan's relationship is improving and they confide in each other , they are indeed a matching and harmonious couple who complement each other and are beautiful and sexy Hendrawan is very handsome and their looks are the same level unlike Renata only from street children.

whose life is different to Hendrawan, Renata again wrestles with his own thoughts and feelings making him cry himself, in the corner of his room.

he felt solitude, loneliness and no leaning shoulders, he had also lost many friends because of the many rules given by Hendrawan.

He can only relate to Andini and Melani and one friend on social media who became his friend Amy who met in a chat platform noveltoon but he is busy taking care of his family and family the other one's in trouble too.

Renata does not want to disturb his friend who is busy also chasing the date line to make an online novel in Noveltoon.

his eyes had begun to swell, crying even though for a while would make Renata's eyes would immediately appear swollen.

Renata is startled by Andini's ringing of a phone but, "he just sees that he really doesn't want to talk to her, he doesn't want to make his heart go back .

just wanted to be alone and he was reminded of his mother who had not, his best friend who left behind a deep wound that made his heart more bitter, suddenly the sadness increased in , feeling the most worthless person is unloved and has nothing.

Renata sat on the floor hugging her knees, drenching her with tears.Re tried to comfort himself by eying all the good memories with his mother but it all added to the sadness on his chest.

he was left in a bad state when he had just broken up with his lover and friend who had betrayed him, life will always be alternating why there is hate between love and love that ever existed.

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