To The Man Who Broke My Heart
24. Lightweight

After getting permission from Aunt Meli, I immediately booked a plane ticket and went home to prepare. I had to persuade Mbak Inah who was a little sulking because he was left for a week with Sanjai balado chips typical of Bukittinggi. But, it's okay. If Mbak Inah does not sulk, I will also definitely buy him souvenirs.

****

And .. here I am.

“Abang where? Kayra got off the plane, Bang. This goes straight outside kok.” I swerved outwards from the arrival door. It turned out that Bang Bian was already there, waving his hands to catch my attention. I got too excited to meet my number one brother. Quickly I walked up to him, the smile that extended the ear-to-ear daei could not be held back. Bang Bian just stretched out his left arm so I could go in there immediately. Hugged me tightly for a while before peeping the top of my head. He and I were in Kalakian releasing our pawns at the same time.

I can smell the house.

****

"Maa, there's a guest!” I could hear Bang Bian yelling to call Mama as he entered the house through the side door.

I got out of the car and ran to the front door. The door was closed as I thought. I hit the bell three times.

“Iya, wait a minute.” I heard someone saying it from inside.

Her voice sounded soft, it must be Mama's voice. My surprise worked a little more. The excitement and anticipation I felt had reached the crown. I was ready to greet Mama with both hands clenched in front of her chest, who was ready to throw her into the air when she saw her parents. However, unexpectedly not expected, who opened the door was even a burly man. Not a fifty-year-old woman who is small and petite.

“Waaaaaa, Brother's beloved sister. Mamaaa!” Now it was my brother's turn to embrace me tightly, excited.

What in thr actual hell? What the hell's been going on?

Obviously, my plan failed completely. The initial desire of— that I have told Bang Bian— is that I want Mama to open the door, not the manchild many bacots that are the twin of this Bang Bian. I suddenly put on a sour face.

“Why pout you? Not happy to see you, brother, huh? Not kangen same Brother, yes?” Never mind. I said what too. Bang Rian was talking too much.

“Where's the name?” I was still standing in front of the door, with my hands crossed in front of my chest and my face pouting.

Bang Rian's expression softened and he finally hugged me properly this time. “Mama same Papa is inside, Deck, want to get ready to eat. Yuk, come in first. Don't be your vampire. Wait to be invited first before entering the house.”

I clap his dirty arms with all my heart.

My brother is getting cowering.

Finally I gave up and stepped into the house that had become a residence as well as where we returned all complaints since our first day, the children of Mr. Deni and Ibu Ayu, the children of Mr. Deni, born into this world.

Inside, I saw Mama and Papa sitting quietly in the chair surrounding the dining table for the ten people. There were no surprised expressions, nor were their expressions too ordinary. There was a different light from the two of them that I didn't find when I made the video call last time.

However, there is one thing that is still stuck in the heart. I immediately glanced at Bang Bian. She must have told Mama I was going home today.

Aware of my piercing gaze, everyone laughed. I immediately ran after Bang Bian, about to vent my frustration at him. “So my brother promised he would not know Mama first, Baaang.” I still continued chasing him with anxiety.

Bang Bian's laughter grew louder even as Bang Rian now followed suit.

“Kayra, Honey, already, already. Sit down, eat first. You're not tired of what? Just arrived to run directly like that.”

I immediately stopped my steps after hearing Mama's voice. I looked at my parents deeply, lwbtih lama daeiyang first time I did. Uh. I haven't greeted them. What kind of child am I. So I went up and kissed her on the cheek.

Papa smiled and patted me on the shoulder a few times as I put my arm around his neck. While Mama stood up and hugged my body tightly with her small body. “So Bang Bianmu called Mama, said you just called her and said you wanted to go home. But, we have to pretend not to know, let your plan succeed. But, yeah, that's it. Where to hold your Bang Rian to not tempt his sister?” Mom then smiled broadly. The happiness of seeing his three children in one house is radiated so brightly in the look on his face.

After enjoying the view, I sneered at the twin brother who now knew he was sitting next to each other across the table. I followed them and shifted the chair next to Mama and sat down.

After eating, I cleaned my luggage in my room and changed clothes. Take a shower before going to bed. Anyway I will also take a shower when going to sleep later, so used to it from the beginning.

I walked out of my room and joined Papa, Mama, and Bang Rian. Bang Bian was picking up Uni Cya and Malik to stay here. We were back busy telling stories, joking, and laughing with the soundtrack of the sound of television.

Ah, this is my family. I really miss them. They are none of them.

****

The wall clock shows at ten past twenty-five in the evening, Mama and Papa had entered their room to rest about half an hour ago. Bang Bian and Uni Cya are putting Malik to sleep. Now I'm alone with Bang Rian who still survives and we choose to actually watch TV.

“Dek.” Bang Rian called me.

“You why don't you tell Brother that Che is evil to you?”

Uh, what? The shock made me turn my head quickly towards Bang Rian with glaring eyes.

“Don't tell me there's nothing, yeah. Brother knows. Brother knows everything.” Bang Rian also turned his head until our gaze met.

I can't answer anything. Not because talking about Che again would hurt me, but now I am completely overwhelmed with guilt and shame for my brother. These feelings weigh me down and make me down.

“Dek, dear brother with you. Bian. We don't want you to get sick, let alone hurt like that. We all knew something was wrong with you, your feelings, but the Kunyuk Bian said we had to believe in you. You can solve your own problems because you are an adult. That's why I'm patient every time I meet those guys. You know how much we love you.” Bang Rian let out a long breath. "I want to hurt them so bad for hurting you."

Oh, dear. What Bang Rian said just now actually made something in my rib cage. He sounds really hurt. He's really full of annoyance

The sound of the door closing filled the void between me and Bang Rian. Before long Bang Bian was already beside the sofa I was sitting on. He hinted for me to shift my position until I was in their midst.

I straightened my legs and I put my arms around him. I put my chin up on my knees straight. Bang Bian who was sitting on the left now stroked my hair lovingly. “Kay, dear brother with you. You're our only sister. But, can you ask me something? Don't you think of us as sisters too, hm? Why are you quiet when you have a problem?”

He stopped talking just to pull me into his arms. No doubt my tears broke. In an instant I was already sobbing in my first brother's chest. Although I cried in the arms of one of them, but my two brothers seemed to agree to let his sister cry in silence. Even Bang Rian deliberately increased the volume of the television in order to drown my sobs.

It was a long time ago that I cried until I finally stopped and was able to find my voice again.

I took the remote to turn off the TV in front of us. “Abang, sorry Kayra.” I started talking. While looking down, I removed my body from Bang Bian's arm. “Kayra did not tell Brother because Kayra did not want to make Brother both worried. My brother would be angry with them. I don't want to be considered immature because I'm talking to Abang.”

“They? You mean Harris too?” Bang Rian immediately responded with his low tone but made a shudder.

I'm nodding. I saw Bang Rian punching the seat cushion while cursing under his breath.

“Rumors that circulate if that fucking Harris neduain you. So that's right?” Now Bang Bian asked for confirmation.

I nodded again.

From the range of my vision, I could see the masculine hands that were on both sides of me clenching firmly.

I quickly shook my head, hoping that their emotions would subside. “But that means nothing now, Bang." I looked at the two alternately. "Kayra is nothing. I'm better now. I've moved on.”

The silence happened for a while as they controlled themselves.

“Jadi ... You deliberately go to Jakarta so you can get away from all that?” Bang Rian finally asked again. I'm sure these questions exist because they're trying to piece together the puzzle pieces of my life.

“At first yes, Bang. Let me open a new leaf without a shadow from them. As I left, I was determined that I would leave all those painful feelings here. But, the more the day the reason is increasing. I really had the opportunity to explore my abilities, I could continue school, even as time went on, my pain was gone, Bang. Now I've forgotten how it hurts." Once again I looked at my two older brothers in turn to convince them that what I said was true. "Abang should believe me.”

They looked back at me, their foreheads wrinkled in the same way. They still seem doubtful.

“Abang see it don't be.” Ah, goddamn. I don't want to linger observed like this. I had no choice but to use my most powerful weapon. I started whining because I knew I would never be a grown woman in front of them.

Bang Rian now told me to get close to him and I complied. Then I went back into a warm embrace full of protection, but this time with a body that was more muscular and muscular than the previous body. I think this is one of the reasons why no one can replace the family.

“Abang trusts you, Dek. You are our greatest sister from the past.” He kissed my hair.

I can't bear not answering. "I'm my only brother. Because no one can face you but me."

I could feel Bang Rian's hardness shaking his chest. "Damn you. This serious brother. " He then cleared his throat. "Sorry Brother because we're not there for you when you need to, yes, Dek. But that doesn't mean we don't care. Bian is sure that if you want to get through this on your own, you can handle it yourself. That's why you didn't tell us the same story. Yes, right?”

I nodded once.

Bang Rian then stroked my hair. “I don't think you're a big adult now, yeah. New feeling yesterday you ran around just using pampers doang.”

Aarghs! Bang Rian is so ashamed! I hit her hard belly and made my own hand hurt.

Laughter is broken. I ... I feel lighter now.

To be continued ....