Tough Widow
Debates

"You're a big boy, you should be able to eat alone. Why do you still ask to be bribed?" Ikram snapped at his first son named Hanan. 

Ayu's chest felt tight to hear the snapping. Not only because of Ikram's rude speech to his son, but also the sound of Hanan's stuffing slightly restrained.

Ayu and Ikram's marriage lasted ten years. They have three young children. Every morning, Ayu is not able to take care of her child at once, having to alternate until sometimes troublesome. 

"What's this, Mom?" Ayu is still polite. Holding Hanan's tiny body that shook violently.

Look at the food that is strewn across the floor. It was Hanan's favorite food.

"From now on, have your child eat alone. He's grown up and shouldn't have asked to be bribed, troublesome." The letter explains what makes him angry. 

Ayu jerked. He can digest every sentence that comes out of the mouth of the Ikram. How can a father talk rudely to his own son, even earlier said Hanan with the word, 'your son', not our son. 

Ayu rubbed Hanan's hair that was still drowning in tears. Doesn't he take care of it every day? Why is Ikram talking like that? 

"If you don't want to, that's not the way, Mom. You can talk well. Hanan is still very small, it is not yet time to accept your unwarranted anger" Ayu said with teary eyes. Didn't think her husband would be rude to his own son. 

"You defended him?" pekik Ikram pointed at Ayu.

Ikram slapped on Ayu's smooth cheek. He can no longer stem the growing anger in the crown. 

"What's the point of wearing a hijab if you still like to argue with your husband, huh?" Ikram did not accept the words of Ayu who dared to fight him.

"Don't link to the hijab, Mas. I was just asking questions and giving advice, but why are you the nyolot?" Ayu defended herself. Because, he did not feel guilty to straighten things out. But Ikram caught it wrong. 

Ikram chose to leave Ayu and Hanan. Closing the door loudly indicates that the man is still angry. 

Ayu took Hanan to the room. Put him on the edge of the bed. Swiping the two cheeks of the boy that were filled with tears.

"I'm sorry, son. Papa is busy, so can't feed Hanan. Next time ask for the same mom," said Ayu gently. 

He taught his son kindness, after all. Afraid that it will become a scourge when they grow up.

Hanan nodded silently then hugged Ayu back.

Ayu turned to the room of Alifa who was playing. His five-year-old second child was more henchman and obedient, probably because he was a girl so never bother him. 

"Alifa what are you doing?" Ayu sat down beside her daughter. 

The boy sat on Ayu's lap and pointed at his puppet.

Sometimes Ayu is also fed up with Ikram being rude, but she thinks of her three children and holds out for them. 

O Allah, may Ikram be aware and not angry there is a child. 

The atmosphere of the house is calm again. After taking care of her three children, Ayu went to the room. I saw Ikram sitting on the sofa playing his phone. 

"I know you're super busy, Mom. But it's not good to yell at a child." Ayu still did not accept the words of Ikram who had to be rude in front of his young son. 

Ikram awakened. Throwing his phone in any direction. Feeling uncomfortable with Ayu's chatter when bringing up problems that have passed. 

"Now are you starting to dare to fight me?" Walk closer to Ayu. 

Pulling the hijab Ayu until it comes off. Clutching the woman's chin firmly.

Ayu tried to claw Ikram's hand, but his very small strength was unable to fight Ikram.

"I'm not against, just reminding that your actions are wrong" said Ayu firmly. As long as you are on the right path, you do not feel afraid of the Ikram.

Ikram pushed Ayu's body until the woman slammed into the bed.

"As far as you." Opening the closet. Then, the man was wearing office clothes. Ignoring the clothes Ayu had prepared. 

Ayu pulled Ikram's arm which almost came out of her room. However, the man immediately brushed aside and continued his footsteps.

"Lad..." The little girl's voice again stopped the steps of Ikram who had arrived in the front room.

Ikram just waved his hand without wanting to get close.

Really, it makes Ayu's heart ache like a squeeze. Clear circles drip just like that.

She approached her three children and hugged them together.

The night was getting late, but there was no sign of Ikram coming home. Ayu who had been waiting was also agitated. After examining her three sleeping children, she chose to sit in the living room. Turn on the tv to eliminate saturation. 

"Don't Ikram stay at the office, but why don't you call me?" muttered.

Ayu was not a person who stayed silent, she felt that there was something strange about her husband. Not usually the man sleeps in the office, even busy and angry whatever still makes time to go home and sleep at home.

Is it possible that Ikram is still angry with me?

"I have to apologize to him."  

Mentari is not yet fully published, Ayu who wants to come to the office has completed all her tasks, including making some of my favorite food. Wake up her three children in turn. Help them get ready for school. 

Hanan who had just arrived in the dining room stared at the chair that was often occupied by the papa. 

"Where is Papa, Ma?" ask Hanan plain. The boy who was in the fourth grade of elementary school was only able to get together on weekends and breakfast until he did not know at this time that his father did not come home. 

"Night you don't come home, son. He's overtime." Ayu placed the milk in front of Hanan and Alifa. He told them to drink it immediately.

Hanan did not ask again, he immediately ate his food. The words of the Kram rang in his brain so that he did not want to trouble others, including his mother. 

From the school of Alifa and Hanan, Ayu went straight to the office of Ikram. 

"Good morning, ma'am" said the security guard at the door. 

Ayu answered kindly and asked Ikram. 

"Father came fifteen minutes ago." 

Deg 

Just come, it means that Ikram mas did not sleep here, then where did he sleep? 

Ayu was increasingly shrouded in anxiety. 

He went straight into the room. Holding his chest that was rumbling with the change of the husband that was getting clearer.

Ayu opened the door of the Ikram room without knocking, she looked at the man sitting on his great chair.

The creed that was aware of Ayu's arrival was shocked and stood up. 

"Do you want to come here?" ask me if Ikram panics. Look at the man in the wife's hand. 

"What the hell are you, Mas? I'm your wife. Why ask like that?" Ayu casts off her doubts. Pretending to be ordinary when in front of Ikram. 

"Ta–but I'm __" Ikram looks increasingly panicked and confused, even the man can not continue his words. 

Ayu sat on the sofa. Opening food that she deliberately brought specifically for her husband. A little suspicious looking confused. 

Gawat, Rani's coming soon.

Ikram smiled as Ayu patted the empty sofa beside him. He had to sit down and take a plate containing rice. 

"Darling.." The crisp sound from the door stopped Ikram who was about to scoop up food. 

His eyes were perfectly rounded to see what was coming. 

"Dear." Ayu repeated the remark, as if she could not believe what she had heard a few seconds ago. 

The woman fell silent. He was trapped and could no longer leave. Free, this is what he wanted so that Ikram quickly married her.

The room felt quiet. There was no sound, but Ayu's gaze was filled with question marks. 

"What does this mean, Mom? Who her? Why call you darling?" tanya Ayu. His chest exploded when he saw the increasingly confused Ikram. 

The woman approached and stood beside Ikram, wiping the man's arm, code.

"His name is Rani, she's my girlfriend" Ikram said straightforwardly. Without hesitation he told Ayu the status of the woman who was clearly still his wife. 

Ayu smiled forcefully, she still did not understand what was happening to her at the moment. Although the words of the Kram are very clear, but it makes no sense.

"You're kidding me, aren't you?" ask Ayu once more. 

There was a sense of heaviness that filled Ikram's chest. But he could not cover everything. Sooner or later Ayu will surely know that Ikram has other women besides himself.

"I'm not kidding, she's my boyfriend, and I'm going to marry her." Ikram explained.

As a wife Ayu's heart was crushed to the ground hearing that. It was as if the world had collapsed instantly. The household that was built for ten years was like nothing else when Ikram said he wanted to marry again. 

"I don't want honey, Mas," Ayu said with trembling lips. She was unable to share her husband with another woman. 

"But I will still marry Rani, with or without your consent," Ikram explained slightly snapping. 

Ayu smiled and moved. That answer was enough to make him confident to make a decision. "That means you're gonna lose me and the kids."

There was no response from Ikram, as he believed Ayu was only bullying him.