Tough Widow
Assertively

The day keeps changing. Ayu was used to being enveloped in the hectic busyness. Being a mother and father is not easy, but he has been able to pass it for almost five months. All forms of patience he worked to make his children comfortable and warm near him. 

Today is the weekend, although it cannot bring them to enjoy the beauty of the outside, Ayu is able to make happy in her own way. 

Hanan was busy doing the job. Since entering a new school he is more diligent, and will not play before completing his work. 

Ayu approached him, rubbing Hanan's back slowly. "Eat first, son." Reminds me again. 

"Later, Ma." Whether to how many answers it slid from the tiny lips of the firstborn, Ayu did not want to disturb him who looked serious. 

Ayu bowed listlessly. Expelling all doubts that filled his chest. Must be able to make them successful and achieve high ideals. After being hurt by Ikram, he could not disappoint them again. 

"Mama bribe ya," Ayu bargained.

Hanan turned towards Ayu who was smiling faintly. And hugged him tightly. "Mama must have had trouble taking care of me and my sisters. I promise that someday I will make Mama happy. Don't be sad, Ma."

The clear round just soaked Ayu's cheeks. They do not want to look weak in the eyes of children. However, every time he heard Hanan's words, he was unable to suppress his cries. 

Really, these circumstances really make her a tough woman and can do the unexpected. 

"Look, Ma!" Alifa gave Ayu a piece of paper. 

The more rumbling Ayu's chest saw the picture on the paper. Unable to withstand the turmoil in the chest that is very painful. Unexplained Ayu had understood the meaning of Alifa, until his heart was slashed again. 

"Whose picture is this, Dek?" Hanan pointed at the most marginal image. 

"This is a picture of papa," replied Alifa pulled the hand of the Big Brother who almost crossed the face of the picture. 

"No, Brother. Poor papa," he protested with trembling lips. 

"Who is this picture?" ayu asked with trembling lips. 

"This is a picture of Mama. If it's me, it's brother, and it's Diba's deck."

Hanan turned his back on Alfah, annoyed at the picture of Ikram who had to be with them. 

"Now Alifa is playing again, yes." 

Alifa returned to her original place. Ayu pulled her seat until she could get closer to Hanan. 

"Sister can not hate the same papa," said Ayu in a soft voice. 

"At any time I'll still hate papa, Ma. He has the heart to throw us out and choose to marry another woman."

Ayu. During this time he had told Hanan about his divorce, but never said that Ikram would marry again. Where does Hanan know. 

"You know where you're from, brother?" tanya Ayu turned Hanan's body to face him. 

There were flashes of anger in both of his eyeballs. The line of hatred was increasingly emanated clearly as Ayu asked with great emphasis.

"So I saw it on tv, papa's gonna throw a big party."

Hanan hugged Ayu tightly, bracing. 

"From today on I will take care of my mother, I will be papa's replacement. Mama don't be afraid."

Ayu smiled behind the terrible wound. 

Finally, his eldest son understood what was happening. 

"Spirited yes, Ma. If I were a pilot, I would buy a plane for Mama."

It sounds in the ears of a mother. Moreover, Hanan was so enthusiastic. 

The door was knocked to break the mood. Ayu wiped her tears and stepped towards the door. 

Open it slowly. Look at the man standing on his porch. 

"Calvin, why are you here?" I did not welcome the guest kindly. 

"I just wanted to apologize, __" 

Ayu raised her hand to cut off Calvin's speech. 

"Sorry, Vin. From now on I beg you not to come here again, I do not want to be considered to seize people's husbands," said Ayu firmly. 

A few passing neighbors looked at Ayu and Calvin who looked serious. Inwardly guess what happened to them, and what does that have to do? 

"Devi must have said that." 

"Enough!" sergeant Ayu closed the door until his three children were not seen. 

"I don't want to blame anyone. Please respect my request. My life has been complicated enough, so don't add to the burden. Thank you for being so kind and caring." Ayu cupped both of her hands. "But I beg you, from today on don't come here anymore."

Calvin lowered his head. Ayu's speech was no longer a request, but an order to be fulfilled. 

Come on in and close the door. Ignoring Calvin who has not yet left. 

"I'm sorry, Vin. Not that I hate it, but it's for the good of my kids."

The car started to whistle and started to move away. Ayu uncovers the curtains to make sure that Calvin is really gone from his house.

Ayu picked up her phone that was on the table. Examine the work that a few days ago the contract was submitted. 

Not in accordance with the expectations that will be accepted, it turns out the submission was rejected because it does not meet the criteria of the platform. However, it was not Ayu if it was desperate. He realized that his work was not as good as that of a famous writer.

"Ma, teach me a math lesson." Hanan came with a book in his hand. Ayu Stopped his activities. Switch to explain to the son how to fill the question correctly. 

Thank you Hanan for the mother who helped him. 

Almost touching her phone again, Alifa came to him and asked Ayu to make a picture of the island. Followed by Adiba who brought a bottle of milk, a sign asking to make a drink. 

 "Ready, Son. Just a minute."

Ayu rushed to the back after asking Hanan to take care of her two younger siblings. 

The clock is set at 11 p.m. Eventually the children fell asleep in their rooms. 

Ayu did not want to waste time, he took his cellphone and read the work of writers who already have millions of views, even his work was appointed as a short film. 

It is worth a thumbs up for those who have created their best works. It must all take a process that is difficult to describe with words.

Little by little he began to understand which to revise and which to rewrite. No words tired, the shadow of the children's faces continued to cross as if it became a superpower that could make him excited.

Hopefully after this it works.

While pressing the date, Ayu suddenly remembered something.

That means Hanan's tenth birthday soon.

Staring at the heart of the baby who curled up behind the blanket. If all this time is celebrated with festive, not this time which is just simple.

Hope Hanan understands my situation. And hopefully he doesn't ask for an expensive gift.