Tough Widow
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Morning 

"Mandiin, Ma." Alifa's voice adorned Ayu's ears that were still lying down. He was tired today. Don't wake up, just open your eyes as if you can't.

"Yes, Honey. Hold on," Ayu said in a soft voice. Massaging her temples, trying to gather energy to be able to take care of her children. 

"Where am I, Ma?" hanan from outside. 

Ayu let out a long sigh, slowly she woke up and sat leaning against the headboard. 

"In the drawer, son." Lowering his legs one by one. Lead Alifa out. Dragging his legs that feel flexible. In fact, sometimes want to fall because it can not support his body. 

"My shoes, Ma." Hanan yelled again to stop Ayu who was about to enter Alifa's room. 

Ayu turned her head, staring at some shelves lined up next to the closet. 

"A little while, mama takein." Ayu leaves Alifa for a moment to help Hanan. The pain is not a reason to ignore them. He had to stand up even if he fell down a little.

"Have breakfast?" Ayu helps Hanan put up a tie. Tidying up her slightly disheveled hair. 

"Never, a bribe yes, Ma," Hanan's pinta tidied his book into a bag. 

Ayu nodded, but not yet fulfilling Hanan's request he bathed Alifa first before muttering the boy.

Now that Alifa is neat, Ayu returned to the room because Adiba was awake. He took the youngest out before taking a shower. Afraid Hanan is late for school. 

Bribing two children at once and holding the little one is not an easy matter, especially Adiba is still very fussy and continues to grab the plate held. However, a mother would not lack the sense to be able to keep them taken care of without neglecting the others. 

"Well, did you ever promise me that after the semester he'd take me for a walk, but why didn't he come home?" hanan asked while chewing his food. 

Ayu smiled thinly. Trying to throw away his stifling annoyance. 

"Well to forget, what did you say yesterday? If you can't accompany us now. So don't expect too much." Slowly Ayu began to explain. 

Hanan lowered his head and put on the bag on his back. Shake hands with Ayu and leave after hearing the horn. 

Why does Ikram hang like this. Does he want me to make a decision?

Ayu took her phone. Trying to contact Ikram. Although the marriage was most likely unsaved, Ayu wanted a certainty.

The call was connected, before long the heavy voice of Ikram greeted. The voice of someone who children miss. 

"Where have you been, Mom? Why not go home?" said Ayu flat. 

Ikram was silent as if ignoring Ayu's question.

"Today we also separated," continued Ayu held back her tears that almost shed. The decision is very difficult, but he must take for the survival of children to be better. 

The call closed, at once Ayu's tears spilled down her cheeks. Hugged his two daughters tightly. Only they could make him dare to speak.

Ayu comes to the restaurant with Adiba and Alifa. Today he will say goodbye to all his colleagues and resign. Because, not necessarily he can work again in that place.

"Can you take care of your three children by yourself?" asked Runi without taking off her embrace. 

Ayu laughed off. Where maybe they doubt his ability, even still have a husband who takes care of his children without the help of Ikram.

"I gave birth, there's no way I can't take care of them. During this time mas Ikram only looking for money, in fact I can also even while taking care of children. So you guys don't be afraid. I can definitely." 

Upon arrival at home, Ayu immediately put her children's clothes in the suitcase. Occasionally talk to Hanan about his departure that will move.

"Where to go, Ma? Is papa coming too?" ask Hanan plain. 

Ayu just shook her head without a sound. Swiping Hanan's head slowly. Take off the ten-year-old wedding ring embedded in his finger. He only brought jewelry given by his parents.

The door opened, the newly arrived Ikram glued to see three neatly lined suitcases.

Is Ayu serious about her words?

Ikram put his bag on the sofa. Approaching Ayu who looks cute. 

Only little Adiba extended his hand towards Ikram. However, the man ignored her due to the focus on Ayu who was throwing her face away. 

"We talk for a moment" he whispered. 

Ayu asks Hanan to take care of Alifa. He followed the Ikram which walked towards the back porch.

"What's wrong?" ask Ayu ketus. 

Ikram laughed mockingly. "Are you sure you're getting divorced from me?" The word is disparaging. It was as if Ayu was just a weak woman and could do nothing.  

Ayu just nodded 

"I'll give you one more chance. Think kids, they need luxury. Don't be selfish and think of yourself. I'll give you two choices. Being my wife and accepting Rani, then all your needs will be met. Or parting ways without getting anything." Ikram said at length. As if he was the most right. 

Ayu took one step closer. Staring at both Ikram's eye beads. It was clear there was no more love that made him more sure he would soon be separated. 

"There is no mother who does not think of her child. I think of them. Now they may be very small and not yet understand what is happening to us, but someday they will understand. Why did her mother choose to separate rather than survive."

Ayu stopped her words. The arranged words stopped just at the esophagus as tears first flooded his cheeks. 

"I think you already know the answer. And I will prove that a widow can also make her children succeed without the mercy of her ex-husband" Ayu boldly said. 

Ayu left Ikram. He approached his children and went out. It just so happened that the taxi that was ordered had come so that he did not have to wait long. 

Ikram kicked the chair in front of him. Evaporating the anger that culminates in the crown.

"Let's see, soon you'll come and the beggar begs me for mercy."

Ikram was so sure of his conjecture. He was sure that Ayu would not be able to live without him. 

Hanan who sat beside the driver kept talking broke the silence. The boy told me about his ideals that made Ayu and the driver chuckle. 

Adiba falls asleep in Ayu's lap, while Alifa is busy with her book. 

Nearly thirty minutes Ayu has not said her destination yet. The one in his brain right now only has three children. Until he forgot everything.

"Where are we going, Mom?" The driver asked.

Ayu thought for a moment. Remember the name of the housing is quite cheap.

"The flower path, sir," Ayu replied.

Closing his eyes, he did not know how Hanan would react later, which would definitely be tonight to get a place to stay.