Tough Widow
Unsuccessful

"Ma, in the new school class are just my ugly shoes" Hanan protested as she waved her lips.  

Ayu approached Hanan and sat down beside the boy. Look at the shoes under the table. 

"Why should it compare with the property of others, that's his name Hanan is not grateful. Not accepting what God has given. Patience, Son! Later if you have more money, will definitely buy Hanan better things," Ayu assures. 

As a mother, she felt pity, but could do nothing but be patient.

Although the situation is still very difficult, Ayu does not give up giving the best for her three children. For now Hanan is only hearing the promise from the lips of the mother, but he hopes it will all come true. 

For almost ten days Ayu wrote, now she ends the story with a happy ending, which she hopes will happen to her.

Does a story really become a field of sustenance?

Ayu opens her phone, looking for an account from a famous author. Read the widely circulated news. It turns out that most of them can indeed be successful, but many also do not succeed. 

Find an app to write online. Check with the details of some of the stories listed. 

"Maybe printing will be easier to sell," he thought until Ayu did not care so much about the application. 

Tok tok tok tok 

The sound of the door being knocked from outside. Before Ayu left, there was the sound of someone talking. Soon Hanan approached her. 

"There's bi Ninik, Ma" Hanan reported. It was the boy who opened the door. 

"Alright, you take care of the sisters, Mamm out first." Ayu took a few pieces of money and came out. He smiled when he saw his neighbor standing in the doorway. 

"Please sit down, Mom." Ayu invited bi Ninik. Count the money back before handing it to the woman. 

"I don't collect rent, Ms. Ayu." Ninik sat in front of Ayu. 

Ayu was silent hearing that remark. Although that was not the goal, he still paid as he promised in the beginning. 

"But it's time, Mom. I'm not breaking a promise and I'll pay on time."

Despite his poor financial condition, Ayu will never be negligent with his obligations. 

"You and the kids don't, do you?" ask Ninik to make sure. Because, lately he rarely saw Ayu out of the house. After work the woman shut the door. 

"We're all fine, thanks for the attention, Mother." Ayu is grateful to have a good neighbor like Ninik. 

Tell Ninik to count his money again, fearing less. 

"Never come out anyway?" ask Ninik again. 

Ayu only responded with a smile, there was no way he said he was busy writing and did not have time to relax. 

"Lately the kids are asking for it in Temenin. They are spoiled," said Ayu origin who made Ninik believe. 

After Ninik came home, Ayu returned to the room. Put the book in the bag. 

"I went to school first, Ma." The neat Hanan shook hands with Ayu. Then, kiss the two sisters' forehead in turn.

"Yes, Honey. Be careful on the road. Do not speed, look left right if you want to cross the road. Don't fight, mama doesn't like." Ayu escorted Hanan forward, seeing the boy swinging his bike towards the highway. 

Mama's gonna pay for every drop of your sweat, son. May you be a successful person. 

Wiping away her tears that accidentally escaped wet her cheeks. 

Ayu go inside. Changing clothes Alifa and Adiba. Today he will come to the publisher after getting his address. Though not sure it will work, at least try. 

Ayu came down in front of a rather large building. He checked the address again before going inside. 

"True, this is the address." 

Where to start, Ayu is confused, and finally determined to enter. 

"Can I help you, Mom?" A woman struggling with the laptop screen asked without stopping her finger that continued to dance on the keyboard. 

Ayu tapped her finger on the table. His voice stuck in the esophagus, as if hesitant to say his purpose. 

"I just want to ask, what are the terms of publishing a book?" 

The woman smiled faintly. 

"One of them, you must have a manuscript that has passed the selection. It would be nice to already have a lot of viewers, or at least, the book to be printed is liked by readers. Especially if it has been published on one of the platforms, it will make it easier for you. What the market likes."

Hew 

Ayu let out a long breath. It turns out that unlike his expectations, which when it comes to printing directly like a wish, but all it takes a fairly complicated process. 

"What, you're a writer?" 

The woman looked at Ayu fixedly. 

Ayu shakes. 

"But I have a script that I'm going to print." 

Take three books out of her bag and put them on the table. 

The woman checked Ayu's writing, occasionally glancing at Alifa and Adiba who appeared to be a henchman. 

Read the blurb on the front. Although not a writer, it turns out Ayu's writing is quite neat. 

"Now most writers sign up via the platform, ma'am. They introduced her work from an online reading app, if you'd like to write on the app first."

Ayu smiled. At least he has no experience for it.

"But if you insist, we can also print directly. Here you have to pay a down payment and at least have to print fifty copies. If you agree, I will report it to my boss. It also has to go through several stages of selection."

Ayu can't answer anything. He could only calculate the cost the woman offered. 

If per book forty thousand, then times fifty to four million. While the money is now getting smaller. 

"How, Ma? Are you interested?" ask the waiter. 

Ayu had to abandon her intentions. He picked up his book again and hoped he could one day return. 

"I'm sorry, Mom. My advice mom wrote in the app, just capital quota." 

"Do you know the easiest app to pitch ideas?" ask Ayu. 

"It's all easy, Mom. The important thing is that the mother has an interesting story and can write according to platform standards, it will be accepted. For the rules, you can see before writing. Because, as far as I know, each platform has its own policy."

Ayu said thank you. He put the book in again and left the place. 

O Allah, make my business easy.

Untiring, while holding Adiba and holding the small hand of Alifa Ayu meneysuri road to find angkot.

"It's like that woman who ate at a restaurant yesterday with Calvin." A woman from inside the car pointed towards Ayu who was sitting at the base of the ojek.

"You sure?" ask the others.

The woman nodded then took a picture of Ayu secretly.