Whys?
Message From Melissa

"No....!" Melisa's mother cried when I got the news that Melisa was leaving the world because she ended her own life. Her tears were completely unbearable as her heart was very unprepared for that fact. As a mother she obviously felt guilty and it would be better if Melisa was free, then enjoyed her life. He never really aired that in the end he would lose a lot of things just because of the selfish and arrogant attitude he had.

"No, this is impossible!" Melisa's mother threw herself down, sitting on the prison floor beating her chest, full and painful. Is it not enough after he has lost a son, then his only grandson, and then has to live in prison with his husband and son? Why would he have to go back to feeling how the pain of losing for good?

True, she is not a good mother, she has many shortcomings especially in parenting her child's education. But, she is also a Mother who loves her daughter and son, she loves her children, and her grandchildren so losing them would be a loss of meaning in life.

"Mrs, this is the message your daughter left you. In the afternoon your daughter's body will be buried next to your grandson's grave, so you can come there to take your daughter's departure to the Lord's side."

Her mother Melisa grabbed the paper the Warden gave her, with eyes that kept watering, as well as her crying voice that could not be stopped, slowly Melisa's mother opened to read the contents of the message that Melisa wrote for her. As soon as her eyes read her daughter's somewhat disheveled writing, Melisa's mother understood perfectly well that Melisa wrote all those messages with her hands trembling and crying without a sound.

(Message of Melisa )

Mom, how are you today? I hope you're okay, and don't keep blaming others, don't blame yourself, and don't blame God. Mom, this message I wrote when I felt the decision I made was the one I wanted and would never regret. Mom, do you know how I feel right now? I was sad, but I was happy at the same time. This crowded room, the room that restricts our movement and steps makes me feel like life is really meaningless, but if I could get out I would also feel like my life is meaningless. Mother, after receiving this I may no longer have a pulse and heart, I can no longer take a breath and be silent without being able to pray for anything. Mom, I'm sorry because in the end I only craved the wound in Mom's heart, I'm sorry that I never even let you feel relieved before. Please don't grieve too long, don't cry too long, and don't have intentions like I did. Mom, thank you so much for giving birth to me so hard, thank you so much for taking care of me and doing so much for my happiness. Although Mother is not a good mother in the eyes of people cloth, but the truth is Mother is the best Mother for me. If there's a next life, I really hope I'll still be Mom's son. Mom, I'm saying goodbye. I can't see Mom anymore, but I'm gonna watch Mom very well, so make sure Mom's okay. I love you, Mother.

Done it.

"My daughter, my daughter.....!" Melisa's mother carried the sheet of paper into her arms, crying again until her voice was not heard at all.

On the other side.

Melisa, the daughter she raised with abundant affection, the daughter who as a child always felt at home in her arms and arms, she was the least able to get away from her father, her father, he could not sleep without his father, nor did he ever miss a day without kissing his father on the cheek. His daughter who was always going to be a little girl for him actually went much faster than he was. Of course he was very sad, he was very sorry for what happened, he was also disappointed by this painful reality. But what can we do if all this has happened? He certainly won't be able to change this reality right?

Melissa.......

Now all about Melisa is just a memory, now all about Melisa will only be in her heart, and in the heart of those who love her. It's so heavy, so heavy for a fifty-year-old man who should be spending time with his family and happy with the laughter of his grandchildren, son-in-law, everyone.

Bruk!

Mr. Feto slowly opened the sheet of paper given to him. It was obviously the last message Melisa left for her, so she could only read it even though her heart was unprepared.

(Message of Melisa )

Dad, how are you today? Dad, after spending some time in prison, after losing my freedom and losing Denise I have also agreed to divorce from David. I also want her to be happy, want her to escape this painful snare. Dad, I know my decision will hurt you a lot, I know you will be disappointed and sad, but this is my choice, Dad. Forgive me for being selfish and arrogant and even wanting death to come to me sooner than God's decree. Dad, I want to be honest about this, I'm really tired, Dad. My body refused to live, my heart was numb and could feel nothing but this sadness. I've tried to survive, I've tried to keep thoughts and intentions away like this, but in the end I can't stand it anymore. I'm sorry for disappointing you again, I'm sorry I'm still careless about this life, I'm sorry to add a wound to your heart. Dad, thank you so much for being my dad, thank you so much for making me feel like Dad is the best Dad in the world. Father, please don't be sad for a long time, don't keep crying, don't blame yourself anyway, and live well. In a few more years I'll be free, so please make good use of my time for Dad and Helena. Say hello to her, tell her I can only apologize and thank her. I love you, I love you so much, Dad.

Seriate.