Whys?
Scorning Yourself

Helena day went with mixed feelings that sometimes make her nauseous, sometimes also suddenly wanted to get angry, crying was not only enough once or twice in one day. How else would you like? This was the path and choice he already had to accept and he lived, this bitterness would probably make him feel uncomfortable, even the feeling of wanting to give up was also so often coming. But life is like that, right? Life is nothing but a fight in which the strong, persistent, and patient will get what they want, while the weak and lack of fighting spirit will be in the same place.

After all this time since the defendant was secured in the police sky, this was the first time Helena had come there to meet the man whose name was Jul.

For a long time Helena was silent looking at Jul who chose to duck out of what the man thought. Helena does not come to pressure Jul and asks him to confess to a crime that he is either right or not. But Helena comes there only to see Jul, showing Jul that her face can still be used to meet Jul who she says is the hitter of her daughter.

"I don't know where I'm going to start talking, but I'm going to tell you the point." Helena looked at Jul with a serious look even though Jul still looked down not a second want to return Helena's gaze. Of course the man did not look afraid, what Helena felt was, the man was like he was trying to avoid the question after question that Helena would ask him. Not knowing if he was afraid to answer because it kept Helena feeling not to be angry and sad, or if he was afraid of mispronouncing and in the end all would be revealed quickly.

"Man is not wrong if he is poor, but a man who does not have quality is the most wrong and sad human being. I'm so grateful that you chose silence, because if you open your mouth just a little bit to talk, then I'll know everything you're hiding. Stay that way, shut up tight, let me see where you're going to imagine your mouth."

Helena took a breath, and threw away slowly still staring at Jul with all her thoughts. It really doesn't matter, whether he wants to talk or not, what Helena is doing is for Lawyer Jhon to find out if he meets the defendant and isn't impressed no more. It is true that Lawyer Jhon must have realized many strange things, but unfortunately Helena did not want to care at all what the person thought again.

"I'm glad to see you, to see your cowardly face, to hide and try to escape my eyes, and from this conversation. I don't want to insult you actually, but I don't know why I feel like you're used to being a coward and running away. I'm amused to imagine how to do it your life, ah! You wonder if you have a family? Wife, child? Old folks? Really, are they okay having you like this?"

Jul appears to harden his jaw making Helena realize that what she said just now is enough to affect Jul's heart.

The sound of the ringing of the phone makes Helena distracted, she immediately receives a phone call that turns out to be from Martin. Hearing Martin say if she wanted to meet soon perhaps, Helena became obliged to leave the place immediately to meet Martin.

Helena briefly looked at Jul, then smiled faintly.

" It's a pity that I have to go, but don't worry that I'll come back later, even more so that you can see me more often, making you feel depressed and fed up."

After saying that, Helena rushed out of the place, headed for the car park, and immediately ran her car to get to where Martin was. I don't know what Martin's going to say, but it looks like there's something serious enough that Martin's asking to rush in.

A few sat later.

"Why did you rent the VVIP room? Can't we just talk in an ordinary place?" Ask Helena as soon as she gets there.

Martin forced his smile, he sighed softly and asked Helena to sit next to him.

"What do you want to talk about?" Helena asked again who was getting impatient because Martin's face really looked unusual. She looked very sad, but also relieved, but also angry, whether right or wrong what Helena thought about the look on Martin's face at that time.

"I want to tell you the autopsy results of your daughter."

"I know you must be surprised, but I didn't have time to tell you before. One of the forensic doctors yesterday was my best friend in college, I asked him to secretly keep this a secret, I told him how heeled this matter, and finally he was willing to help us. Actually the autopsy results will be issued the day after tomorrow, but the results that will be given to us are the results that have been changed. My best friend secretly copied the originals, because the hospital chief probably took a huge bribe."

Helena was still silent, now her eyes were reddened, there were already many tears that had bloated in her eyes. How could his daughter be dragged so far that someone was so vociferous to bribe so many parties like this?

"Actually I'm not out of thought either, but it looks like the hospital chief is also getting pressured."

Helena let out a breath as her tears fell. His heart kept asking, Why? Wh why? Wh why? Why should it be his daughter? Why does it have to be like this? Why is the death of her daughter so complicated?

"Tell me, how did it go?" Asked Helena who did not want to waste any more time, making her heart waver and confused until her chest felt so tight and sick. Although nothing will change, Helena is still so sure there will be a bright spot in sight.

Martin was silent for a while, hardening his jaw, he felt at a loss as to how he would convey that to Helena. But Helena was the one most entitled to know about this, so Martin really had to tell Helena right away.

"The cause of your daughter's death is exactly as your friend described it."

Helena chuckled as if she was scorning herself who was lulled for following the advice of Martin to frame her daughter's grave but there was no result whatsoever.

"Just, just,"

The deg!

Helena looked at Martin with a serious look and was also shocked.

"What is it?!"

Martin took a breath.

"Both your daughter's kidneys, none."

Seriate.