Whys?
Defeating Doubt

In a quiet space, there was only the sound of the rushing breath, lips that moved gently but with a fast rhythm. The heart beats fast like the rhythm of a song filled with love, the warmth is now spreading making the atmosphere so hot. Soft touch of hands, two pairs of closed eyes enjoy the beauty of moving lips that blend with each other warmly. That's what's going on with Helena and Martin right now.

I don't know since when their chat became so deep, intense and spurring that in the end they are now kissing affectionately.

Helena, she herself really doesn't understand why Martin could always steal the opportunity and pull her into a game of intoxicating feelings.

"Martin!" Helena pushed Martin's body so that their lips could come off and she could stop the activity for a while.

"I feel like this is overkill, let's stop this, Martin."

Martin looked at Helena so closely. Highlight Helena's eyes, her breath so warm as to make Martin so crazy and having trouble holding back.

"What's worth mentioning overdoing it in a relationship if the feeling of staying afloat and fighting for it exists?"

Helena looked at Martin with a puzzled look because she was feeling confused, a sense of defending and struggling? Is Martin talking about how the two feel about Helena? If so, would Martin not really give the same injury as he had before from the couple?

"Helena, stop thinking so much and be shackled by the fears that arise because of your past. I, as well as the person who gave that wound was a different figure. I can't say that people are bad, in fact humans have two traits that are bad and good right? I was never afraid to cross any boundaries because I believed in myself and was ready to take responsibility for my decisions."

Helena fell silent, her eyes still continuing to look at Martin who was so convincing for what he said. Highlights Martin's eyes really explain how sincere he is with his words, so far Martin is quite clear that he is a man who deserves to be trusted.

"I, I'm just" Helena could no longer continue her hesitant and stammering words, and immediately Martin again put their lips together, reaching for Helena's hand to place on her chest. She wanted Helena to feel how her heart was pounding so fast, how she was so unable to control the feeling and the beating of the heart while with Helena. It is true that Helena is not the first woman he loves, but Martin is absolutely certain that Helena will be the last woman he will ever love.

Helena can no longer do much, so far she has given an unclear attitude of a kind of tug-of-war, sometimes she refused sometimes also like giving hope. Now that she was well aware that she would not be able to back away from Martin again, Helena now only needed to convince herself, open her heart and believe that God would not offer continuous sorrow, so this time Helena will do it, living according to the plot and how for her to choose the path of life.

Bruk!

Martin pushed Helena's body slowly onto the sofa, still not letting go of her kiss and she continued to gently caress Sakha Helena.

But, the sofa was so uncomfortable that Martin got up from his position, carrying Helena's body to head towards a room that would become very safe for the two of them. Safe from Sofia if only Sofia wakes up, and walks out later.

Martin again moved one hand, rubbing Helena's face slowly.

"Helena, we live in modern times why is it still so rigid?"

"But......"

Martin smiled, briefly peeking at Helena.

"I also feel that it's not time to do this yet but, if I step back then you will again feel doubtful. I know exactly how you feel, Helena. You sometimes feel the decision to be with me is right, but sometimes you are also like a coward who hesitates and wants to run away. When you were kidnapped by Mr. Feto, I swore to myself that I would not let you go, that I would hold you by my side somehow. Now I don't have a lot of money, but trust me I'll give you the best, put you first and I'm sure I can get you a decent living."

Helena doesn't want to dodge any of that anymore, Martin.....The man who now lives in an ordinary apartment, no luxury goods, his car is also ordinary, but Martin has deep beliefs and feelings, so why should Helena hesitate? Plus there is Sofia who is beautiful and funny, it seems like this will be fun, right?

Helena smiled, raised both her arms, hugging Martin's nape made Martin pause for a moment in surprise.

"I didn't know you were so good at forcing others." Helena said, smiling, making Martin even more unable to hold back.

Martin put their lips together again, it really feels so beautiful because Helena no longer looks hesitant, even a kiss from him also pray a reply from Helena. No matter how others judge them, life is their life. Martin began to run his hand slowly touching the nape of Helena hugging him without letting go of a kiss. Slowly walk up the stairs to get to Helena's back and slowly Martin lowered the zipper dress in Helena. His hand moved there after Helena's back skin could she feel right. Martin gently rubbed Helena's back, changing positions by hugging each other sideways so that she could more freely open the dress that Helena used.

Martin briefly let go of his kiss, the goal was to take a position and could easily tell which dress Helena was wearing. Of course Helena was involved very embarrassed and unwilling, but how else? It seemed like Martin could no longer be stopped, he was truly like a thirst that required water to relieve and refresh his throat.

Now Helena could really only hold herself back who felt so embarrassed because her circumstances were really very embarrassing. Martin also seemed not to feel guilty at all, he had quickly removed the clothes attached to his body.

"Helena, now that you're really just mine, you're forbidden to see another man even though he's more handsome or even that man is your favorite actor."

Not waiting for an answer from Helena, Martin resumed his action.

Seriate.