You're My Antidote
Freeing Yourself
His wife's body temperature has not returned to normal, although it is no longer hot. And Rani has whined to want to take a bath because the body feels sticky and can not sleep.
Forced, the King gave permission. But on condition, shower with warm water even though the day is not too late and the sun is still hot. And the second condition, he helped bathe the wife.
Although Rani initially refused, in the end the woman resigned as soon as she carried into the bathroom and he bathed carefully.
Really just bathing.
He did not have that much to pressure his wife in such a sick condition. Although he had to stifle his desire when he saw the innocent body of the wife.
"Why?" The king who was helping to stretch his hair asked Rani when she could not sit still and looked agitated.
"Emmm.. Rani can ask?" hesitating, Rani finally ventured. The king was very understanding, the soul of his wife was very difficult to be curious.
"Anything, baby. As long as I can answer." said the King.
"Emmm.. Where are the old man's king buried?"
"Buried in the special tomb of the Shandika family. In an area in Bogor."
"Sister King comes often?"
The king nodded without explanation.
"When was the last time the King was there?"
"A few days after they were buried maybe." he speculated unsure.
"Sister King... Still can't be sincere?" Rani asked carefully. He replied with a bitter laugh.
Many people advised him to be sincere. But among all those people, no one had ever been in his position. So they can be so easy to say. Because they did not feel how much pain and destruction the King had to lose both his parents in such a way. Even in front of his own eyes.
"Indeed, the sincere child of his parents went away in such an unnatural way?" The king could not control his voice to not sound cynical. But his hands did not stop drying the hair of the wife who had begun to lengthen again, although not as long as he liked first.
"Ma-af brother. But how can the King's brother recover from trauma, if the King's brother has not been sincere?"
The king sighed. Put the hairdryer on the dressing table and take a comb. comb the wife's hair carefully so as not to hurt his wife.
He tried hard not to get emotional. He reminded himself that the one talking to him right now was his own wife. The one he loved so much. And Rani said that because she wanted the best for him.
"Rani did not force the King's brother to be sincere at this time either." Rani turns her chair around when she doesn't answer. The woman took a comb in her hand and placed it near the hairdryer. He grabbed her hand and pulled her closer. "But the King can start from now on. Slowly. Little by little. Until the pain no longer hurts."
"I'm not sure if I can." replied the King in the end.
"The King does not know. Because the King never tried." Rani tries to make him sure of what his wife is saying. "It was during this time the King's brother who bound the pain. The King who does not seek to let go. Not trying to hide."
The king remained silent. He knew what Rani was saying was true. But it's too heavy for him to do as Rani meant.
The king could see flashes of anger in his wife's eyes. The anger that might have been Rani self-suffering for years.
"They want to feel less evil by giving Rani a chance to live. Though they only trouble Rani's life. Because Rani must live without parents and be ridiculed and branded as an illegitimate child wherever Rani stands."
The king did not not not know what kind of suffering Rani had been. During this time, he always gave a warning behind Rani to people who disturbed her. Since they were little, until yesterday when they got engaged and married.
"Rani often asks Rani herself. What's wrong with Rani until they can throw Rani away? is Rani just a disgrace to them? is Rani too embarrassing for them to raise?"
Eyes that were even still moist to hear the story of his life journey, now back dripping water.
The king lowered his body and knelt down. Caught his wife's hands and kissed her inside. "You're not a disgrace. You're the great woman of my life. You're a great woman and the pride of mother and children's parlors. Great woman the mother-to-be of our children."
Rani wiped her tears quickly and resumed. "Maybe the pain that Rani experienced was not as terrible as the King's brother. But it's not easy for Rani to walk, brother."
The king nodded in confidence. Because he saw it for himself.
"After Rani grows up, Rani begins to think... What if Rani is angry and vengeful about them, things will change? they're going back to pick up Rani? no, sis!... It'll all stay the same. They will keep Rani waiting and will not come to pick her up. So Rani can only wish them all the best. May they be happy wherever they are. So that their efforts to throw Rani away are not in vain."
"If they throw you away. Let me take care of him and take care of him. I promise I'll make this diamond happy that they don't see."
His wife laughed and clenched her head.
"Rani is sincere. Rani is happy to be the wife of the King" said Rani. "Maybe Rani's path is indeed replaced. Because maybe if mom and dad don't leave Rani there, we won't meet and Rani can't hug Raja's brother like now."
"Aah right." he sighed. "That means I have to thank them for throwing you away." joked the King, who made his wife laugh and hit her shoulder.
"Evil iih!!" after the laughter subsided. "Everything, the King must also begin to learn to free the King from pain. Only the King has the key to free himself. Anyone can't help if the King's own brother doesn't intend to be sincere and free himself."
"I'll do it."
"You start by visiting the tomb?" rani asked him who looked up at his wife's pretty face from below.
The king still hesitated. He wasn't sure he would be strong enough to go there.
"Don't be afraid. There's Rani. We start slowly. We can go home when the King feels not strong. Even though it's only up to the funeral gate." Rani tried to convince him. "At least the King dared to try."
For a while the King was silent to weigh and finally nodded. Making Rani smile widely and re-hugging her head.
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