You're My Antidote
Reminiscing

The king was shocked when he entered the room and found his wife sitting on the bed. "Not sleeping, honey?" tanyanya approaching.

Rani follows her movements of removing the jacket and placing it on the back of the sofa at the foot of the bed. "Rani can't sleep anymore." the wife replied later when she peeked at his wife's forehead which was no longer hot.

"I'm sorry, old?" he apologized. Although he was out for only three hours which he thought was short compared to the nights before marriage. But imagining Rani sitting alone waiting for him who is not clear when to go home, makes him feel guilty.

"Who are the King's brothers in the bar?"

King smiled. Turns out his wife can't go back to sleep because she's worried that she might be with another woman out there.

"Only with Adit, dear." she replied in dismay. "Adit's upset and needs a friend. If you don't believe it, you can ask the person directly below."

"Under here?" rani asked confusedly. "That's what Raja's brother, Adit's coming home?"

The king nodded with a nod. "Well, maybe you can ask him tomorrow. That's also if he remembers." said the King as if he remembered something, and added. "He was drunk. There's no way I'm taking her home. I could've scolded you."

"It's a natural. You're wayward." Rani's lips.

The king only laughed lightly not responding. "I changed my clothes first, and then we went to sleep? you have no fever. But that doesn't mean you're healthy. So don't try to stay up like this."

Rani did not argue and nodded. Letting the King pass the dressing room and lie down together afterwards.

"Tell me something so that Rani can sleep sister." pinta Rani. "Rani really wasn't sleepy after the King left."

The king whose eyes had become heavy again opened his eyes and looked at the woman in his arms. The influence of alcohol was enough to make him sleepy.

"What do you want to hear?"

Rani nodded and replied. "Anything about the King's brother." his wife's leper plays on the chest. Drinks blood. Awakening something that should not, when the condition of the wife is still weak after illness.

"There's not much I can tell you. You've been with me all my life." The king began to sort in his head, which story his wife did not yet know about him. "I've been in international school since I was five. Only Papi always comes to school. And although in your eyes I'm wayward, but I've always been a general champion once abroad. Multiple Olympic and junior basketball championships."

"Oh yeah?" Rani moved furiously and stretched out a hug to be able to look at her face. Seemed shocked and incredulous. "So my husband is smart?" rani's smile was half amazed and half mocking.

Anxious. The king touched the wife's forehead. "I was always smart. You're the one who doesn't know."

"alright. Enough show bragging about her."

The king returned. What stories would bring his wife to sleep. "Do we need to exercise at night, so you can sleep?" ask when you don't know what to tell. And he's not a good storyteller anyway. Except for the sad story earlier with the aim of opening up to Rani.

"Sir King what the hell! I'm still sick, if the King forgets!" the woman hit his chest spoiled. There was a red hue on Rani's cheek that the King caught from the dim light of the sleeping lamp. Makes her laugh to see Rani misbehaving.

"With pain alone, the beauty does not decrease." he praised very rarely he did. Because he is not good at praising people what else seduces women.

"It seems like the King's brother is drunk." Rani cupped both sides of her face and moved right and left to examine each side of her face. He was looking for evidence that he was still under the influence of alcohol.

"I did drink, but I didn't get drunk" grabbed his wife's hands and locked her in the middle of their bodies and hugged her tightly. So that Rani's hands are not getting anywhere that is too risky for her to forget the condition of the wife who is still sick.

Under the influence of alcohol and have not touched his wife for several days, making his desire easily provoked.

"You want to hear, how have you been in my eyes since our first meeting?"

"We'll see." said the king and began the story.

"I was still in consciousness. Still don't have the spirit to continue living when you first come to the parlor."

"I am always daydreaming began to be interested when you-kids parlour-welcoming mama with joy. Jump around happily waiting for mama to hand out gifts. At that time I thought, why is it that only with such toy gifts are you so happy? I'm even sure, the toys that you shared are not worth the price of the toys that you always give me. Is happiness that easy? have I ever been as happy as you in my life? because I always feel normal when papi comes home with a gift as good as anything."

"Although I was impressed indifferent, but I was always interested in observing you guys who were so easy to laugh off. More you." The king poked his wife's nose looking at him with a smile. "Girls are noisy but always leave longing when long time we don't meet."

"Seriously?" both of Rani's eyes sparkled happily. "Sir king seriously thinks like that?"

Although embarrassed, the King nodded in acknowledgment. "I had to go to the home at first. But over time, even I often invite mama to come to the house in an indirect way just to be able to meet you."

"How not directly?"

"Hm.. I used to ask my mom when she was going to the house. When you ask why, I will just answer bored at home. And it always made my mom understand that I needed a friend. And the hustle in the parlor, enough to fill my void."

"Cieee who has a crush from childhood." Rani's tease makes her laugh. He admitted, he was indeed interested in a chatty and whiny boy in the arms since he did not know what love and affection were. He was interested and liked being around the little girl.

"I'm always indifferent when you try to get close to me. Because that way I can see your konyomu's behavior is quite entertaining."

"What's ridiculous?"

"Your cry while singing one of them."

The king recalled when they were little. Although the King behaved coldly, but Rani never stopped to approach him. Invite him to talk, dance and sing to himself in a voice that the King thinks is more like a pinch rat.

"Your presence is enough to give color to my dark life." The King's voice whirled. There is still sadness when remembering the dark story. Occasionally silence before the King continues. "Your joy that I never had. Your big smile that doesn't need a good reason. It's like smiling at you is like breathing. You can do it anytime. Things that are so hard for me to do. Because since I was a kid, it's been hard for me to be happy."

"Until the time I was in Junior High, I realized, my feelings were more than I imagined. I love you more deeply and maybe I can call it love." The king was not aware that the woman in his arms was no longer responding to his story.

"At that time, I couldn't possibly express my feelings and ask you out. Because you're still too small." The King's gaze is still far away from his teenage years. "So I decided to take care of you from afar. Give back to anyone who bothers you. Give you a gift without you knowing." The king laughed amusedly himself imagining his attitude that felt tacky if remembered at this time.

"Maybe I'm always cold and seem to hate you. But that's how I covered my monkey love first. If my cold attitude, it seems to have been innate anyway. The results grow in the midst of parental quarrels. Because it looks like I just laugh when on vacation to Jakarta meet cousins and papi family who always give me affection. Before the tragedy happened."

"Until the time I went to high school, when I started venturing out to ask you out, I was terrified."

"What if I can't make you happy like papi and mami. What if our relationship is even more stretched when we are together. And a lot of other decisions made me choose to stay away. Including my decision not to get married."

"Do you see? I've loved that since I was a kid. The greater my love, the greater I fear not being able to make you happy and only hurting you."

The king turned his head down and chuckled to find Rani who had fallen asleep with regular breathing. "So I fucked myself, hm?" he fused his forehead and Rani's forehead and rubbed it. "Bad girl."

The king fixed Rani's position to be more comfortable. Pull the blanket over his wife's chest. Not to forget the King left a kiss on the forehead and lips of his wife. "Beautiful dream." whispered and joined the eye.

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