You're My Antidote
Getting Real

The king could only watch from afar the body of his wife crouched on the grave of one of his parents. Put a white rose on top of the mami navel and a red rose on the papi navel according to what the King asked.

The king gave her a white rose because she never felt the love of her mother. Like the meaning of the flower itself. A white rose means a heart that knows no love. Like he who does not know the figure of mother what else love from him.

As for papi, the King will never forget the magnitude of the man's love for him. A child born of a mistake. But Papi always tried to make amends that he had done by giving as much love as possible to him.

Rani looks down deep and prays. Pray for people you don't know. The one Rani has never met and doesn't even know who Rani is.

But he as a child, just saw it from afar. Can't do what Rani is doing right now. His body could not bring him near. He is still not capable.

But even though it was not near the navel directly, he never sent a prayer for the two.

He may not be a filial son. He regretted his parents for leaving him alone. He was too disappointed in fate. And it's too much sin to dare to ask God.

He wasn't even sure if God wanted to hear a prayer from a sinner like him. Who had turned away for so long because of his disappointment.

And when Rani brought him back closer to the creator, he was ashamed to do so. The king was ashamed of God for the arrogance he had done in the last few years. He was so confident that he did not need the existence of God. He's lost too far. He's not sure if he can come back. Which path can bring him back.

"Sister King is okay?" rani's voice pulled her from everything that was raging in her head. His wife was already standing on her knees right in front of him who was still sitting on a chair.

Rani's eyes looked very worried. But he already feels better. Although it took a while to remove the images and sounds that frightened him.

"It's better."

"Then we go home?" tawar Rani who looks hesitant and wants to ask him back to try.

"I..... Let me try it one more time." break up King. "If I'm not strong, we go straight home."

"Sister King sure?"

Of course not. Just meant to make his heart beat. But he has to try. Test how strong he is to survive. If he has not healed, how can he protect Rani and dare to dream of children.

The king looked down. On their fingers were tightly interlocked when he and Rani were already standing side by side.

"Mas certainly can." whispered Rani softly with her new call. Rani is even seen hiding her face after giving her spirit.

The king was quite surprised by Rani's changed calling. But he had no more energy to tempt his wife. Because his energy is being gathered to ventured to step foot into two side-by-side tombs that Rani was sambangi not long ago.

Smiling and nodding after taking a deep breath, the King began to step foot. It feels heavy to move. Cold sweat sprang up again as the dark night re-emerged in his mind.

Shouted his parents' quarrel. Whispers of those who pitied him when his parents were buried. Everything came back like a movie in his head.

Her heart warmed to hear how Rani had shifted her mind. Maybe if someone else would just encourage her with words of encouragement or sympathy and invite her home. But Rani prefers to master what is raging in his mind.

"Rani's feelings are no longer like the fans of her idol. Although forever brother King remains idoa Rani." Rani swung the links of their hands forward and back cheerfully. Inversely with his gloomy feelings. "But the idol that Rani managed to have."

Rani smiled broadly at him. "Cool, right, Rani?"

For the first time after setting foot in the tomb, the King could chuckle. "Yes. You kere" The king was not even aware when his steps no longer felt as heavy as before. His steps were lighter even though the graves of his parents were getting closer.

"Clear dong." Rani is styled as if wagging her hair with her empty left hand. Though his wife is now hijab that increasingly makes his wife look shady and more graceful. If it is beautiful, under any circumstances and whatever his wife wears, it will still look beautiful to the King. "Where's try as lucky as Rani."

"So... Love?"

Rani nodded with a smile that never bored the King. A smile that always fascinated him.

"Since the King's brother offers the family a dream for Rani. From that moment on Rani let Rani's heart to fall in love with the King's sister." Rani bit her lower lip in shame. "Rani no longer held him back like a dozen years had passed. Rani always installs a high wall to prevent Rani's heart from falling on the King's sister. Rani lets Rani's heart act as she pleases. And it's not hard to fall in love with the King's brother."

"Aren't I a jerk who likes to change bedmates?"

Rani nodded as if she didn't care. "I know the King did that because the King felt lonely. Because the King's brother needs a friend or an outlet for the disappointment that the King's brother experienced."

"Not." reject the King assuming Rani. "While not entirely wrong. But the main reason I play that girl is you."

"Rani?"

"Yes. Because I want you to stay away and be disgusted at me. So I have a reason to stay away from you. Because I can't offer you the future you might want back then."

"So...." Rani looks shocked and does not expect the reason he has so far is mostly his woman.

"We'll talk later. And I want you to get used to calling me mas like you used to when you gave me some spirit. Not just when you're persuading me."

Rani looks misplaced. But did not give any objection because now they were in front of eating his parents. Where there is a date of death that means the date when the incident occurred.

Seeing the tomb of his parents, the King felt the events of a dozen years ago were increasingly real. Because the evidence and the rest of the terrible events he witnessed were the graves of his parents. The rest of the trauma he felt.

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