An Inner Lent to My Wife's Cousin
Nana's Decision

Herman POVs

Nana hasn't called me in a week after I explained our status that night. He didn't tell me until when he would decide. However, I will keep waiting until he has made up his mind and will contact me.

Right now I and the rest of the family are helping with Yani's niece's wedding. Me and the others were busy helping to decorate the bridal decoration held at my in-laws' house.

The event will be held in a few days. All of us who have families and close neighbors are helping the event. If the men take care of the event supplies, while the women are busy cooking behind and making cakes.

"Her, come here for a second!" call my mother-in-law.

"Yes, Mom?"

"Can you get me a banana leaf? Because the banana leaves behind many are dry. Just a little we got."

"Can, Mom. Later Herman find banana leaves in the village next door."

"Yes, just have Muhlis accompany you to pick up the banana leaf. Maybe you can't take it alone later" my in-laws said, pointing at Muhlis who was looking at the beam cutting.

"Good, Mom." I immediately approached Muhlis and asked him to accompany me to pick up banana leaves in the village next door. I also asked him to use his bike first because I didn't have a two-wheeler.

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"Are you still?" ask me to Muhlis while cutting banana leaf stems from the tree.

"A little bit more, maybe 8-10 is enough," replied Muhlis from a hilltop near the shaft of the road. This location is still quite safe to tread, there is no ravine down there other than the wilderness. This banana leaf that I picked up belonged to Pas Santoso whose house was above near the shaft road. We asked him for permission and he allowed it.

After picking up some banana leaves, I went upstairs and handed the last banana leaf to Muhlis.

"Had, right?" I asked with a breath of ngos-ngosan. I had to jump earlier took a banana leaf that the distance could not reach. Coupled with the hot weather during the day adds to the hot aura to make my body sweat.

"Of course, just this?"

"Yes, only banana leaves are told."

"Her, how's your relationship with Nana? Is it over?" ask Muhlis suddenly.

I stared at him with a surprised look. This is why Muhlis suddenly discussed my relationship with Nana?

"Emang why?" I asked enough to feel angry because of the question. It could be a long matter if I say something about waiting for Nana's decision.

"Don't tell me you haven't ended your relationship with her?" tanya Muhlis looked at me with a probing look.

Lothawat! What do I have to answer to him?! Muhlis did ask me to end my relationship with Nana. But I don't want that to happen. I don't know what it is with Nana because she hasn't given me the answer yet. If Nana wants to end, then I will be ready to accept her decision. But if not, Nana and I will continue our relationship without people knowing, including Muhlis.

"I talked to Nana and she accepted. We both agreed to end our relationship" I replied lying before Muhlis.

I don't want Muhlis to know how I feel about not letting go of Nana. Maybe he will lecture at length to make me dizzy to hear it. Or he could have exposed my secrets to people. However, I believe him that Muhlis is not a big-mouthed person. I know his nature from the past who did not want to interfere in the affairs of others.

"Thank God, if your relationship has ended, you should repent and ask God for forgiveness. However the deeds you did before were great sins, sins of adultery. However, I am sure that Allah will forgive your mistakes because you yourself do not know about the marriage law that you lived before" Muhlis explained that made me swallow.

Grand sins? My relationship with Nana was an act of adultery and it was a great sin. Would I be able to ask for forgiveness from Him if my own heart couldn't let go of Nana?

"Yuk we're home. Maybe we have been awaited by others," joked Muhlis disperse my daydreams.

I did it, got on the bike, then started the engine. While Muhlis was behind me while carrying a lot of banana leaves placed in our middle.

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Nana

[Well, can we go home for a minute?]

The message from Nana made me rise from the fall in front of the television. I checked the contents of the message and it was true that this was Nana who sent me the message just now. I immediately got up and prepared for Nana's house.

"Where are you going, sir?" nadia asked as she was doing her schoolwork.

After arriving in front of Nana's house, I peeked first before entering to check whether Nana was alone or not. I can't talk to him because there are always kids around. Moreover, Dinda who he said had begun to suspect the relationship of his mother and I.

After feeling safe enough, I went in and looked for Nana, because she wasn't in the living room as usual. I walked deeper into the kitchen to find that she was washing the glass in the sink.

"Na," call me.

Nana looked over and then went back to washing the glass. "Wait for me to finish cleaning this up first, Bang. I just got out."

"Yes." Yeah." I chose to pass and return to the living room and then sit on the floor in front of the television. I looked around and could not find Nana's children here. Where are they going?

"Where are your children, Na?" I asked when I saw Nana coming.

"Kalo Dinda stayed at his friend's house today. Tomorrow morning he wants to take a walk to the xxx tour with his school friends. If Aras and Nizam go to play, do not know where," replied Nana and sat in front of me.

"Emang Nadia isn't staying too? He said he was also invited," continued Nana asked.

"Yes, he asked for permission to stay at his friend's house as well. But because he has a task, so he finishes the job first" I replied. Nana nodded. Tomorrow is a weekend, I don't mind if Nadia and Dinda go for a walk or stay at her friend's house.

"Oh yeah, what did you ask me to come here?" I asked with a thumping feeling. Is this going to discuss Nana's decision on our relationship?

"It's about ... our relationship, Bang."

That's right, he'll talk to me about this. But I guessed about his decision.

"So ... how?" my many.

"How much do you want it?" ask Nana back.

"Yes, I want our relationship to continue" I replied honestly. I'm comfortable with him. Relationships that initially feel pity, but over time have begun to appear comfortable feelings near him during this time. I don't know if these feelings arise, but I'm not willing to break our relationship.

"Why? Why do you want to continue this relationship? Our marriage is not legal."

"I know, but somehow I'm kind of heavy to take you off, Na. Like not willing to end our relationship that has been running this year. You know, I'm comfortable with you" I said.

Nana looked at me in disbelief and then showed a red hue on her cheek. Then he lowered his gaze not wanting to see me. Ah, it seems like he is embarrassed now due to my words. I was tempted to see it.

"How are you? Still want to continue our relationship or end it?" ask me to ask for his decision.

"Hmm ... If I ask to end it how?"

"Yes it's okay. I will sincerely accept your decision and will not bother you anymore. Yes, although heavy," I replied. If Nana wants to end, what can I do? I will accept his decision.

"I'm .. I still want to continue, Bang" he whispered.

"Huh?" I brought my face closer to her to make sure that she wasn't wrong.

"I ... want our relationship to keep going, Bang."

The decision Nana made made made me look at her in disbelief as well as happy. This seriously Nana still wants to continue?

"Are you serious?" Nana nodded.

I smiled happily until my hand pulled her body into my arms. I didn't expect Nana to be like me and want to continue this relationship. I don't know why I'm so happy if Nana won't part with me.

"I thought you were going to end our relationship, Na."

Nana let go of the hug and looked at me. "I was thinking that way the first time after my brother explained our status that night. But after thinking back, I don't want our relationship to end. I'm just like my brother, both comfortable. That's what made me think again about the continuation of our relationship. And after hearing that brother remark, I decided to continue our relationship."

I smiled hearing his answer. "So our decision is unanimous. We will continue our relationship without anyone knowing, including Muhlis. I told him our relationship was over. I don't want him interfering in our business anymore."

Nana nodded. Let me and Nana get involved in a forbidden relationship again because we're still comfortable. I don't know until when our relationship will continue and until when this secret will be kept perpetually from people. However, I hope that this secret will continue to be kept safe and that no one else will sniff out our relationship.