An Inner Lent to My Wife's Cousin
Herman Still Looking for Nana (S2)

Hermann POV.

7 Months have passed since Yani and I started a new relationship. To be honest it wasn't Yani who felt that way but I was the one who was trying to start it all. While Yani just considers it ordinary and as if our relationship is fine. However, there is one thing that is a disgrace to me, namely the news of my relationship and Nana that has been widespread in this area.

Yes, since Nana has decided to join Dana to Kalimantan, the mothers here have started gossiping about me and Nana. Moreover, reinforced with Nana who was with her husband and there was someone who had leaked, strengthening the evidence so that Nana was referred to as an actor in her own cousin's household. I'm not so dizzy with these mothers because I don't mingle with them because I'm a boy. However, what made me uncomfortable was the time when their views were difficult to decipher. But I ignored it because this is a risk that I have to get due to playing with fire.

I sipped coffee after eating and then watched people passing by the front of the house from the terrace. This afternoon I chose to go home first to pick up something ordered by my boss that I kept at home as well as lunch. Yani was at the house next door chatting with her relatives. Citra and Arham are also there playing with their niece, while Nadia is still at school. I am the only one at home.

A motorbike stopped in front of the house and one of them got off the bike. I know two people who just came in on a motorcycle. Who else if my eldest child, Nadia and another school friend who always went home together.

"Tumben's getting home, Nad?" I asked when Nadia had been on the stairs up to the house. Nadia usually comes home at 3pm. But it's still noon and maybe 12.

"Teachers again at the meeting, sir. So we are all welcome to go home sooner" replied Nadia, taking off her shoes and coming up to me and kissing her father's hands.

"Have you eaten?" my many.

"Not yet."

"Yes, you eat there first" I said.

"Where's mom?" ask Nadia.

"There's a house next door" I replied.

Nadia went inside and maybe she'll eat in the back. I drank my coffee again so that the deep black water in the glass was exhausted by me. I just remembered something when Nadia came home with her friend.

"Nad! You don't go or go back to school with Dinda?" I turned my head inside and saw Nadia eating while sitting on the floor covered in carpet, watching television.

Nadia raised her shoulders. "No" he answered briefly.

"Why? Didn't you guys always go home together? How do you see you're not together anymore?" many wonder. Back when they signed up for SMK together, the two always looked familiar and together commuting from their new school. Since I haven't bought Nadia a motorbike, my eldest son will ride to Dinda and always leave together. Then why have I seen them not together lately?

"don't know. Dinda went home first with her other friends," replied Nadia.

I was just yelling, not asking any more questions and then turned to look straight at the road. Dinda and Nadia are no longer together. Are the two fighting? Is there a problem between them?

Ah, it's okay. It is common for teenage children at their age to be involved in small fights or misunderstandings. Both will improve as usual.

Speaking of Dinda, I remembered her mother. The woman I thought was my second wife. How's it going now there?

I haven't heard from him in a long time and what he's doing. All of her social media is inaccessible because Nana has moved quickly to block me. From the green app to the blue app everything has been blocked by him so I can't reach him.

I did not want to make any more mistakes by cheating on my wife's back and had promised her that I would no longer be in contact with Nana. However, I was just wondering how he was there and what he was busy with.

Do I miss Nana? I don't know, I don't know how I feel about Nana. Maybe for readers to know if I miss Nana or not?

If you say I have feelings for Nana, I honestly admit it even a little. How not, the relationship that has been established for two years has been a lot we go through, even though we are both only limited to bed relations and other intimacy. And that was with the initial purpose of helping each other.

However, wouldn't it be if a pair of humans of different types and in a state of mutual need would give rise to the seeds of something in their hearts? Maybe yes and maybe not? I don't know.

My relationship with Nana turned out to cause something in me so I was careless that everything was revealed. I was so stupid to divulge my relationship with Nana just because I was jealous to see her with her husband. It doesn't make sense, does it?

But that's what happened to my feelings at the time. Wouldn't a drunk person look honest with what he or she is about to say? Isn't that a sign that I'm jealous and have feelings for Nana?

No matter how I feel about her, I will keep my promise not to have any more contact with Nana. If I could, if Nana ever came back here, I still wouldn't want to see her and would always take care of my wife's heart. That's my promise!

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"Darkl!" I cried when I saw him coming down the stairs from his house.

"Oi!"

I approached him who was now standing on the footing of the stairs. "You see my wallet left at the project site this afternoon?"

"Wallets?" Muhlis thought for a moment and looked at me. "Oh yeah, there's-there. Wait a minute, I'll get it." Muhlis went back to his house, while I went under the house and sat in a chair waiting for Muhlis.

"Herman?"

"I'm here!" I replied under the house.

Muhlis came down and approached me. "Now!" he said, handing me my wallet in dark brown.

"Thanks!"

Muhlis sat in an empty chair and took out a pack of cigarettes. He lit the cigarette and handed the pack of cigarettes to me.

"Cigarettes?" bargained for.

I didn't answer, but I picked up a cigarette and lit it. I sip the taste of the cigarette so that it goes into the lungs, then exhale it so that it raises chemical smoke from my mouth.

"Where's Nana, Lis?" ask me to the point.

Muhlis was jolted with my question. "What do you think about Nana?"

"Yes I just want to know how he is doing and his life there" I replied honestly.

"Why not just ask the same person? He's your ex-wife" she said with a little pressure on the ex-wife's words.

"All communications were blocked by Nana. From the green and blue app he blocked me, "I answered and then took another sip.

"Good, that's a sign that Nana doesn't want to be in touch with you anymore, Her. Your relationship has hurt a lot of people know. Fortunately, Dana's family and Yani's mother no one knows if you and Nana are having an affair" she explained.

"Dana's family doesn't know yet?"

"Hmm, I don't think Dana wants to bring her family to interfere in her household affairs. Just like Yani who did not tell your behavior to Miss Ranti."

Bu Ranti is my mother-in-law who currently lives in Kalimantan with her eldest daughter, my sister-in-law. He lives in Kalimantan because his clove garden is harvesting there. I don't know when my mother-in-law will be here again. Since the father-in-law died, Ms. Ranti seems to prefer to live there with her eldest daughter and her family.

I once asked Yani if she told her mother about my relationship with Nana. Yani replies no and does not want to bring her mother into her affairs, just like Dana. Not even her brother was told.

I also don't know how my mother-in-law would react if I found out I had an affair with Nana, a relative of her family. I know my mother-in-law is patient and kind. However, I do not know his reaction to knowing that his daughter was hurt by me. Will he be angry?

"Well, what are you saying about Nana? Didn't you ever tell me you were gonna change and not be in touch with Nana anymore? You should think, Her, how would Yani feel if you were still asking about Nana," Muhlis told me.

"No, Lis. I was just curious. Just want to know how it is." I'm not wrong, right if I want to know about Nana?

"The news is good and healthy wal'afiat," he answered ketus and then sucked back his cigarette.

I didn't ask any more questions and chose to change the discussion. I was wrong to ask Nana to Muhlis. Looks like I have to find another way so I can find out about Nana later.

**Guys, suggestions for mood balikin to write dong. It's been 3 days I'm not writing anymore because the mood is down. The idea is already there for the next chapter but the fingers seem lazy to type. Sometimes ideas in the brain like to be stuck. What kind of mood is it?

...Happy fasting, for those who do it**!...