An Inner Lent to My Wife's Cousin
Impact on Children (S2)

Yani POVs

Starting everything from the beginning with the husband who has betrayed us is indeed so difficult to be back as before. Especially if the husband is having an affair with a woman who comes from my own close family, Nana. The shadow of how they combined love always came to my mind so that it made me feel suffocated.

Are they not thinking about their partners? Especially Nana. The nearest person, loved one, family, close neighbors of the house, but why did he with his braid stab his cousin in the back? Where is his mind to be determined to agree to Bang Herman's invitation to marry? They are completely inexhaustible with their thought patterns.

Ah, again remembering it makes pain in the heart that is healing the wound, even though it has passed 7 months. I should try to forget all that by having a normal day with my husband without having to bring up the problems that befall my household, even though it all still feels difficult. However, I always suggested to myself that everything would be fine. Moreover, there is no Nana here so that makes Bang Herman can not get close to Nana anymore.

"Yan, are you really strong enough to go through it all? If I was in your position, I'd have given up from the beginning."

"Why choose to hang with Herman, Yan? She was hurt but accepted him back. Be careful, Yan. People who are addicted to cheating, surely he will cheat again for the umpteenth time."

"Crazy Nana and Herman. Didn't think they could do such a depraved deed to you and Dana, Yan."

"I can't believe Nana Gatel."

Many relatives and neighbors who regret the affair Bang Herman and Nana. Not even hesitant they vilify Nana has been playing fire behind her husband. They also supported me to get divorced from Bang Herman and take custody of the children. But it's not all easy for me. I don't have a job and money how can I handle a divorce? Is not divorce expensive? Besides, what I think of today is the happiness of children. I can't be selfish if I'm selfish and put the kids' feelings aside.

However, the trials are still there even though the massaay of Bang Herman and Nana is over. And this comes from Nadia and Dinda who now hate each other and are no longer friends.

"Mom!" Nadia came up to me who was ironing clothes alone in front of the TV that was on the night show on one of the television stations. Arham, Citra, and Bang Herman are out buying meatballs because my husband just got a payday. It is customary for Bang Herman that if he receives a salary, he will buy special meals for the children.

"Why, Son?"

"Nadia can ask mom, can you?" asked Nadia who was sitting next to me.

I smile. "You stay why ask permission? If you want to ask, just ask. I'll answer if you know."

Nadia was a little silent and hesitant to say it. I was confused by his expression. "What's up, kid? How did you shut up?" my many.

"Nadia wants to ask, what is the relationship between you and Aunt Nana, Mom?" ask Nadia.

The deg!

I was speechless and in shock when I heard Nadia ask like that. I looked into her eyes, waiting for my answer. From his face looks serious and does not mess with his words. However, why would Nadia suddenly ask like that? How did he know about his father and Nana's relationship?

"What relationship? You're just like you, you have a relationship. Yes, a family relationship," I replied.

"Nadia knows, ma'am, about that. But what Nadia asked was the special relationship between Mr and Aunt Nana," said Nadia so I was confused to answer it.

I don't know where Nadia got the news about her father and Nana so she needs confirmation from me. Indeed, the news of the affair of Nana and Bang Herman has spread in this village. But the news is known only to adults. However, it is undeniable that maybe Nadia can find out the news.

"Why do you know where, son, if your father had any other relationship with aunt Nana?"

"From friends and Dinda, Mom. Dinda said tell my dad to stay away from his mom and ask him not to come any closer to Aunt Nana."

"My friend also asked me about the news, Mom. They asked me the truth about the news" said my son, who made me no longer able to say anything. This is what is feared if the news of the affair of Bang Herman and Nana is widespread. Children who will be victims of their actions so that children feel ashamed.

"I just need you to be honest about the news. Is it true that Dinda's mother and father had a special relationship?" ask Nadia again.

"That's not true, son. How could your father do such a thing. Don't believe what your friends say." I had to lie in front of Nadia and did not want to make Bang Herman's image as a father worse in the eyes of his own daughter. Although I have been hurt by him, I cannot possibly involve the children and make him hate his own biological father.

"Mom, Nadia already knows everything. Nadia beg you not to lie to Nadia about the relationship between the father and aunt Nana."

The deg!

"Do you know where it all came from, son?" I just feel angry.

"I heard it myself, Mom. When mom and dad talk together and talk about the relationship between father and aunt Nana," he replied that made me curse myself. It seems I have to control my mouth to not bring up Bang Herman's affair when my husband and I are talking together.

I did bring up my husband and Nana's relationship while talking to her. Whether it was intentional or unintentional tucked into the chatter. Although I brought up the matter, Bang Herman just kept quiet and tried to patiently face me even though his face looked annoyed. He tried maybe to be patient with me because that's the risk he has to face if he wants to repeat everything because I still need time to heal the wound.

"Honestly Nadia was disappointed with you. Very-very disappointed. Nadia wants to be angry with the father and wants to call the father rudely who has cheated on him behind the mother. But Nadia did not dare to do that considering the father is the father of Nadia. Nadia is also afraid when Nadia is angry, mother will be disappointed with Nadia,"

I was overwhelmed when I heard the expression of my son who now looks sad, angry, disappointed, and maybe a little hate. Everything is mixed and difficult to control. I understand his feelings.

I pulled out the iron plug and hugged my daughter who was in this phase of adulthood. Nadia is fragile now knowing the ugliness of her own father.

"Son, even if your father does something wrong, does something bad, you can't hate him? You cannot hate your own father for his mistakes. No matter what your mistake, you should forgive him as much as possible. Sin if you hate and hate your own father. That's not good, son."

As much as possible I explained to Nadia that she did not hate Bang Herman. I don't want my son to hate his own father, as much or as much as his parents did. Especially if Citra and Arham are big and know the ugliness of his father. I do not want my three children to be vindictive and do not care about the condition of his father. I don't want my three children to be disobedient children.

"Nadia doesn't hate you, Mom. Only Nadia was just disappointed heavily to the father who was playing with fire with his mother Dinda," explained Nadia hugging me. I felt a wet broom on my shirt. I understand that Nadia was crying out to her disappointment towards her father.

I rubbed her back, tried to calm her down, and waited for Nadia's grief to stop. Waiting for Nadia let out her grievances through her cries. I am also like Nadia who is now ready to shed tears. However, trying to maybe hold it back, not showing my sadness in front of Nadia.

After a few minutes Nadia cried, my son raised his face which now looks swollen in his eyes. I wiped off the trail of tears and smiled gently at him.

"It's all over, son. Your father is no longer in touch with your appointment and has repented. He admitted his mistake and promised he would never do that again. Your father has changed to be better. We just need to pray that your father is given good health and a good path so as not to be complacent with the vices given by the whisper of the devil."

"Father is no longer in touch with Aunt Nana, ma'am?" ask Nadia.

I'm nodding. "Yes, their relationship is over. Did you know that the meeting was with Om Dana to go to Kalimantan?"

"That means Aunt Nana left because she was caught having a relationship with you, Mom?"

"That's you don't know, son. Your daughter's leaving has indeed been the decision she made to go with her husband."

"But you're really not related to Aunt Nana anymore, are you? I mean Nadia I don't communicate with aunt Nana anymore even though aunt Nana is in Kalimantan?"

I just nodded in response so I saw in Nadia's eyes there was a happy twinkle knowing the news. I still remember Bang Herman's promise that he would no longer communicate or relate to Nana. I just prayed and tried to re-believe the promise that my husband made.

"How about your friendship with Dinda, Nad?" my many.

"Come, Ma. Dinda herself looked away and no longer wanted to be friends with me. Even to go home with him, he no longer picks me up or takes me to his bike" he replied.

I breathed knowing this. Surely Dinda could not accept the fact that her mother had an affair with Bang Herman. Plus Nana joined Dana to Kalimantan makes it difficult to get clarity from both parents.

"Yes, if you are still shunned by Dinda, you used to take care of your other friends to go and go home to school together. I'll talk to your father to buy you a motorbike" I said.

I saw Nadia nod and then switch to take the iron and turn the object back on. He ironed the clothes I had ironed and helped me continue the work.

I smiled at her who was helping me with my homework. Luckily I have kids who are obedient and can help with homework.

"You don't talk about this to Dad, Nad. About you already know your father's deeds as your problems with Dinda. Let your father not know about this and let your father know for himself about this. You just have to act like you normally do and focus on school?"

Nadia simply nodded while continuing to iron the clothes. I deliberately didn't want Bang Herman to know about Nadia who knew her bad deeds. Let Bang Herman know for himself through Nadia and Dinda who are no longer friends. Let him know about his mistakes that have affected the children.