An Inner Lent to My Wife's Cousin
Apologizing (S2)

Nana POV's

"Bang, accompany me to Yani's house, will you?" I said to Bang Dana when she got back from mom's house up front. Today has entered the holiday of Eid al-Fitr after undergoing 30 days of fasting month. The sound of takbir from the direction of the tv and mosque is still heard until now even though the sun has fallen to show the color of the king.

"Why are you going there?" tanyanya who looks at me wonder.

"I want to apologize to Yani, Bang."

Yes, I will apologize to Yani sincerely without any more prestige. I realized what I had done with Bang Herman to the point of hurting my cousin. Even when I went with Bang Dana to go to Kalimantan, I did not meet him just to apologize. The sense of prestige and shame was too great to meet him. I was too afraid of how Yani would react when she met me at that time.

"I'm sorry what? You got anything wrong with Mbak Yani?" cerca my husband introgates.

My husband is now a very same sensi wife.

"No, Bang. I don't have any problems with Yani. Just want to apologize sincerely, nothing more," I said honestly.

Bang Dana was silent looking at me full of probing. Somehow my husband was always protective of me after my affair with Bang Herman was exposed. He always asked me what I always did and met anyone while in Borneo while he was working. In fact, to get to know his friends, he mengultimatum me not to get close to them for fear of me doing it again. He thought that if I was afraid I would be tempted by his friends like a cheap woman. Don't ask my heart how. Of course the pain in such a stamp by the husband himself. Although Bang Dana did not say clearly, but, he meant that I knew.

Hufft ... really sucks! However, I still like his way because it is a sign that he loves me and is afraid of losing me. Can I be flattered?

"You've apologized to Ms Yani, right before we left at that time?"

I swallowed the saliva, nervous to answer. In fact, I have not apologized to Yani because at that time my ego was high, did not want to meet him. However, this time I really want to apologize sincerely to Yani. I wanted to throw away my guilt all this time that kept haunting me. The shadow of how Yani was hurt by my actions, sometimes like to come to my memory to try to reflect. I thought again I was guilty of my cousin. I want to apologize for my mistake. Especially on this day of Eid, people must forgive each other and be in touch, deciding the grudges that have been lodged in the heart.

"Do you want to meet Bang Herman?" accuse Bang Dana of making me glare.

"Astagfireullah! No, Bang! I don't intend to meet him! Nana just wanted to come to Yani's house just to apologize" I replied, rejecting my husband's accusation. I no longer want to deal with or be in a relationship with that man. It was enough that I was deceived by it to hurt the feelings of the family. I don't want to fall into the same hole anymore.

"Don't want to accompany me there, will you? If not, let me just go there alone," I said a little annoyed because Bang Dana was too stalling.

"Yes-yes, I will accompany you there. I told Dinda first to take care of the house," she replied and passed from the room.

I tidied up my clothes and took an instant veil to put on my head. Even though Yani's house was too close, I had to keep the aurat closed. The clothes I was wearing were not too big to get out. Only wear a black and white robe and an instant veil in line with a black dress.

"Have you?" I asked after seeing my husband come to my room.

I saw him answering my question. "Try brother chat or phone Yani. Who knows if we're gonna get there, he's not home."

My husband complied and immediately pulled out the phone from his pants pocket. He is seen fiddling on the phone screen and starts contacting Yani.

"Assynolajet. Where is mama?" ask Bang Dana.

"..." - ".I heard Yani clearly speaking as her voice reached my ears. However, it remains unclear what Yani is talking about.

"Oh yeah, I want to come to Ma'am's house now. You're not busy anymore, are you?"

"..."

"No, I just want a goddamn order."

".."

"Yes, we went there. Assalamualaikum!" Bang Dana turned off her phone.

"Where? Yani's at home, right?" my many.

"Yes, he's at home" she replied.

"Okay, let's go ahead."

I went out first followed by my husband in the back. While in the living room, I saw Dinda and Aras were busy eating a cake while playing mobile phone.

"Son, papa and mom want to go ahead, yeah. If there are guests, then call mom, yes" I told them.

"Yes, Ma."

Bang Dana and I got out of the house, walked forward out of the hallway to the shaft way. While passing through the neighboring house, there were two mothers and one man who was the husband of one of the mothers was looking at me.

"Where are you going, Na?" scold one of those mothers.

"You go to Yani's house, Mom." I answered with a faint smile to them.

I know the trail of my dark relationship with Bang Herman hasn't completely disappeared. I don't know how else to deal with it other than coming to Kalimantan to debunk their prejudices. It is better to avoid than to see their gazes that seem to look at me contemptuously.

Upon entering Yani's house, I saw a white car parked in her yard. However, I did not find a truck that was always parked in front of their house. I breathed a sigh of relief when I found out that Bang Herman wasn't in his house and saw that there was no truck. I don't know where he went on a holiday like this. I'd be so lazy to meet him if I went to his house.

"Assynnya!" sapaku and Bang Dana while climbing the stairs of Yani's house.

"Glamma!" someone from inside followed someone out.

"Where's mom, Cit?" ask Bang Dana to Citra who just came out.

"There's inside" he answered.

Bang Dana and I went inside and saw the state of Yani's house. The living room and family that was made one so we could see if their tv was lit with carpets on the floor there were many jars of cakes that were deliberately placed there.

"Eh, Dana, Nana, let's sit down" said Yani smiling kindly at us, carrying a tray of two glasses of orange-flavored ice syrup.

Bang Dana and I sat in a chair followed by Yani who put two glasses of iced syrup on us.

"Cit, can you come out for a second? Mama wants to talk to Om and your Aunt" Yani told Citra, who ate the cake.

The boy did not answer, but, getting out of there and putting the table cake jar back in front of me then went out. I don't know why Yani told him to come out not to hear our conversation right now.

"How are you guys?" tanya Yani started the conversation.

"Thank God, we are all good, Ma'am," replied Bang Dana.

Yani and Bang Dana were seen chatting pleasantries about his daily work in Kalimantan. While I chose to quietly listen to their chatter while twisting my fingers feeling nervous.

"I'm sorry if we came here all of a sudden. You have something that Nana wants to talk about the same, Ma'am," my husband said as he glanced at me.

Then Yani looked at me. "What's up, Na?" the question was soft without any sense of thinness or implied vengeance in his eyes, making me feel even more guilty.

I started fixing my seat, a little nervous. "Look, Yan. I came here to be .. apologize to you," I said staring at him.

Yani was silent for a moment waiting for me to continue speaking.

"I've been wrong with you all this time because I've been in a relationship with your husband. I admit to being wrong and realize I've betrayed you and my husband. I continued to be haunted by guilt after that incident. Please forgive me, Yan." I lowered my head to cover the puddles of tears that had now settled in my eyes. Really, this time I really want to apologize from the bottom of my heart.

I heard Yani sigh. "It's okay, Na. It's all over. I've forgiven you for a long time without waiting for you to apologize. However, it's just that sometimes the wounds are still there and it's a little hard to forget" he said, which made me feel even more guilty.

"Please forgive me, Yan. I know my mistake was big on you. I'd do anything to get your forgiveness, anything." I looked up at Yani pleading.

Yani smiles. "I told you I've forgiven you a long time ago, Na. I have no grudge against you. I'm just gonna try to slowly start forgetting your mistakes."

"A-are you serious about forgiving me?" I just can't believe it.

Yani nodded. "Yes, I've forgiven you."

I turned to my husband who was smiling at me, nodding his head. Then I turned again to Yani and started to approach her until I sat down in the chair next to her. I clasped his hand conveying my harrowing feelings that my cousin had forgiven.

"Thank you, Yan. Thanks though. I know my actions will be hard for you to forget. But I'll do whatever it takes to get you to accept me again as your cousin and start running the family relationship you used to be" I said, holding back my feelings. I know the process of forgetting someone who's been stabbing behind us is hard to forget. However, I will try to restore it all and take Yani's trust to forgive me.

"Here, don't think. I'd rather you come here apologizing sincerely to me" Yani replied smiling back at me.

I immediately hugged her spilling my happy feelings. I'm so lucky to have a good cousin like Yani. I didn't expect Yani to forgive me before I apologized to him. From now on I will be determined to change and establish good communication with this cousin of mine.

"Assynnya!"

"Glamma!" answer us.

I let go of my arms, wiped my tears and turned to the source of the voice that was now standing at the door.

Bang Herman?!

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