An Inner Lent to My Wife's Cousin
Lust Beats Healthy Intellect

Nana POVs

I never thought I would be the second wife of my cousin's husband. I don't know where my common sense is until I foolishly accept Bang Herman's proposal, especially I'm married.

We deliberately did not tell our family about this second marriage because of course our intentions must be strongly rejected by them. Only Bang Muhlis was made guardian so that this marriage runs smoothly in front of Pak Penghulu. We also forced him to come with us after being lured with the payment.

I was hesitant to marry Bang Herman. But Bang Herman convinced me that he only wanted to help ease my burden. Even Bang Herman had already prepared all in the city with his predecessor and a few witnesses there. Bang Herman said I can't tell you my married status to the pengulu and the witnesses. I asked her about it but Bang Herman only answered so that our marriage would go well. She was afraid that there would be a debate when I would reveal my marital status.

The beginning of all of this was when I was so intensely texting Bang Herman that we talked to each other about our problems. The intensity of our meeting also told each other and complained about our days. However, I didn't know if the message Bang Herman sent would propagate to perverted things. Not to avoid but I responded to it to make my body feel hot cold due to our discussion.

I who have been left behind Bang Dana who works in Kalimantan can only hold back and mourn my fate far from my husband. Some say if the wife or husband who rarely get an inner living from his partner, will experience dizziness to stress. I don't know if it's true but I've experienced it all the way from Bang Dana. Moreover, plus the work and affairs of housewives make my head feel like breaking.

I also had time to tell this to Bang Herman wanted to find out if he had a solution to deal with this problem that I experienced. Of course he only gave advice so that I rest for a moment and can not think of anything. But still I often experience dizziness and prolonged stress. And I told it all to Bang Herman. However, what surprised me was that he invited me to marry for the purpose of just wanting to give his inner living to me. Bang Herman knows that I haven't had an inner living from Bang Dana in a long time. That's what he asked me to marry.

I refused and thought that Bang Herman was crazy. Maybe he asked me to get married while I was still a husband. Wait for me to get divorced with Bang Dana and I can get married to Bang Herman. That's all I know if a wife wants to get married again. After all, this Bang Herman is her husband Yani. It could be a cold war with Yani and her family if I become her second wife Bang Herman. Especially what the neighbors say if I become a second wife. Mothers here put their mouths on sharp.

However, somehow my passion is getting more and more defeated my common sense to make me accept Bang Herman's invitation to get married. Yes, right, after I thought about the long term and persuaded constantly from Bang Herman, I finally received the proposal and did our wedding secretly in the city. Had Bang Dana not gone far, I would not have taken such foolish actions just to earn the inner living of Bang Herman.

It was thought to follow up to Kalimantan and live with my husband there. But I think of my three children and my parents here. If I bring the kids, I need to need a decent place to live there.

Then what about my parents. I'm fine leaving them here, but it still makes me never have the heart to leave. Even though there was my 16-year-old brother Risky, I still did not calm down to leave my parents. Quite my sister who left them because she had to come with her husband to work, while her children were left here to mother and father.

I can leave my children to my mother and father just like my brother. But isn't that the same as adding to their burden? I don't want to make it difficult for my mother and father to take care of his grandchildren, while his parents are busy making a living on the opposite island. They look old and have to take care of their grandchildren, even though I'm sure they can. But what would people say if I also leave the children to my parents.

That is why I decided to choose my mind over my mind. I don't know how to vent my passion after my husband's death and only Bang Herman offers to help me give his inner living. Business is discovered or the heart, it's business later. The most important thing is that Bang Herman and I can get married as soon as possible.

Even before we got married, I had expressed my doubts to Bang Herman, is this marriage legal? Is it legal to marry a married woman? However, Bang Herman assured that this marriage will be legal if all wedding preparations are available.

I who don't know anything can just follow him don't ask him anymore. I just pray that the path I choose will not affect my bad luck in the future.

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My mind is so calm now. My soul was so fresh after I married Bang Herman. Bang Herman said, if I want another inner living from him, I have to preach it and set the right time so that we can be free to do it. Of course in a safe place when doing so is at my home at night when the children are asleep.

I live my status of having two husbands. Bang Dana gave me birth, while Bang Herman gave me inward support. I don't know when I'm going through all this. As long as everything is not revealed, everything will be fine.

However, something stuck in my mind about this, which is how Bang Dana will react if I am married again? Is Bang Dana the same as me who can't resist her passion? Is he cheating there?