Canvas Aksara
YES FAMILY...

Regan's pair of legs stepped hurriedly along the corridor this morning. Now still at 5, the sun has not yet appeared in space. It's too soon to come to school this early. However, a phone call that disturbed his sleep a few minutes ago made him drive his motorcycle madly through the cold morning air moist and fog.

At the end of the corridor on the east side of the ground floor, Regan continued to walk up to the empty expanse of land in front of him. The grass that was still wet due to the dew that had fallen since last night made every footing ache. Cold creeping from the ground seemed to be able to reach every inch of Regan's body, making him shiver while imagining the worst possibility he would encounter when he reached the old building where his destination.

Entering the dimly lit area of the building, the smell of worn wall chalk that usually feels familiar in the smell of Regan now feels foreign. The smell of chalk is no longer soothing, no longer makes him feel freedom, it makes him cramped and feel suffocated among the dimness that surrounds this place.

When climbing the stairs to the 2nd floor, Regan's shoulders felt heavy. It was as if thousands of tons of weight were falling on him one by one. The further he stepped, the more stiff his body felt. Heart-crazing dilation, the rhythm of the breath that stinged, Regan was made to be swept away by a false fear. His legs stopped in front of one of the rooms closest to the stairs. Without the need for him to move his hand to open the door, the contents of the room were already clearly plastered before his eyes.

Regan saw. The people who are in there. Wrapped in gloomy air and sadness. Zen, the bespectacled man who carried a calm and controlling, tangles spread clearly on his face without being able to be covered. Lucy, an energetic and energetic girl, doesn't even show a single glimmer of a smile now. Damian, the man nicknamed the glacier by Lucy, looked so desperate to cover his face with both hands and make the wall as his backrest. Alec and Alan, a duo of twins whose hobbies are acting silly, now don't even know how to laugh. Rin, the girl who desperately forms a friendly person, even loses the smile that she should still maintain under any circumstances. Then the youngest member among them Hana, the girl who easily cried even because of trivial things, now from her eyes that looked blankly a single tear was not left.

Aside from her six friends, Regan finds nothing else, empty. Two pianos adjoining the corner of the room, a board filled with notes, a set of sofas and a billiard table in the middle of the room. All that just loomed in Regan's mind without any real form in front of her eyes. The thing that made Regan unconsciously swallow, but he actually felt increasingly suffocated.

"Xander.." -...."

Hana greets Regan first. Ah, even that name alone felt pressured Regan to fall even further.

"Please...." The girl held the edge of the shirt Regan was wearing, with her head bowed she pleaded for help. "We lost the house.... Losing dreams.... Our breath... our life...! Now how...? How the... Xander's.... Tell us how....?!"

Regan's legs felt limp was unable to hold his body weight. Not yet he had time to look for a grip to stay upright, Hana who hit himself and the deafening cry of the girl made Regan fall on her knees without even talking.

Stuffy. Be ill. Regan's heart ached hearing that grim cry. And he was further crushed again when other jokes appeared modestly accompanied by a cry asking Regan to give help. And in this second, the question that had been lingering for a long time in the dark room of Regan's heart reappeared.

'Is life fair?'

Although the light of dawn began to spread, but it all felt dark for Regan. Both in this room, in this building, and in his life to infiltrate the corners of his soul. In all the real darkness.

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For Regan, life is simple. If formulated then the equation he got is like Sin 0° which is zero, he must be Cos in order to get the number 1. Likewise when in Cos 90° he must be Sin so that the value does not stop at zero. It's all about position, how and where we position things to get what we want. So, according to Regan the main key is just adaptation. Literally humans have a natural instinct to adapt to their own environment. It is physical, physical. The same is true for the soul, spiritual. Although the soul only takes a fraction of a percent place in the body but the control is very large. And the soul needs to adapt to nature, adjust everything until the body it occupies can continue to live properly.

Worth it? From the beginning Regan had earned a decent life, a decent life. It should adapt to the level of feasibility that the environment provides. But Regan just ignored the initial theory. Put yourself where you should be. When Sin reaches zero he forgets to switch to Cos, and vice versa. So that the overlap of the problem came.

Being human is not easy. More difficult than wild deer that survive predators, more terrible than plankton that try far from the target of other fish. Being human is complicated. Thousands of formulas will not be able to solve the overlapping problems that every human being experiences.

But, is not that way the existence of a brain without limits becomes a counterbalance to the complexity? Humans have millions of problems, and their brains work to solve every complexity. However, to what extent can the human brain overcome the existing problems? Is the infinity of the human brain true?

It must be bullshit. Everything in the world has its own limits. And Regan feels she has reached her limit. He can't think, he doesn't know what to do. Just sit quietly without responding to the questions raised by the ZHS executive. His eyes were fixed on Miss Denada who was standing at the side of the executive body by holding several sheets of files.

One more thing that makes humans complicated, besides human problems also have feelings. It is perhaps the most terrible thing in all parts of life. Or rather be sad?

Yeah, it might be sad. It was sad when tons of weight came charging at Regan like an unstoppable flood and he started looking for a target to blame.

"Using school facilities for personal use and using the name of the school without written permission for individual or group benefits. It's a grave offense...."

ZHS and all its rules. Regan cursed inwardly as word for word continued to scatter. He did not bow his face, glaring sharply at Miss Denada who retorted his gaze. With the teacher here, Regan can clearly guess the beginning of all this chaos.

Regan was held for 3 hours in the executive room. His position as the chair of the Student Council would probably be threatened. The final conclusion of the trial made all Regan's disciplinary points reach zero. He is also not allowed to participate in all student council activities within a period of one month. In short, Regan vacated from the position of chairman for up to a month. And that month is called a period of rehabilitation for him, for self-evidence that he is still able to carry out these responsibilities and not repeat the mistakes that can make his name become polluted again.

Just five minutes after Regan left the executive room, her name was posted on the ZHS website. The Chairman's vacuum news has also appeared on the bulletin board as the headlines and the news will continue there until the vacuum period ends. This is also an opportunity for new candidates to overtake Regan. Regan's position can be given to other candidates, if within a month Regan is unable to catch up with the discipline points and missions set by the party concerned.

"This is your real life Regan. Sacrificing piano keys for this is worth it."

That's the guy. The source of all this chaos. Miss Denada. One year ago he was the most active in forming this piano group with Regan. And now behold, he was also the most eager to destroy all that Regan had fought desperately for. Even at this point Regan doesn't dare to just hear the clink of the piano anymore. He might never touch that thing again forever. Regan's name has been blacklisted, she can no longer enter the world she once dreamed of. His mother also knew the news. Regan's really done.

"Is it fun to do this?"

Miss Denada leaned against the wall beside Regan sitting down. He glanced at the end of the empty corridor. Then his eyes focused on Regan who was looking down on the floor blankly. "Your mother knew, from the beginning. And I can't defend this any further. Enough I lost my dream, no need for this peaceful life also taken away. You know Regan? If he says 'yes' then it's 'yes', there are no exceptions."

Regan's jaw tightened tightly as the corners of her lips trembled with restraining emotions. Want him to pretend not to know the reality he knows clearly. Miss Denanda's biggest fear was her mother... Irene Giena Galilei's. The cold-hearted woman ruthlessly ruined the life of Miss Denada who was her own biological sister. Yes, Delyna Azada Galilei, the youngest in the conglomerate's family. For reasons that Regan finds unreasonable the name Galilei embedded for Denada was forcibly removed. Being able to live a quiet life and live the days as one of the teachers at ZHS is a blessing. Regan understands how Miss Denada is protecting her life. But his actions also can not be justified Regan. Regan believed in him more than she believed in herself. Regan thinks she still has hope for the man she says is her family.

Bullshits! What family?!

"You lost it because of your mistake. At least if you can't get what you want, don't make other people lose the life they've kept."

Just get there. Regan didn't talk any further. He got up and climbed the silent corridor with silence. At the end of the corridor, before entering the crowd Regan thought for the step he took. Turning on the destruction behind him, stopping at this void point or stepping forward broke through the crowd.

And for the next tens of minutes all Regan did was shut up. He chose to stop at this point of emptiness.

Stop over. Regan chose to stop. Against life. His world. Against all else Regan chose not to step again.

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"No more, I am" Moreo shook his head as he sighed heavily. He rested his chin on the window sill followed by his three friends - Jordan, Yogi, Arkan. They were lined up in front of the window from outside the classroom making astonished gazes of the people passing by in the corridor directed at them.

"Well, you're a moron don't know what my smart power is?"

Arkan who stood at the very end made the heads of his three friends turn spontaneously to him. While he carelessly gazed into the classroom, his place of diligent humans were busy on the formulas in their respective books.

The original 4 friends are indeed official members of this Superior Science class. However, it looks like ZHS staff found the product defective so they became a scourge for the class. Just look, when other class members learn to be independent in the classroom quietly, the four of them actually line up outside like merchandise. Want to be reprimanded also I don't know, the class leader was tired of them.

"Samperins, Dan!" Yogi elbowed Jordan next to him with his eyes focused into the classroom. Precisely on the object they were observing earlier, Siena. The girl was busy feeding her classmates with the snacks she brought. The story is that the boy is sharing food for his friends who are said to be fighting for the future.

"You want to?"

Jordan daydreams. Until when Siena appeared before him thrusting the snack in his hand at Jordan, the man had trouble digesting the situation. He was silent for a while, gnawing a few times until then jumped in shock.

"Slow respond...." Siena's comments focused her elbow on the window sill. He continued snacking without caring about Jordan who was already staring at him horror.

"L-lo...!?" Jordan stutters sideways but his friends are gone.

"Ngantin yok! Laper me."

"So!"

"Dispose."

Although his mouth said so, Jordan still followed Siena who sauntered in the corridor to the level II cafeteria. Holdin' a.... Level II???

"Na, she said she wanted to help...?"

Siena pointed to the board that was displayed above the two-leafed door in front of her, "Lo illiterate? What writing?" tanyanya sarcasm.

Jordan scratched his nape awkwardly. Lah yes, on the board there is the writing 'KANTIN'nya. But, that's not what it means!

"This is a canteen up to II, where we can enter there is no access card."

Siena glared at the roar making Jordan shriek, "Why did you let me come here? You know wrong!"

"Na, you're back, huh? A--" The originally upright head of Jordan was immediately bowed and the tone at the end of his sentence changed slowly as soon as Siena's demonic aura came out, "--mat...."

"It is done by the back. Pake show want to pedekate-in me all," taunted Siena who instantly changed expression into a kind angel who radiates divine light.

In the taunting as Jordan got bigger, clouds cloudy with rainstorms and lightning as if floating on his head. Moreover, Siena brought up the matter of 'pedekate', just want to drown he feels. But, even so he still followed Siena who had been down the corridor back with a humming ria.

Initially Siena was badmood, he was getting a monthly ration in addition to losing bets with Panca making the balance in his account reduced. After seeing the depressed Jordan made his mood rise again and he was excited again to live the day.

According to Siena, Jordan is a cadaver. Strange crests, goblin crests, limp crests and cada-not but absurd abis. The man blatantly liked her and tried to approach her, but he also acted as if he was not like that. How describe? Siena was confused too. So confused until he felt Jordan deserved to be thrown into Language class 00.

On a whim, Siena stopped her steps suddenly. Glanced at with the tail of the eye, Jordan also stopped. He took a step forward, Jordan also came along. Siena took five steps back, Jordan nodded. And so on they went back and forth in the quiet corridor until Siena's laughter finally could not be held back.

Jordan sepet see it, realize he was fooled and stupid again he already knew it but still did it. He was upset, his plan was to sulk. But it also took a swing to go, ditoel Siena a little faith wavering.

"That's cheap I'm the same lo, Na," resigned Jordan then took the palm of Siena's hand for him to hold. Then with wide steps he led Siena to the canteen level IV which is located end to end with the canteen level II. Siena's laughter along the corridor caused Jordan to walk while holding her chest, worried that at any time her heart could jump out due to her detachment being too abnormal.

"Aa' Jo~~~ Cool too, yeah ahay! Aa' Jooo...." Siena joined the acute level, she was like a child held by Jordan let alone she swung their clasped hands while continuing to repeat the call that made Jordan to the most heated stage in his life.

"Yes! Na's! Na's!" Jordan broke free with both hands cupped to his chest. Before long he gasped with a pain-bearing expression.

"Well, why?!"

"My heart is beating.." Jordan said with a clear face.

Because of Jordan's bego humor, Siena laughed willingly. There was just something, he thought.

"Responsibility, Na! I'm baper!"

Siena laughed louder but did not stop welcoming Jordan who wanted to embrace her. Patting it softly lekaki's back. And with the rest of his laughter he said, "Oh, ouch. Don't baper anymore, yeah. I'm just PHP-in lo."

Jordan auto back. Siena is so, so cruel. He was mentally prepared from the start to approach the girl. But, the edges of Jordan are still not able to with the inner pressure caused by Siena against him. Unsettling. The person who blatantly wants to mess with his feelings but he cannot hate and even more he is chasing again and again. Siena is so unsettling.

"Terosss dating...." Siena sewot suddenly as they pass around the park area. He looked annoyed at the couple sitting ateng enjoying the life of both of them in the gazebo.

Jordan looked alternately at Siena and the couple, "Lo jealous?" tanyakanya. "Don't be a PARDON-IYA!" Jordan hurriedly took some distance when Siena lifted the small ceramic pot she got from the nearby shelf.

"My crush isn't you?!"

"YES!"

"Well hurry her up," Siena replied casually as she put the mini pot containing the cactus back into place. Imagine if he really threw it at Jordan.

"What did you go to school this morning?"

"Hm, get on the bike, Yogi's bells."

Siena turned to me, "I'm going home."

Jordan just nodded. After all, if in shakes will also be considered 'yes' by Siena. Sometimes Jordan wondered to himself, how could he like a girl as extreme as Siena?

"Aksa restless, there is my girlfriend dilupain," complained Siena while squatting staring at the gazebo where Panji and Alena were busy together. Within a few seconds his eyes had met with the Little Sister, the boy looked up and returned to his girlfriend with a smile. Note that! T-E-R-S-E-N-Y-U-M!

"Damnah! I've never smiled like that!" Siena self-tightened.

For people who do not know Siena's relationship with Panji will indeed think that Siena is the third person in Panji and Alena's relationship. Actually everyone thinks so because no one knows that Siena is the sister of Panji. Plus the brothers have no intention of straightening the gossip, they actually do not cover the relationship of their two brothers but just lazy to tell.

And Jordan was one of the people who thought there was a love triangle between Siena-Panji-Alena. But you know, he still likes Siena, even more and more like it, the term 'acute wash'.

"Jojo, stop yuk!"

Jordan lowered his head to look at Siena who was crouching beside him while looking up at him. He cleared his throat while nodding unconsciously with Siena's words because he had been focusing wrongly on the girl's face. Even when Siena dragged him to the parking lot, he was still unconscious from his fascination. Until then they got into the car and he was behind the wheel of his new plonga-plongo.

"Remain, jirr!"

"home." Siena answered without a burden which made Jordan look at her horror. There has been no history of students skipping through the main gate whose guard is like a diamond safe, very tight.

In the end they ditched in the UKS. Rebahan in the gurney while reading ria made the UKS guard choose to move out of his chair. Looks like it would be suitable if he was this person to be a couple, just begging for mercy. The UKS guards were overwhelmed.

Until free hours arrive they completely leave the school area complete with bags delivered by Arkan while they are in the UKS. The destination of these two people is only one, Siena's apartment. He said Siena wanted to ask for help about the chameleon he maintained, he said again The chameleon was exposed to symptoms of carefree alias longing for affection. Siena needs Jordan to comfort her pet's chameleon.

Siena's apartment is in a twin building in the city center. The area is crowded and noisy, and surrounded by shopping centers and interesting tongkrongan places. It is not surprising that Siena lives in such an environment, because Siena is a person who cannot be silent and easily bored.

When they got to the door of Siena's unit, they argued for about 15 minutes on the topic 'Both girls and boys are alone at home'. Strong Jordan said that shortly when he wanted to be brought here. When Siena was expelled, she also did not want to leave. Until finally their voices make other residents disturbed and inevitably they must immediately enter.

The reason Jordan said he was not alone, he was originally afraid of the chameleon that Siena told him about. Jordan the tyrant was once able to make peace with the reptile nation. Whether it's a lizard, lizard, or chameleon that Siena says. Actually there's also a kind of phobia Jordan, but he's suspicious to say.

Until Siena takes out her pet chameleon and passes it into Jordan's hands. Within seconds the large body of the leg fell to a thud. Jordan fainted.

The poor Jordan's....

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Today the weather is clear. So bright to make Panji many times more missed home than usual. For that reason, after he set foot through the entrance immediately he threw his body into the rattan chair in the living room.

The front door is still left open making the wind blow in and greet the moist Panji skin surface. The entire body of the man was flooded with sweat because for the umpteenth time he prefers to go home on foot rather than using public transportation. Being able to rest after a tiring journey and free from the heat of the sun is the most grateful thing today.

"Well, Aksa?"

The banner turned its head to look at the figure of the Mother who emerged from the kitchen with a spatula on the right hand. As you can remember, the Mother's banner has not told you that you will go home today.

"Where's your gate? How to go home by yourself?"

The banner was attacked with questions again, this time from Father who was going down the stairs.

"Ang? Who?" Panji. And even more confused by the questions of his parents. A brother? Does Panji have a brother?

"Forgotten, you know! Typical sister accuser!"

The ketus call made Panji have to turn his head back. This time he looked at the entrance. And when he saw a tall figure that was very similar to Dad, Panji just remembered that he was not an only child. He has two older sisters, Siena who holds the position of second child and one of the oldest children who just appeared. Aditya Panca Batara's.

"Where are you from? Why did Aksa come back on foot? Don't nag, I saw ya from the top floor adekmu back on foot until tepar like this until home."

Panca was still standing in the doorway, he scratched the nape of the nape that was not itchy. While Dad was sitting next to Panji who was exhausted. Talking to Panca's father is not a problem, but mentioning the reasons outspoken by the Panji here makes Panca worried. Moreover, there was a small pot containing plastic flowers in the middle of the table.

"Anu, the end of Aksa was very excited about the road, so I did not want to disturb. Just follow me in bela-DEK WANT TO DO WHATIN!!?"

Panca was shocked to see her sister lifting the ashtray she got from under the table. Not a small pot on the table that became a Panji weapon, but an ashtray made of glass and quite heavy.

"Aksa, put the ashtray down again, son!"

Mother was busy turning the fish in the pan when she heard the commotion from the front and when she turned to the view of Panji who was ready to throw the ashtray that she found.

Panji turned his head, looking at Mommy with an innocent face right after he threw an ashtray in his hand at the initial target. With the father who just laughed without the intention to stop making Panji does not hesitate to add strength in the throwing process.

Fortunately for Panca he could dodge and unlucky for Siena who had just arrived. The ashtray hit the nose bone of the girl so she screamed hysterically.

"MOM....!"

"Na, your nose is hollow!"

"You can't breathe, you can't breathe!"

"It's not Marimar!"

"I'm Siena Arcaya Yusra, if you forget."

Mother sighed resignedly to see the debate of two of her oldest children. He chose to busy himself with his cooking rather than dizzy with the commotion of his children.

"Nana, you're a nosebleed," I explained more clearly. Not at all panicking girls' noses just bloody. Dad was like that, always calm. Is it clear where the calm nature of Panji comes from?

Siena hurriedly touched her nose as soon as told by Father. His fingers felt a warm liquid coming out of his nose. After glaring at Panca with a deadly gaze Siena immediately ran towards the bathroom to clear up her mess.

Panca stroked his chest while staring at the passing of Siena, then changed to look at Panji's horror. The child was also looking at him, with a stern look of hostility. But, as soon as Father rubbed his head a glance Panji's expression changed drastically. So the plate is again as it was.

"Danger, deck. Next time do not just throw-just," Panca's advice is still in shock. He sat in the chair opposite the banner.

"Dec.... Hmh!" Panji rotates his eyes because of the call that Panca made from her that never changed. Panca was the only one who made a different call to her when the houseman chose to call her 'Aksa'.

Dad boasted a smile seeing Panca who started babbling to Panji. He shook his head and turned to check the Panji bag left lying on the floor.

"Mrs Batara, your son won the gamble. Semeriwing that, look at his face," Siena who occasionally grimaced the base of his nose that throbbed pain due to ashtrays. Surprisingly, at home no one smokes but why there are ashtrays.

"Mother, how can there be ashtrays at home?" Siena voiced her question to Mother who was busy arranging food on the table.

"Your father bought it. Make a collection, he said," replied Mother.

Siena clucked between astonishment and feeling sliced, "Strange is indeed the Science of that one."

The sound of laughter from the living room caught the attention of Siena and Mommy. It sounds like not only Panca is excited, but Dad is too. Because Panji did not sound so you can guess who was the object of their laughter.

"Nda, look! Pfft...." Panca shouted showing off the petite hairy creature that she was stalking with both palms. "Sikopet Mother's child, the time of this gemoy creature is held in a bag," he explained and laughed again while playing a bantet kitten in his hand. Where do these banners get these cute creatures from?

"There are still two more," added Father showing two other kittens crawling out of the Panji bag. Awakened already curious about why Panji bag looks twitching in his eyes. Not because of illusions like his hypothesis but because there are other living things trapped in his son's bag.

"Iihh, ask for one!"

"NO!"

The banner that was originally still in a lethargic mode was directly upright. He grabbed the kitten in Panca's hand and put it back in the bag and pulled the zipper of his bag shut.

Siena was not surprised by the firm rejection of her sister. Panji was an acute level cat lover. But, the Panji that kept the cat in a bag like storing a book made Siena inexhaustible. For one it could not make Siena not surprised. Surprisingly also the kittens just according to hiccuped, they are not excited meowing at all.

"God...." Mommy pats the jidat and retreats alon-alon. He went back to the table to prepare food for them. Although the lunch hour has passed, but eating together to start family togetherness is mandatory.

"Borrow, deh, minjam. Don't get sucked!" Siena is still tight. At least he wanted to hold the cute little creature for a moment. Their thick feathers look tempting, let alone see Panca holding it was Siena so pingin too.

"So!" Panji refused. He hugged his backpack and headed to his room on the second floor. While Panca and Siena followed him, with thousands of appeals so that they could borrow the Panji pet (which had been kept by the Panji since when).

Father saw the departure of his children and approached Mother, "Your children, tuh," he said with a tired spirit.

Mother smiled widely until her eyes narrowed but the fall even creepy.

"Our children."

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Regarding the incident of three kittens in the bag, Panji picked it up on the side of the road. On the way home he found a small cardboard box in which there are three hairy creatures, and all three have the same color that is orange. Because of the color of the feathers that make Panji finally named them Oyen, starting from the most bantet named Oyen 1, Oyen 1, then the thinnest is named Oyen 2 medium for another one that has a black spot on the tip of his ear is named Oyen 3. But that's not the problem now. Except....

"One of them, huh? Yea?"

Panji glared with arms hugging his three new pets, "Son!" refuse without much thought.

"Just give it up, Na. Surrender!" exclaimed Panca who was leaning against the door with her hands folded in front of her chest. "If not, then bet. You can touch the end of the fur of the cat, I give back all the money lo kemaren."

A big mistake for Panca to mention the word bet and also bring up events that have passed. Because after the sentence was finished he said, Siena immediately changed her focus.

Fuck the cat. Now Siena just wants to continue her evil intentions on Panca about her losing bet that led to the loss of three zeros in her balance.

And the rest of the day at the Batara residence was filled by the noise of the brothers. With Panji as the mediator while Daddy and Mommy enjoy their romantic time both at the dinner table.

Only in moments like this, Panji can aspire to become oxygen floating without the need for trouble in the air.