Canvas Aksara
NEED TO BE FIX, NEED TO BE HEAL

CANVAS 17

[NEED TO BE FIX, NEED TO BE HEAL]

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It's almost five in the afternoon. But Batara's residence is still quiet. Panca hasn't come home from yesterday, I don't know where the kid went. Siena also just stopped by for a while this morning before school, just to pick wine for breakfast and then left again without talking. Then Panji, obviously the child coolly languished in his room just struggling in front of the canvas or just daydreaming with his three adopted children.

Mother is preparing dinner, and secretly hoping with the quiet atmosphere of the house this afternoon she can invite Panji to eat together and talk. Dad was sitting in the front room with a laptop on his lap.

Dad slightly fixed his sagging glasses and then spoke to me who, "Here are the kids where they haven't been?" Then after that he breathed a heavy load. Dispute the other day between his three children has not been heard the solution, and now they are lost somewhere.

"Try you to call Aksa in her room, tell her to eat."

Inevitably Dad put his laptop on the table according to the order of the Madam of the house. He had just stood up from his seat when the door of the house was opened violently and Siena entered in hasty steps. Without caring for anyone there Siena directly climbed the stairs to the second floor.

"Why else?"

The head of the father suddenly dizzy to see his son coming with such an angry look. He stomped his nose and walked tiredly after Siena who might have been in a mess with the Panji up there.

True as Dad thought, Siena did come to be angry at Panji. Actually, he had been holding back with great difficulty since seeing his sister in the library with Alena. Yes, Siena was indeed there without anyone noticing her existence. In fact he clearly heard all of Panji and Alena's conversations.

Given the dispute between him and Panji the other day has not been resolved, Siena does not want to add any more problems with this issue. Intentions he wants to calm down invite Jordan to hang out at the Coffe Shop. But he meets Regan and Alena there instead.

Argha! Siena's upset! Remembering because the woman was his sister to the point of stupidly torturing herself. Angrier again when remembered that Panji was sad alone, while Alena? Hells! Siena was angry, so she left Jordan confused there alone.

"Have you finished playing girlfriends with that girl?"

The pennant sitting cross-legged on the balcony with his adopted son only said indifferently, "Who woman?"

"Don't pretend you don't know!"

Panji did not stare at Siena who was already shaking her waist in front of him. He played with the three little cats on his lap. Not at all concerned with Siena's anger.

"I assume one problem is solved. Next, we can start packing, right? Moving to a new place, Father and Mother work quietly. Panca no longer has to wander. And you, can seek treatment and then live quietly there," Siena explained her thoughts in frustration. He knew Panji would never agree to that. But he also wants Panji to know, that he requires Panji to agree.

"Why should I be on your list of plans?" tanya Panji is still in the same position.

"Oh, c'mon brother. How long will you keep doing this?"

"I am indeed this way, and will continue this way," Panji answered lightly and then suddenly his hand was forced.

"You're planning on going on living with self-harm like this?!" siena exclaimed several cuts on her sister's arm covered in the long-sleeved shirt the boy was wearing.

Siena knelt down in front of her sister who was still looking down unwillingly at her. He then spoke with a clear heart, "You're broken, need to be fixed, need to be heal."

"I don't need anything, I'm fine."

Panji was still lowered while Siena was already sitting limp in front of him. And without them noticing, Dad's been standing at the door for the last few minutes.

"For this time, please listen to me, Aksa. Please, Aksa, stop continuing to hurt yourself like this. We'd be so guilty of Eksa if you kept this up."

Dad leaned against the wall when he heard his daughter pleading desperately. He closed his eyes for a while before finally falling down when Panji's reply sounded in his hollow.

"I was broken from the beginning, then shattered into pieces as time went on. It can't be fixed again."

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"Lo know what?!" Siena's cry glared fiercely at Jordan beside her. "I can't stop caring about him! Just so you know, yes, Aksa is even more important than hundreds of elo on this earth!" Read it with ketus.

"Gue there's only one, Na."

Jordan's shoulder sagged, he poured another cola into Siena's glass as the girl pressed the contents of her glass in one gulp. Siena called Jordan to have a beer. But, Jordan strictly forbids the girl's wishes so they now end up drinking cola at Jordan's house. Fortunately, Jordan's parents are not home. His sisters had also bribed him to play outside so that he stayed together with Siena listening to the girl's complaints about Panji.

"My sister just stayed that one doang, Jo! How could I have told him he was sick alone like that!"

"Eh?" Jordan raised his head quickly, timidly misheard by the words of Siena who had just said that Panji was his sister. A sister? Just be right!

"Huh, heh, huh, heh, aja lo!" Upset Siena supplied the chips on the plate into her mouth.

"Sister? How, Na? Meanin?"

While chewing Siena replied, "Yes you think just use that shallow brain lo."

Ah, Jordan doesn't care about Siena's abuse. His heart was in full bloom after finally coming to that conclusion. Naturally, all this time Siena sewot very about Panji, it is also natural that Siena looks close to the man, because the Panji is his sister is clearly reasonable dong!

"Thinking slobbery, yes lo!" accuse Siena of throwing crumbs of chips into Jordan's dreamy face while smiling to herself.

"Ah, no, really. Again thinking of the future," Jordan smiled back while eating the crumbs of chips that Siena threw.

The girl snorted, "The future is thinking, dong!"

Jordan propped up his chin looking at the girl in front of him who was gulping cola in his glass, "Emang lo will?" ask her with a smile that makes her cheeks so dark. But still he maintained that smile, happy again.

"You what?" siena asked a glance at Jordan and then drank the cola again.

"You want me to colonize the future together."

"Squeals! Lo lagak! Colonizing the next class does not dare, this uses everything to colonize the future."

Mocked so Jordan still smiles too. It'sit's okay. She's okay for Siena to curse at her, too. Jordan accepted with a chest. The same is true of him who receives airy chest when the romantic atmosphere he tried to build was just messed up by Siena.

"Aksaa... When will you be happy?!" ask Siena who she knows. He looked so good when he put his head on the table. "Jo, you know what? My grandfather was a child who suffered a lot. And I don't know when he's been really happy all this time. I'm a bad brother, huh Jo?"

Hearing Siena's tone of voice that changed softly Jordan stopped smiling. He ignored his flowery heart. He removed his feelings problem. And heard carefully how the story flowed from Siena's mouth.

About Aksa.

About Eksa.

And about a wound in the Batara family.

All Jordan can do is be a good listener. He was silent, occasionally gulping with difficulty as Siena lightly exposed the biggest wound he had in front of Jordan.

"Not knowing anymore, huh. I'm sorry you're the same age, no one knows, ye right?"

"Udah is like a will, Na," and no matter how deep Jordan knows about Siena, he will still pretend to know nothing. Because Siena hates her mask being exposed in front of others. And Jordan waited for Siena to open the mask willingly.

"Na," called Jordan who was repaid by Siena, "I think I'm really in love with you."

Siena, who had turned her head back to Jordan, turned to face the man. "Fall down happy" he commented as he found a smile on Jordan's face. He raised his hand over the fallen piece of bangs covering the man's eyes.

While Jordan closed his eyes enjoying a touch of Siena when the girl switched to rubbing her head slowly, "Maybe more than fall, I've sank into the deep base without realizing."

"Lo, dangdut really."

Again Jordan smiled stoically and accepted with airy chest once Siena for the umpteenth time messing up the romantic atmosphere he built. But then he put on a serious face hearing Siena call out her name in full for the first time.

"Jordan," called Siena and straightened her body. He stared deeply at Jordan's brownish bead. For some reason, Siena felt that there was something to be done between them.

"That action is the most precious thing in my life. Even more than myself. You know Jo? How sick am I to see him suffer all this time without me being able to do anything for him?"

Jordan listened carefully. Though inwardly refuted. He knew exactly how much effort Siena had to keep her sister okay.

"I don't think I can think of anything but him. And I should have said this from the beginning. Sorry, Jo, there's no place in my heart to be filled by anyone else including you."

From the beginning, Jordan expected it. But he's still crumbling in there. And he can be sure, this is the worst heartbreak of his life. Where after he was broken in such a way, the slightest desire did not arise to step back. Even Jordan felt more and more immersed in Siena's entanglement, deeper, and deeper until he reached a dark bottom.

"Yes, I know," in the end, that's all Jordan can say.

"Lo has to stop, Jo. Here I want you to stop immediately. As long as the wound is new, treat it immediately. Don't let it rot and even make it worse."

Jordan smiled widely until his eyes narrowed, "Gue hasn't said, huh?" tanyakanya.

Siena did not answer but her eyes clearly asked.

"There's no room left in your heart for me to place, Na. But I give you all the space in my heart to make you a place. Because I know, even you yourself have no place to dock so busy it becomes a stopover for others."

"Joe...."

Siena's voice shook as she called out to Jordan. Somehow he felt so dwarfed in front of the calm smiling Jordan.

"Yes, Na. I tau. Lo's tired, right? Here take a break first" Jordan said gently as she spread her arms wide.

It didn't take long, Siena squandered in the man's warm embrace. She looked like a girl who lost her balloon. The kind of crying that holds so much weight. And Jordan felt clearly how Siena was breaking down one by one her fatigue in an unstoppable sob.

Jordan rubbed Siena's back slowly and focused her chin on the top of the girl's head.

"It's okay to not be okay, Na. I'm here to stay with you all the time we have."

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Throwing himself to work at a young age makes Aeera easily saturated with his life. In his teens he was in the business world. At that time he should have used it for school and played like any other teenager. Until Aeera forgets, she is also human. It's impossible to get his body to work like a robot for 24 hours without stopping.

And now, Aeera again felt jaded with a pile of files in front of her. It's 7 p.m. And he even skipped lunchtime to get six behind the monitor screen.

In the end Aeera opted out of the office area. Take a moment away from the unresolved workload. As usual when he was tired, Aeera destination is anywhere that sells instant noodles that he can immediately enjoy. Aeera used to have dreams of being a college kid who lived in a boarding house, pushed by a neglected task deadline because he was busy playing, dizzy to flirt with the dwindling monthly money, then sit in front of the laptop while enjoying instant noodles. Yes, Aeera's dream is to live so hard.

Aeera then pulled over her car at one of the closest minimarkets she could reach. He was already eager to immediately buy noodle products to satisfy his fatigue. However, not yet entered the step has been stopped due to someone who was sitting alone in the chair provided in front of the minimarket.

Aeera stared for quite a while until she finally came closer to grabbing the beer can in the man's hand and gulping at it recklessly. He sat down next to her and greeted her with a big smile.

"Long time not see, Panca."

Panca who discovered Aeera's presence nearby only smiled briefly, "Ditya."

"Huh?" Aeera astonished as she sipped back the drink in the can.

"You used to call him Ditya, not Panca."

Aeera shook her hand and threw the beer can she had run into the nearest garbage can on target.

"Oh, the problem is so doang in ribetin."

Panca stared fiercely at the girl, "Lo was indeed a double personality, huh?"

Aeera snorted knowing Panca's intentions. Clearly, he who was outspoken in front of Panca was now inversely proportional to 360° with him who usually appeared in public.

"Biasalah, imaging is necessary" Aeera said casually. Then he glanced at the son of his late father's best friend, "Don't you see in front of this guy's shop?"

Panca snorted and then mimicked Aeera's way of speaking, "Biasalah, fooling is necessary."

"Lo already bego so terribly still fooled again, what will happen later? Seneven?"

Panca chuckles. Then look at him forward. Look at the traffic tonight. For a moment they were silent. It's the most absurd reunion ever. Two best friends who are separated by a dozen years and only know each other from others, is it natural for them to go crazy at this meeting?

Once upon a time, Panca, Aeera and Aaron were carib sabhats. They are bound in such a braid thanks to the friendly relationship between their parents. However, in their teens, each began to separate themselves to dive into the puddle of their own destiny. Precisely the breakup happened after an assault incident in the lab. Panca who escaped from the wound due to a painful loss. Aaron had to replace his father as head of the family. Then Aeera must immediately take over her mother's family business which was then on the verge of collapse.

"The old age also turned out...."

Panca smiled faintly looking at Aeera, "Yes, it's been that long, '" he said. Then his eyes caught the ring embedded in the ring finger of Aeera's left hand.

"Boil, ketchup is also a ring!"

Aeera looked down at the ring in her hand, she tucked the strands of her hair behind her ears and smiled shadyly.

"Yes, a loving kayak."

Panca chuckled, again. But it's kind of an unpleasant laugh in Aeera's ears. There's a wound in it, "How many years is this? It's still saved, too" he whispered.

Aeera rubbed the ring around her fingers and leaned against Panca's sturdy shoulder. Then in the same tone, he whispered back while closing his eyes.

"How many years is this? I can't forget either."

And Panca caught a clear, bitter tone in her voice.