
💕Love is about the heart, you can't force it to choose who. 💕
The atmosphere in Ayud's office that afternoon was noisy as usual. This is common, especially during the hours of work. Rachel, like her other colleagues, was also busy packing her belongings.
he glanced at his watch and immediately stepped out, leaving the office where he worked. In the parking lot, Albert looks waiting for him while carrying something in his hands. They promised to go to dinner.
Rachel herself actually wanted to subtly refuse the man's offer, but she felt bad. The man had helped him so much, even his present life was thanks to the great contribution of the man.
Although his heart is still not careless, due to his problems with Ayud who never found a bright spot. However, he did not want to fall too long in an uncomfortable situation. Albert waved to her, though,
"Capek huh?. Here, I bring you a drink that you hope to like".
The man held out something that he was carrying, Rachel accepted him with a smile.
"Thank Al. I like to feel bad about you sometimes, why are you being so nice to me, Al".
Albert opened the car door for the woman, and let her in.
"It's just made delicious. Just relax, you know I'm good".
Albert laughed and Rachel nodded. The girl slapped Albert's shoulder slowly,
"Praise yourself again?".
The two head to a restaurant serving Rachel's favorite food. For some reason, men always know how to make women happy. It seemed, too impossible to resist the charm of an Albert.
"How's your new office Ra?. Is your boss nice like me?".
Albert asked on the sidelines of their dinner. Rachel sighed,
"Come on Al, it's hard for me to explain. Should I just resign from there?".
Albert looked at Rachel,
"What's wrong?. You having trouble with your boss or what?".
Rachel stopped her eating activity, and sipped a drink in front of her. The cold water soaked his throat.
"Like her, it's time for me to be honest with you, Al. It doesn't seem fair, I lied to you that saved my life. I'm really sorry, if what I'm about to do is make you uncomfortable".
The girl paused for a moment, taking her breath.
"Actually, Ayud Jonathan was my ex-husband. We are not married like most people. I, sold by my adoptive parents to his family.
Rachel stopped, she swallowed her saliva with great difficulty. His breath felt suffocated, though,
"My half-brother, pregnant by her. They forced me to confess to something I didn't do at all. To the public, they admitted, I was the maid who got pregnant with Ayud. My pride is ruined".
Rachel began to wipe away her falling tears,
"It hurts so much to be treated by someone you consider family to be like that. I really don't change the stuff in their eyes".
Albert looked surprised to hear the girl's words. He tried to stay strong to hear what the girl said. Rachel continued her words,
"As long as we stayed together, he never considered me. I didn't really expect much from him either. Liam's late grandfather arranged our match, he asked me to change the man's nature".
Rachel sighed, tears had drenched her cheeks successfully.
"For all this time, I have tried to endure the various sufferings that Ayud gave me. He almost killed me very cruelly. It still haunts my dreams at night".
Rachel held onto her stomach which was still painful sometimes. That sharp dagger prick, it really traumatized him.
"I can still remember how it hurt, when the dagger stabbed me in the stomach. It hurts so bad, I fainted without holding it down".
The girl was crying. It seemed, what he was telling was really touching the deep recesses of his heart.
"She cheated on me several times, and told me to accept it all with a big chest. In the end, I felt no longer strong and chose to leave.
The girl sobbed, Albert patting her shoulder gently.
Albert clasped the woman's hand, looking her in the eyes gently.
"If you're not strong, you don't have to continue Ra".
The girl shook her head, though,
"What am I wrong Al?. Is Grandpa Liam's death my fault?. Am I being selfish?, I should be able to hold it all down until grandfather is completely healed. I'm sorry but it's all happened".
Rachel looked down in the pain of her heart. Her tears flooded the table in front of her,
'"Grandfather Liam is a very good person. He was the only one who loved me in that house. But when he breathed his last breath, I wasn't there. How useless I am".
Albert held the girl in his arms. Fortunately, they were sitting in a corner. No one noticed when the girl was crying.
"No Rachel, in this case your feelings are also important and anyone should appreciate that. I appreciate the decision you have made. It's your best option, rather than constantly living under pressure".
Rachel wiped her tears. He looked at Albert gently. Being around that guy, it always feels calming. His embrace felt very warm.
"Sorry Al, I've forced you to hear all my long and complicated stories. Thank you for always being there when I need friends, even if we don't have blood relations".
Albert smiled, smiling,
"If you allow me, I'm even ready to be anything including your lover".
Rachel smiled, the girl seemed to justify her sitting position. He is now dealing with Albert.
Sorry Al, I seem to like other people. I can't lie to my heart about it. I'm really sorry for you".
Albert sipped his drink,
"Ayud huh?. Why would you like someone who almost killed you, Ra?".
Rachel shook her head, she looked at Albert listlessly.
"Okay, I'm confused myself. I should hate that guy, right?. But why can't I do it?. It feels too hard. I even again and again failed in my attempts to do so".
He looked at Albert,
"I appreciate your feelings Al, I'm so grateful for her. However, I really can't force myself to accept your love, I'm sorry".
The girl looked down, her tears just fell down again. Albert smiled even though his heart was feeling very sad. He held the girl's cheek, though,
"It's okay, Rachel, I'll help you figure out how Ayud really feels. I do love you, but your happiness is more important than my feelings".
The man tried to smile, even though he really wanted to cry. This one-sided feeling was truly torturing his inner self. He sighed,
"I'm sorry, I've burdened you with this feeling".
Rachel nodded. In his heart he felt really bad about Albert. However, he could not force his heart to accept the man's love. Afterwards, they ate in silence, drifting in each other's minds.
Albert drove Rachel to his apartment and left the girl there. Along the way he was a lot of silence, not cheerful as usual. Rachel knew her former boss was disappointed.
However, he also could not pretend to accept the man's feelings just out of pity.
All that night, Rachel had a hard time closing her eyes. The shadow of Ayud continued to disturb him tirelessly.
Rachel covered her face with a pillow and screamed loudly there. Many times he did it, but the anxiety in his heart never disappeared.
The girl closed her eyes, praying that one day she would find the love she had created for her. He closed his eyes, two tears fell down his pillow.
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