Happy After I Separated
"ADIT'S ARTIFICIALLY-FUELED FISH"

before long she came up with the sambal directly with her cobek, and she carried some laxatives on a small tray.

but he still went to the kitchen, and I saw that he was bringing water for the blaze.

geez this way he serves me, until it feels to just wash his hands he has provided.

he sat in front of me, our distance was only blocked by food.

he looked at me and smiled.

"Let's eat" she said with a smile.

"Yes"

I also scooped the rice on the plate, and took the chili that looked very spicy.I also took the cucumber for his negligence.

he took the rice on his plate, doing the same thing as I did.

I also take grilled fish, which looks very good. Moreover, the fish is still fresh must still taste sweet.

I took a little, and ate it, my eyes opened when I tried Adit's grilled fish.

it really tastes good, but he's good at cooking.

I also took back the fish and ate it with sambal he made, sweet and fresh taste of the fish and soy sauce mixed with spicy savory sambal.

I think it's gonna put rice in a basket.

I ate it very greedily, even I added rice

so good of her.

Adit seemed to be eating voraciously too, once in a while I saw that he was watching me. But the delicious taste of the food in front of me made me not care.

so good, I picked up the fish left behind the bone.

after everything was gone, I realized that Adit only ate a little and smiled at me.

I who feel uncomfortable at the notice, throw away my face.

"Why did you see me?" ask me.

"What's wrong, I'm glad to see you ate that rich voraciously earlier" she replied lightly.

"Fish is my favorite food"

"I know, eating it earlier I brought a lot of fish, and took the biggest one on purpose for you" he replied while still looking at me.

"eemm thanks. the grilled fish is pretty good" I replied.

"I'm glad you like my cooking"

"Where do you know my favorite?"

"From dad, I ask a lot of things about what you like and don't like"

" oh Same dad"

"And even I know what you don't like"

"eemm what?"

"You don't like your personal belongings in someone else's hands, and you don't like being in your business. You also don't like it when people talk about your past, and one of them is me"

the last answer, made me choke. What did he mean.

although it was true what he said, that the one I didn't like was him.

but ke does not like my love to him because he wants to marry me.

"Why did you say that?" ask me.

"I can't just pick a friend"

"Why?"

"Color with friends we tell stories, spill sorrow I don't want to choose the wrong friend"

"I will be faithful to be your friend"

" it's good"

after talking long enough, I also brought a dish used to eat and followed by Adit who brought some kitchen tools.

I washed dirty dishes, and he cleaned the kitchen and the front yard.

after finishing with our respective tasks, it does not feel like the time is already night.

I also want to walk to my room,

Adit was sitting in the tv room.

did my words hurt him?

I kept walking, and walked to my room, closing the door slowly.

and starting to lie down on my bed, I was still thinking about what I said.

actually, I don't want to accept him as a friend.

it's just that I haven't been able to accept any of this, even though I've only known him for a few days.

I don't know what he looks like, whether his attitude is right he's good or not.

when I lay down my brain traveling in all directions, have I been too rough on Adit?

what I did was a fatal mistake.

but I can not deny also, that comfort is not easy to get just because people say about him?

indeed, as long as I know him, although not more than this week, he showed a good attitude and good ethics.

but, what is the attitude and nature of a person can be measured from the outside?

I am still confused, because I am afraid because my attitude is actually afraid of even hurting many parties.

should I start being nice to Adit?

and not too ugly and rude to him.

but I can't yet.

when I was daydreaming with my eyes up.

suddenly I even imagined the figure of Roni,

I don't know why I feel like he's here.

I looked for him in all directions, and I did not find the figure I was looking for.

I don't know why I was thinking about my life with Adit,

I miss Roni back?

I also sent Roni a prayer, and decided to sleep because it was already night.

*****

a few days running, I began to reduce my emotions when dealing with Adit, hoping that this way my pain began to decrease.