Happy After I Separated
"MEETING A PREGNANT WOMAN"

Roni was lying in front of me with her head still bleeding.

tek's tears stopped stopping his flow.I saw him from head to toe.

a man who loves me deeply, a man who always looks after me, a man who always makes me laugh. A man who never willingly let me tear even a drop.

his ridiculous behavior that always put me first even if just to eat and drink.

now she was asleep, and not even the sound of my crying could wake her up.

I wanted to feel like I was hugging her, feeling her touch for the last time

I wanted to hear him say, but all couldn't.

my parents forbid me to hug her because I was afraid my tears would fall on her.

according to the parents here, it is not good if the corpse falls into tears.

I held back my desire to embrace her, other than just keep looking at her. hoping she would wake up and hug me.

I knew she wouldn't let me cry, so I showed her tears in front of her so she could wake up and come back to me.

but my efforts were in vain.he no longer put me first. he no longer wanted to see me. no longer wanted to be with me. did not even want to hear my words anymore.

he chose to leave behind all our memories and thoughts.

she left without seeing me. she left without seeing me. she left without talking to me. without asking my permission.

if he had spoken to leave, I would have refused, and I would never have let him go.

really am...

I really don't allow all of it.

I won't let him go this way.

I kept looking at him. He was evil, he reneged on all his promises.

not that he promised not to let me be sad. let me cry even a drop. let me hurt a little.

will never leave me.

but the truth is, all lies he lies, he lies,

he lied about all his words, he lied to me again.

he's not okay...

he left all of them here.

I'd rather he leave me with another woman, just don't do it this way.

it really hurt me more than anything.

I looked at him without blinking.the hand that always took care of me. Now only he crossed.

the foot that is always ready to step for me is just silently tied to a piece of cloth.

the body that has always been the front guard is now only a moving sign of sleep.

lips that always make a soft voice that always makes me laugh.

I no longer say a word even if I call..

the funeral staff had reported that the burrow was finished.

now Roni's body was lifted and will be delivered to the final resting place.

I think this leg is heavy.

step by step I forced this foot to keep going until we arrived at a funeral.

powerless when I saw Roni put in the hole and had to stay alone in the dark.

my tears came back.

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a while after Roni finished at the tomb, I returned to the funeral home.

I wish all this was just a dream.

my family and I accompanied Roni's family for 7 days.

when I was about to go home, her parents had time to hug me and ask me to be strong.

I don't think I can answer his words.

about a week after I returned home, Roni's parents came to the house.

"sir, ma'am, we came here to deliver our son's last message" Roni's father said in a nod to his mother.

"what is the address, sir?" answer my father.

"it's related to Dance"

I also stared at Roni's old manic.

"this is a deposit from Roni for Tari. when we took her to the hospital.he asked that the savings he had been collecting.to divide the two by Tari. and some donated to our village mosque"

my eyes are wide hearing the words of Roni's parents. Even he still remembers me. when his life was on the verge of death.

after Roni's parents came home, I kept the money in a box with some of my memories with Roni..

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after you finish shopping for kitchen spices.

I'm lyrically there's children's clothes.I thought to buy my sister clothes.

I also walked to the clothing store.I also bought 3 children's clothes.

which I will give to my sister.

when I was about to walk home, I accidentally saw a woman whose groceries fell.

I approached her and helped her pick up her groceries that were splattered below.

"this is mbak" I said as I handed over the groceries.

"thank you very much" she replied

I saw her looking pregnant.seen from her belly a little distended, though not too big.

"his baby is pregnant? how much gini shopping alone"

"yes, I'm 5 months pregnant"

"do you carry heavy stuff? what's wrong?"

"what's possible mbak"

"want me to help you get home?"

"what's not a hassle?"

"no"

I drove the woman on the way home and we talked

the woman's name is Anita.

he apparently lived in the village where I lived. After a long time we walked.we arrived at one house.

the house still has wooden walls.

and lay the ground.

I put her groceries in the bale in front of her house.

"in yu mbak" he said

"yes" mbak"

I followed him into the house. It looks like his house is very simple.

"here to stay with anyone?" kataku has stale.

"own mbak"

"sorry, where are your parents?"

"died long ago"

"if husband?"

for a moment he was silent and looked down.

"my husband doesn't live here."

I thought that her husband might be working in the city.

I don't want to burden others with my questions.

I finally switched it to another conversation.

after a long conversation, I decided to go home.

"the next time change mbak who plays to my house yes" I bargained.

"yes, I'll play"

"if you want to play, just call"

"yes" mbak"

I say goodbye and take my groceries.

I walked to the house when passing the rice mother stall looks crowded mother mother there.

"Neng from where?" said the mother of rice seller

"new from the market"

"oh yes neng"

I continued on my way, but when I stepped foot.

I overheard them talking about a pregnant woman without marriage.

I also just shook my head. apparently they gathered together berghibah..