Happy After I Separated
"JUDGE'S DECISION"

"IN THE CASE OF PREMEDITATED MURDER COMMITTED BY ADIT'S BROTHER, SISTER ANITA AND SISTER IDA. WHICH RESULTED IN THE DEATH OF A BABY. WE DECIDED TO IMPOSE THE DEATH PENALTY AND LIFE IMPRISONMENT ON THE THREE PERPETRATORS."

The hammer that was hit immediately made us shocked by the judge's decision.

I thought they would only get a prison sentence of a few years, but I was wrong.

The father's cry and Umaya broke when the presiding judge read out his sentence.

the three suspects who tried to kill me and a week ago still violently insulted me. Now I see they just looked down.

I know they must be very sick..

but I can't do what?

if only a week ago they had changed and been nice to me.

maybe I can convince myself and Dad to ask for leniency in their actions.

But I don't know why they hate me so much that I don't want to help them either.

Dad. rubbed my shoulders. a sign calms me. maybe he knows. I was so devastated by the decision read by the judge just now.

We're still sitting in this chair, even though my legs feel numb after hearing all of it.

"You're satisfied dance! Your life will never be quiet, you will always be haunted by the shadow of my death!" said Anita.

Some of the people inside this courthouse just saw Anita.

maybe he is so depressed.how not when the decision of our death is read by the judge.then can we still control ourselves?

When the judge and prosecutor have left the courtroom, we ask for time to meet and talk to the suspect.

certainly with police escort.

I saw him crying and he came to his mother and hugged her, and so did Adit.

the family cries in front of me broke out. They hugged each other and poured out their grief.

desi and I approached Anita who was just standing alone.

Anita just looks at me not like. I still understand her emotions.

either way. Anita used to be my friend and Desi. After what she did. This is not the time to drop and insult her.

"I'm sorry, I can't do much" I said regretfully.

"Your satisfaction, you've kept me apart from my son! and now you're making me die!" anita answered with anger.

"I have absolutely no intention of all.If a few days ago you were being nice. Maybe I could consider it"

Desi just rubbed my shoulders without saying anything. Maybe she knew I was hit too.

"You won't calm down Dance, you'll always be in the ghost of my death! I swear I will make you suffer at any cost!" yell Anita .

The police decided to take Anita back to the cell because of her conditions that allow it to rage.

I was bowed when Anita kept cursing me. Have I sinned? because it becomes the way of death of others?

Father and Desi tried to take me out of the courtroom.

While walking. Adit approached us.

"I'm sorry, Mom and I, we've been very bad to you, and thank you. You tried to free us. But our attitude does not deserve to be released" Adit said while bowed

I feel even more guilty when I see the regret that Adit shows.

Oh God, if I could turn the clock, I would like to turn it back. I can't see all these scenes.

"No, I'm the one who should be apologizing, I can't do more for you and mom" I replied.

Dad rubbed my shoulders.

"Now I realize, what I've done is not worth forgiving.I'm a bad husband and father.to intend to do that!"

"Repent, am I sure God will forgive all your sins?"

"Yes, thank you and please forgive me"

"I've forgiven you"

"I'll try as I can"

"Thank you"

Adit left me and Dad, I saw him hug and kiss Adit several times.

"Dance!" A voice that is familiar to me.

I turned my body facing backwards.

"Mother?" .

"You're right, all that can make us aware is the law and the judge's decision" said the mother, bowed.

I also aligned my body because of the condition of the mother who was still sitting in a wheelchair.I also squatted and aligned the body.

"I'm sorry, Tari Bu, Tari never intended to.." I said hanging.

"No, it should be me who apologizes, I have been mean to you, I have often tortured you physically and mentally. In fact I have killed my children and grandchildren!"

I cried when I said the last word. Is there regret there? why are regrets always present?

Is this the way that we as Humans behave accordingly and think before doing anything?

"Mom don't need to apologize, Dari has forgiven mom. Sorry Dance can't do anything"

"No, you're not wrong, you're a good person, because you're always lucky. I hope you can forget our evil deeds!"

"Yes Ma'am,"

Mother also returned to the father who was waiting for her in the back. There is a sense of tightness in the chest.is this pain it like to make others lose their lives because of us?

is there an apology from God for me?

I went out of the building with Dad and Desi. We all fell down not expecting that this punishment would befall them.

how do I apologize to you and Umaya?

we sat outside the building for some time, crying I couldn't stand it, I saw Dad shed his tears.

and Desi just bowed speechless from earlier.

Until the father and Umaya also came out with a shaky step.

I know, they must be very heavy, accepting all these decisions?

Dad hugged a father who I knew was in desperate need of encouragement.I approached Umaya.

the woman was just silent, her eyes were empty I did not meet the woman who had laughed for a few days and called me brother, sister,

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry Dance" only that word came out of my mouth.

I was bowed.I was ready if Umaya and Mr. Kan scolded me and scolded me. Because it was worth it.

I saw my father approaching me.

"You're not wrong, son, all this has been the best decision" said the father-in-law who made me look at him for a moment.

there was a sadness I could not explain in his eyes, but he tried to stay strong in front of me.

"It's all Tari's fault, if Tari hadn't reported the incident to the police, it probably wouldn't have happened"

"No, your decision is correct, we've tried to free them, but it's their harsh attitude that brings them to trial"

Again the words of the father-in-law made me back strong, and,

"Sorry Umaya" I told the woman in front of me.

"No brother, you are right brother is innocent. I have to lose them in this way, but we have tried. if this is the result then we must accept it"

why are they so strong and can say so. If I might just step foot I would not be able.

my guilt makes me heavy.

can my apologies free them?