HATE Before LOVE
Always Wrong.

Elif, Mona and Yura embrace each other as soon as they meet at a cafe, the three let go of longing as if they have not met for years.

"Geez Elif looks so different." Yura commented with teary eyes.

"What's different, Ra?"

"Your hair looks like a human after work." Timpal Mona.

The three of them laughed. Three of them until it sounds all over the cafe. Make people look or share the laughter of the three girls. But there are also those who are annoyed with them. But they don't care!

Two hours passed so quickly, all the stories just flowed. Elif tells how he met Gavin and they are now one office. About Sonya who is good at strolling, and it turns out Sonya is Yura's neighbor who tells Yura about the vacancy to fill her position. Then about Teddy, the expressionless man. Not to forget also Elif told how annoying his boss named Ardan Mahesa Demir.

"And you're gonna keep working under your boss's boss forever?" Mona asked. "If I had been poisoned."

"Luckily Elif isn't you." Tympano Yura.

"I'll hold on, maybe until my dad is completely healthy. After that, maybe I'll apply for college again, or continue working elsewhere. I don't know. What matters now is the cost for my father's operation."

Mona and Yura understood one hundred percent what Elif felt.

Take the time to separate again. Although not willing, although still longing to tell stories, spend time just to chat-gallor-ngele. Elif ordered an online motorcycle taxi to return home. He called Zehra and told her he'd come home early today.

Not to go home, but to their restaurant, Elif stopped. After returning the ojek's helmet, Elif entered the resto. The first person he met was Yanuar, of course. Because his father had not worked since, he helped at the restaurant to sit behind the cashier table. A less tiring job than having to help Zehra in the kitchen.

Elif lowered her body to kiss her father's hand, though she did not see Yanuar still giving her hand. Still not reprimanding Elif. His mouth was tight as if it would be a sin to reprimand his own daughter.

Elif has strengthened the heart. I don't know what's wrong this time, to the point that her father didn't want to see her even reprimand her.

"It's here, son." Zehra came out of the kitchen, followed by Adit behind her. He approached Elif as soon as he saw how cold the father's attitude was to their firstborn.

Ever since Elif received the job until now, only Yanuar seemed to be not proud. Boro-boro prays, congratulates not only. Zehra no longer knew how to open her husband's heart and mind. He always treated Elif like a stepson. Elif was the first child they had ever looked forward to after 7 years of marriage.

"Have you eaten, son?" ask Zehra

"It was the same Yura and Mona, but a little. Because I want to eat Mother's cooking." replied Elif while embracing Zehra's shoulder. "Mom don't be too tired, huh? Just take one more officer to help."

"Eh, if you take one more employee, where do you want to get paid from?"

"And I can help you later." replied Elif while showing a wide grin.

"Honey, just focus on your goal of leaving college and choosing to work. So that it can be quickly achieved and you can return to your original ideals."

Elif smiled wryly. Then grinned wide. "Yes my dear mother, I just don't want you to get tired."

"Will I help you, Brother didn't see me?" Cibir Adit who went into the kitchen brought some dirty dishes.

"Yes, you're my most incredible sister." Praise Elif while pinching Adit's cheek.

Zehra also prepared a dinner for Elif, while Adit sat with Elif who was massaging his shoulders, but no more visitors came.

"Dad still lives for you, brother?" ask Adit. With the volume of sound that only God, the angels and the two of them could hear.

"still. Do you know where my fault is that Dad seems to fear sin when he talks to me." replied Elif with the same volume as Adit.

"It seems like it's all because of me."

"You mean?"

***

A Few Weeks Ago.

Elif and Zehra left Yanuar and Adit in the room to take care of the care administration of Yanuar those few days. Adit still did not accept the decision and agreement that Elif decided when Yanuar was still unconscious, but the teenage boy tried to expand his heart, modeled on his brother. Although sometimes they do not fit in, although sometimes there are trivial debates between the two brothers, Adit is very affectionate and respectful to his brother.

"Waste this money. We should have been more frugal." Chirps Yanuar while shifting her sitting position on the hospital bed.

Adit did not answer. He put his things in a plastic bag. Some bread, biscuits are also fruits brought by guests.

"You know for sure, don't you, I got treated like this because of your brother."

Patience, patience. Don't button. Adit tries to control his emotions.

Don't get a fishing rod Dit! Cool out!

"If she was willing to get married at that time, her life was comfortable, she could also help parents, could help your school and your future. This is even concerned with his ego, instead of going to college, a waste of time, a waste of money. It doesn't matter at all."

Can't be silenced!

"Enough Well!" Shouted Adit while slamming the plastic cup he was about to put in the bag. Yanuar was surprised, not expecting at all with Adit's reaction.

"It's enough Dad always just corner and blame Kak Elif if there is something that is not in accordance with your wishes!"

"What the fuck? Dare to yell at Dad? Heh?!" Yanuar's voice was rising.

"Sorry Dad, Adit doesn't mean to yell at Dad, Adit just wants to remind Dad, here Elif is not wrong at all. Elif is never wrong. But it was Dad who always blamed her even if it had nothing to do with Sister Elif."

"You're getting brazen, yes, it must be Elif who taught you. Aye right?!"

"Look, again I blame Brother." Adit shook his head violently. "Even though Brother Elif has been very devoted."

"What duty? He never knew what Dad said!"

"Is it because Kak Elif refused to marry young and chose to fight for his ideals and Dad immediately branded Kak Elif a selfish person? Well, Sister Elif is also human, she has a heart, has hope, has a dream, has a RIGHT!"

"Quite Adit, you've gone too far!"

"No! I don't want to be quiet now." Denying Adit. "I can't stand to see always pull over Brother Elif, as if Brother Elif is not Father's flesh and blood. You see, has Sister Elif ever denied you the way Adit is now? Never did you?"

Yanuar threw away his face, not wanting to listen even though he would not be able to heed his hearing from the sound of Adit exploding in the room room.

"Again Dad also did not pay for Kak Elif college right? Sister Elif can go to college because of her own persistence, with a scholarship! Then then Dad wanted me to go to an expensive private school, finally Elif was forced to lose a scholarship because he had to leave to be able to help Dad and Mom. Then did you help Brother Elif to continue his studies? Nah! Dad still doesn't care. Elif had to go to college while working to be able to pay for his semester. He even had to work extra to be able to just buy a laptop and a used bicycle. While I'm Dad bought me a new motorbike and a new cell phone, but I didn't ask!"

"But you like it, right? You're wearing what I bought, right?"

"I don't like it, but I did wear it because Brother Elif told me to wear it to make Dad happy!"

Yanuar turned his face back.

"Dad knows I never wanted to be a footballer or be any athlete. I just want to be an accountant and a programmer. But Dad kept forcing me to be a footballer, Dad's ideals that you could never achieve and then you forced me to continue. But Brother Elif, many times sacrificed his struggle towards his ideals, even now Brother Elif has decided to STOP COLLEGE FOR FATHER!"

Yanuar was still unmoved.

"He will work, whatever is lawful for you! So you can have surgery without having to use your severance pay. Though I've asked Brother Elif to use the severance money Dad only. But Elif didn't want to, because Elif knew the money was Dad's savings for the cost of me entering football school. A school I don't want! Now who is selfish! WHO?"

"If you just want to yell disrespectfully like that at Dad, you better be outside!"

Unapologetically, Adit slammed the plastic bag and stepped with his long legs out of the room carrying with him a clear-cut rage on his flushed face.

I'm sorry, Brother. But I can't take it anymore.

***

Now Elif knew what reason Yanuar was reluctant to reprimand him. Not because I feel guilty about Elif. He knows that very well. But especially because he felt that Elif had a 'bad' influence on Adit, because his sister, who had always been Yanuar's favorite, was always given anything even though she never asked to deny it, but defended Elif so hard. That made Yanuar angry at Elif.

"Then are you silenced by Dad?"

Adit. "But Dad got sniffy on me. And I have absolutely no problem. It's not me who's in trouble, it's Dad who's in trouble with himself."

"Can't be!" Tegur Elif's.

Adit raised his shoulders, indifferent.

"Our mission is for Dad's treatment, isn't it? I'd go to football school if it could really get Dad excited and healthy again. But don't blame me if I'm not excited. And I'm gonna get out of there once Dad's really healthy."

"Adit..."

"Sorry, brother, I don't care or be selfish. But I don't want my whole life to live what I don't like."

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