HATE Before LOVE
Two people who are angry and longing.

Three days had passed, but not a second had Elif forgotten Ardan's gaze which was so deep in his heart and mind. These three days even Elif had not found any spirit at all. Until Mona and Yura stay over did not make Elif lose her grief and longing for Ardan.

Yes, Elif was hit by a great longing for Ardan. At the look of his sharp eyes, wistful, embarrassed even the sharp gaze of the man. His scent, his touch, his voice, his smile, his laughter and even his timid face. Is this the sign....

"Defuse me..." Zehra entered the room of Elif after knocking on the door of his eldest son's room but there was no reply, it turned out that the door was not locked.

As in previous days, Elif was always curled up under a thinly adorable blanket, his face was pale, his hair was agitated, dark circles were clearly mapped under his eyes.

"Eat first, yeah." Zehra said very gently. He put the food tray on the nightstand.

"Yes" answered Elif briefly without moving from inside his blanket. He hides his phone under a pillow. Perhaps more precisely, he hid the photo Ardan that he had taken while in the hospital at that time.

"Defuse me..." Call Zehra again. He touched Elif's back gently. "Do you need to call Mona and Yura to be with you again?"

Elif shaking. "They have UAS tomorrow. Don't bother."

"All right." Zehra understands. "But when are you going to be like this? It's been three days, honey. You even went out of the room just to go to the bathroom. You and Dad don't even talk."

"Me and Dad never talk." Tukas Eliph.

Zehra sighed resignedly. He had never seen an Elif like this before. Even according to Yura and Mona when Elif was betrayed by Dimas was not up to this. Elifs even look ordinary. Though arguably Elif's relationship is longer when with Dimas when compared to his relationship with Ardan.

It does. But, that super-short relationship of Elif and Ardan was so imprinted in his heart. Elif was no longer able to ignore Ardan's sincerity and honesty from the man. Regret always comes too late.

*Flashback*

3 days ago.

Inside the meeting room, the 2nd floor of the MD Group Building.

Elif's tongue was completely muddy, he was unable to make a choice. Does he have to choose his father who has never loved him or the man who has shown his love for Elif?

Sounds an easy choice if only heard, not lived like Elif.

He could not simply choose Ardan, and turn away from his father, even though the father who never showed him affection. Elif was hesitant, Daddy's attitude a few days ago was really sincere to him. It could be, what you do is just a charade because Elif is related to a very rich person.

However, he also so heavily ended it all with Ardan even though he had hesitated to believe Ardan's confession of his heart and had chosen to end it all, but now, somehow God quickly turned his heart around, he completely trusted the man who was now looking at him sharply, but strangely, that sharp gaze did not hurt him what else scared him. That sharp gaze was so full of hope as well as submission.

"I'm sorry." Along with his words, tears accompanied him. Elif lowered his head, he could not help but hold his heart in view of how a speck of grief was painted in the look in those eyes.

Ardan touched Elif's arms and led him slowly to stand up from his seat. He touched Elif's chin then made their faces face each other and their eyes looked at each other deeply.

"Don't apologize, you're not wrong." said Ardan gently as he rubbed Elif's cheek. "Ssh, don't cry anymore."

"I don't think I can be here anymore. Sorry."

"I understand." Ardan nodded. "I accept your resignation, only on one condition."

"What?"

"Go back to your dreams."

The Elif was no longer able to withstand the rumbling within his claustrophobic chest. He immediately buried his face in the chest of Ardan's field and cried there for a while. Ardan clutched the girl's tiny body, sniffing in the sweet scent that he would miss so much for the rest of his life.

But whose name was Yanuar did not care about the feelings of others, he suddenly stood up and shattered the moment.

"You resigned when you haven't worked here for a month? Are you willing to pay the penalty?" Omel Yanuar was not in time. He did not even hesitate to let go of Ardan's embrace of Elif. "And you," he said to Ardan now, "definitely allow Elif to resign and then demand Elif to pay the penalty, right?!"

Ardan was completely fed up with the man who had been Elif's father and in recent days showed him false affection. With what they had just debated, Yanuar was even still thick-faced glaring at Ardan.

"Are you likening yourself to yourself?" Syndic Ardan.

Yanuar.

"I love Elif sincerely from inside my heart. There's no pretence like you."

"What do you mean?!'

"Just ask yourself." Ardan turned his face and returned to Elif.

"Sir, eskisinden daha gullu ve daha gullu olmalisin. tekrar bulu sana. Art terk etmeyecegim." (Listen, you have to be strong and stronger. Until we meet again. I'm not leaving you.) Ardan stared at Elif very intensely.

Elif nodded, though he doubted if it was possible for them to meet again. This time, he chose to believe.

"What did you say?! Are you instigating Elif?!" ask Yanuar.

Instead of replying to Yanuar who was increasingly glaring while tracing his waist, Ardan instead kissed Elif's forehead, hoping to give her strength to face the man who had been his father.

"Teds,"

"Yes, Sir?"

"Begging Sonya to bring Elif's things down."

After that, Ardan and Teddy left the meeting room.

*flashback off*

***

On the balcony of his apartment, Ardan inhaled deeply and slowly exhaled white smoke from his mouth into the air. Even as the scent of tobacco passed through his respiratory tract, the sweet scent of Elif still dominated within every cavity of his body.

"Good night, sir." Teddy's coming.

"Yes." Yeah."

"You smoke, sir?"

"No, I'm swimming." Ardan Sahut.

"But you haven't smoked since 2 years ago, sir" said Teddy, looking worried at his three-day-old boss. He did not expect that the megar-haired girl could really leave such a deep imprint in the heart of the workaholic man.

"And this is my reward" answered Ardan, exhaling the white smoke again. "Or this is my punishment. I don't know."

"You must miss Miss Elif very much."

"of course! Who wouldn't miss him?" Ardan. Back sucking and exhaling white smoke. "Hey, Ted, don't tell me you miss Elif too!" Look at Ardan on Teddy.

"No sir."

"Good! I'm the only guy who can miss Elif!" Ardan Barren.

"Yes, sir."

"But why don't you miss Elif?"

"Because only you can miss Miss Elif."

"Good answer."

I thought it was a trick question! Huh!

"What are you doing out here all night?"

"Here you are, all the documents are ready, just fill out one of the forms, after which it is ready to leave in two days" Teddy explained, giving two yellow envelopes.

Instantly Ardan's sad expression turned full of twinkle and hope.

"Thanks Ted, you are indeed the most reliable!"

"Thank you, sir."

"Don't be happy first" Ardan said. "What about Kinan? Has he found his presence?"

"Sorry, Sir. Not yet."

"What's wrong with your people? What's the lack of pay? Why look for one person for so long? Has he turned into a hollow man until you can't find him?"

"We're going to expand the search, sir."

"Good! If you need to get to the wormhole!"

"Good."

"You can go home now!"

"Okay sir, I'm sorry. Good night."

Ardan is alone again in his apartment. Solitude again bound him with a longing that greatly tormented him. The final whip and the brief kiss he gave Elif made his wish to make his Elif even more crazy.

"Did you miss me too?