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152. I Let Go

The day has changed, tonight I will meet Toby's family at his house, and I can only be quiet and think using heart and logic should go in rhythm, he said, you repeatedly asked me to think again and again and most importantly to remember what Toby did to me, all his good manners and the buildings of the houses and offices he had long since saved and built them for me. I'm so grateful for all that, how he tried so hard and made me melt because there was a man like the effort to be with me, but the man I knew was very different from the one I am now, change is always going to happen, and it's my fault for not accepting the changes that have happened in my life story. I've been stressed enough with Mr. Broto's family and now enough stress also with the family that I will wake up turned out to have collapsed first because it adds to the trust, I may be selfish and ego is quite high, I may be, but seeing how he responded to all my anxiety, I could only apologize without any change and instead ask me to understand.

I've given time, been silent and given the opportunity to be myself in a new place not a clown whose absence is always sought just to be played. I feel sorry for him but I also feel sorry for myself, how can the prospective head of the family just not be able to maintain the principles of the relationship we build but instead easily collapse, high-paying but like this or enough but safe? I know his defense for our future together, I know for sure that, he did everything for me, and I was uncomfortable and restless with everything he did, is this painful feeling the payment of comfort with a lot of money? Indeed, from the first I did not like working with people and trying to make my own work because of my selfish way of thinking like this, so unsuitable if you have to follow people, so much, hopefully he can explain without hurting his family, his new habits make me sick and also hurt all the promises he made himself, do not hide just because of his papa story but it could be comfort in a new place changes all his thoughts. I wouldn't blame her for her choice, if she had any sense she could not have chosen that path.

I sat in my coffee house and watched the chess pieces I played myself, whether I would win or I lost, with all the efforts of him who would have a family with me, I respected it very much, but this is all my fault because I do not want the negative things that are in the brain because this crisis of trust makes my body and soul also sick. He should have given me confidence and security if I had felt that much disbelief in him, but he was relaxed, and assuming I wouldn't do anything weird because she had tied me to the engagement, she thought I wouldn't break it off and was patient with all the differences, since both of our parents were already involved, but he was wrong, he forgot the figure of Aca who was so stubborn and did not waver with his choice. I played chess with Sunny who fell asleep on the porch seat, until finally forgot the time and my HP rang, it was from Toby.

“Halo darling,” she said with a slightly vibrating tone.

“What?” tanyaku.

“Serious cameras are going to kill me? Why have you come this far anyway?” tanyakanya.

“Why? Didn't know?” askaku.

“Why do you have to come home? Why don't we solve the problem ourselves? So immature are you doing that? I've already apologized but you who keep childish so mom is very angry and embarrassed because you came home!” toby was angry.

“Hah? Immature? Not inget? I already love your time alone and think how to choose the path that is already in our agreement, but you even still aja.” replied I try not to turn back emotions.

“Ca, I'm working yes, not messing around!!” answer a little with a high tone.

“Yes it's a way of socializing here, I also have to follow their culture if they don't want to be left out or ignored, this is also for you! Many people are already married, ngajak family, later you will also know.” answer defended himself.

“Toby I love, sorry yaa.. If that's how I withdraw, sorry I can not accompany in social things like that, it's a waste of time. If it is a culture and you are afraid to be isolated, just live alone but not with me.”, I replied calmly and calmly trying my best not to be provoked, I have to stay chill in this hot situation.

“Ca, I love you, you know I've done anything just for you, for us together, sorry I'm like this because it's meeting in places like that, I'm sorry dear, I'm sorryin.” he replied in a sad tone.

“I'm sorry, but we're still apart, I can't be with a guy whose lifestyle and environment don't suit me, because it's only gonna hurt me, you look for the same woman with your lifestyle there and it can also be a way if indeed we are not destined to be together.” I replied calmly.

“But I want the same you ca!” the answer.

“If you want to be the same as me you will not be like this, will not make me hurt and understand what I mean.” I replied.

“What do you want? I'm out of this job? You disrupt my work if it is rich.” he replied.

“Who wants to disrupt your work? Did I tell you to come out? I support and accept well but even a lot of lies, so how dong. It's enough bi, I let you go peacefully and sincerely, we keep the cementing yes but our serious relationship is quite up here, because you are also not serious, if you are serious, there will always be the right answer and choice. Then I turned off the phone.

He called repeatedly but I didn't pick him up because I had enough and thank you. Before long he came and brought me martabak and told me to eat, he just looked at me in silence while I ate, I also did not ask how had I met the mother and the princess, I just ate and ate, until I finished eating my new father told me how shocked his family heard this and was immediately angry with Toby, his family did not want us to separate and still try our best for peace, and asked Toby to come home this weekend, but Toby couldn't because there was an office event and couldn't be left behind, with that answer I already know and it is true that he did not have a serious effort to keep tightening the relationship, and the father just asked me to calm down and no grudges, fix yourself and keep busy, especially resolving and severing ties with the supernatural realm as well. I let go of Toby and hope to succeed quietly without anger, I should also be able to release my attachment to Mr. Broto's family peacefully.