Husband's Regret: I'm Not a Little Child
Focus....

“Huuuft... astaghfirulloh... astaghfirullohal’adzim.

As soon as he got into the car, Nila instantly closed her eyes, took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. Nila put her palm down and patted gently into her breastplate hijab, holding the ever-increasing heartbeat to subside and calm down again.

“Why am I so carried away by emotions and provoked anger like this anyway? Astaghfirulloh, why would I respond like this? Can I be more patient and calm?” mummy Nila spoke for herself.

For a moment, Nila realized, her face was warming, and her chest was rumbling, but Nila knew that Nila should not be like that, and Nila was almost never like that.

“Go home or want to stop by somewhere, Non?” ask the driver to surprise Nila.

“Ha... Yes Sir? What Sir?” answer Nila politely.

“Non Nila is fine?” ask Driver Nila.

“Good, Sir, well, Thank God, how sir? Mr. Faith asked what? Sorry, I was not focused,” replied Nila again.

“Non Nila want to go straight home or want to stop by somewhere?” ask Mr. Faith to repeat.

“Mmmm....,” Nila muttered a little while thinking, Mr. Faith was waiting quietly, because they happened to be waiting for the firelight to turn green.

“Tamu Bang Ikun has returned home yet, Sir?” nila asked Hanan.

“Yang Mas-mas handsome, Non?” answer driver.

“Iya. The man who came this morning, who was wearing green skechers, wearing the item t-shirt, sir?” nila said, Remember Hanan's shoes.

When faced with Hanan, Nila was much down and looked the other way so that he remembered Hanan's shoes.

“Iya the Mas-mas sport between Young Master Iya and Iyu right?”

“Iya...,”.

“If the voice is not there, it seems to have come home,” replied Mr. Iman.

“Kok seems like it sir? Have you returned home yet?” tanya Nila made sure.

“Ya Sorry Non, Mr. Ardi's house is very big Non, if in the middle room this morning where they gathered the hell was quiet, but how do you know if the same Den Ikun invited to the back, but, play chess?” answer the driver honestly.

“Oh is?” nila replied, her face still unexpressed.

“Why the hell, Non? Isn't that Non Nila's friend?”

“Iya. What's wrong, sir?” answer Nila.

“Continue turning back or going where? Lights already want green Non!” replied the driver again.

“Go home Sir!” answer Nila.

“Ya Non!” answer Mr. Faith.

Their car drove back to Baba's.

Arriving at home. The atmosphere of the living room and front garden is indeed quiet. Nila also thinks Hanan has come home, Nila breezed in quickly, can't wait to find Vio and also Baby Pradipta.

“Assalamu’alaikum..,” said Nila cheerfully to the playground Baby Vio in the middle room with a deep garden.

“Wa’alaikum salam,” several people answered simultaneously, from the direction of the gazebo near the pool.

"Glegs!"

But Nila was immediately speechless swallowing her saliva heard and saw who answered her greetings.

Hanan has not come home, but Hanan is still wearing sports clothes since morning again. Nila's carefree smile was gone, Hanan still seemed cool playing chess with Baba and Ikun.

“Hai Nile?” hello Hanan.

“Udah home Son? Tasty meatballs?” ask Baba.

“Ehm.. udah Ba, Alhamdulillah yummy,” replied Nila wirih and pulled away to go in again.

“Where are you?” ask Baba.

“Mau login Ba... want to find Vio equals Baby Pradipta!” answer Nila.

“Created with his parents today go home! Vio just took a nap with Iya Iyu!” answer Baba tells.

Hearing Baba Nila's reply instantly dumbstruck.

“Baby Created Home? Where to?"

"To Bang Adiplah's house!" answer Ikun.

"Say they want to be here at least one month Ba?” tanya Nila is sad, if Baby Dipta and Kak Jingga return to Bang Adip's house.

“Bang Adip said there is work in the factory, so it must stand bye there. Then, this morning also your grandmother was angry, so Jingga and Adip broke up to stay at his house,” Baba replied again mengela.

“Hmmm...” replied Nila nodded manyun when Nila left only briefly, until she did not know Brother and her father parted.

“Hanan said to ask you something, you are long anyway, play do not go home! Want to go back to Fatma?” baba said again.

Hearing Baba's words, Nila was stunned and turned to Hanan for a moment while answering.

"He.sorry Ba. Just let's talk!" answer Nila.

Hanan seemed focused. "What does Hanan ask?" ask Nila lirih.

Hanan did not answer.

“Skak.. Om Ardi lost!” hanan suddenly arrived spontaneously after shifting his chess horses.

When talking to Nila, Baba does not focus on stepping, and Hanan immediately discak matt.

“Aih. Lost to Om?” baba replied in a stir.

“Finally, someone lost Baba! Yes, Chapter lost. Thumbs up for you Nan!" Ikun said spontaneously and happily.

“Ijin talk to Nila ya Om!” chirping Hanan arrived.

“He...,” Nila who was stepping was stunned to turn her head.

“Please, here only!” baba answered, but asked them to speak on a bench near them, because there was only a barrier to the glass wall. Hanan was of course very happy. “Still Om,” replied Hanan directly stood after Nila.

“Nila...,” call Hanan chasing Nila who is still visible.

“What's up, Bang?” answer Nila.

“Em... Have you got the schedule of the college agenda yet? Borrow dong!” hanan began.

“Udah. It was sent via email Bang! Bang Hanan is not yet?” replied Nila a little grinning.

“Delete.”

“Oh..,” replied Nila nodded softly, feeling strange, the time of such an important thing is erased.

“Ask ya!” hanan said quickly.

“Ya... briefly, Nila get it!”

“Kirimi via wa ja ya... You already have my number yet? Just record my number!” hanan replied again quickly reaching into his pocket about to pick up the phone.

“He...” Nila instantly grinned at Hanan's request. “Nila print kok Bang. I took the print_a aja results, bentar ya!” nila replied quickly still reluctant to give her whatsap contact.

“Ehm...,” Hanan immediately shy, he will want mode, the schedule already has. . “Send via whastap only? Paper pake is afraid of tearing! Ngrepotin you instead,” replied Hanan reasoned.

“Udah no kok, right Bang Hanan, can take your own photos if you are afraid of tearing, for a while ya!” nila answered still kekeh did not want to give his number.

“Hmm. Well. I wait,” replied Hanan resigned no more ideas, if Hanan insistent he will seem pushy, fear Nila illfeel, anyway they will still be together for many years in the same class.

Nila smiled and picked up the paper not far from where they were standing.

“This Bang...,” said Nila after taking, immediately back.

“Please ya... oh yes. Have a view yet? Where to buy books? Can I buy?” ask Hanan again while scratching the temple that does not itch.

Nila smiled at him.

“Bang Hanan excited as it seems, want to go to college soon!” answer Nila.

“Ya dong spirit, are you not?” answer Hanan.

“Ya spirit, but right, meet the lecturer only we have not Bang? The orientation of the campus and new students is also not? We do not know what we will learn in the early semester, Nila has not thought about the book problem!” answer Nila rationally again.

Hanan plintat plintut rubbed his nape.

“Iya. Only, you are really great, the entry selection value to all. I want to know, where did you learn from? Let ketangkutangan!” answer Hanan reason.

Nila just looked back down with a smile.

“Bang Haanan is also not much different from Nila, don't overdo it, after all there are now many online beepers, just so happen, the module that Nila met the pattern is almost similar to the matter of yesterday!” answer Nila low.

“Yes but still, right? You are perfect I am not!”

“It just so happened, Bang. Actually more clever Banh Hanan and other students. Oh yes there is more to ask?” replied Nila straightforwardly wanting to end the conversation with Hanan.

Hanan rubbed his nape, now it was 1 pm more, even though Hanan in the house was long enough to even eat twice.

“This is it, I've been here a long time, I think I should go home!"

"All right!"

"Thank you!" hanan lifted up his schedule.

"Together!" Nila nodded. Hanan also grinned, Nila then said goodbye, “Sorry, Nila just returned home not praying dzuhur, Nila entered first, yes !” pamit Nila's.

"Yes, see you at the college!" Hanan.

Nila did not reply just widening the corner of her lips slightly, then immediately turned around.

Hanan also let Nila pass until she disappeared in the elevator of Baba's mansion. After Nila disappeared from Hanan's gaze, Hanan paid a farewell to Baba and Ikun.

****

“Why is Baba always so familiar with everyone anyway?” muttered Nila as she entered the room.

“Hhhh...,” Nila sighed, remember Rendi again.

In the past, Baba also looked very familiar with Rendi when Rendi was about to propose to Jingga. So, when Nila's friend or the person Nila knew was familiar with Baba. Nila doesn't like trauma.

Even Rendi often to the house even though there is no orange. From there Nila often saw Rendi from the glass, seeing the familiarity of Rendi and Baba, her courtesy also dear to Iya Iyu made her fall in love. But in fact, it scares.

“May Baba not repeat the same mistake. What does Mr. Rendi mean to take me back what is this? Why does it feel like this?” muttered Nila continued to speak inwardly, while removing her hijab and then Nila went into the bathroom to pick up the wudzu.

“Astaghfirullohal’adzim, do not get carried away by Nila's emotions.. Focus.focus. Let's think clearly.” muttered Nila then drenched her face with water..

****

At the crossroads of large roads in the capital that is crowded with various vehicles, Rendi stopped, forced to wait for the queue. This time he was calmer and unhurried because his sister and sister-in-law had already left.

Rendi's gaze was empty into the vast-looking sky extending from the car's glass. One hand stand bye in the steering wheel of the car waiting for the vehicle in front of the two began to walk, one hand he unconsciously bit, his brain content is still ringing with Fatma's words

"Sholat Bang please instructions.manyin istighfar. Bang Rendi is old, don't delay marriage anymore, but Abi is still alive.

About Nila. We've been trying. This is all wrong Bang Rendi. If you can't forgive, and choose to stay back, don't be forced, yes! It might be the best way to get her life going. He is still young.

But...

If Bang Rendi is sure to pursue him, good Bang... try deh, Bang Rendi correction, wrong Bang Rendi where?"