I Will Be The New Me
CHAPTRE 15

You've made too many mistakes, too many,

You never understand how to repay an affection,

You don't know what sympathy is and don't care who you scapegoat to cover up your rot,

You have also wasted me,

And that was your biggest mistake.

Quinn shook her head cheerfully. He then took off Raiden's hand which he was forced to hold tightly. "No, kok. I'm just surprised that this is the first time Raiden has visited me at night and in such secret. It makes me nervous." Quinn's cheeks were shamed, he timidly stole a glance. "I miss you too." the girl squeaked while playing her fingers.

I was disgusted to hold the hand of the man who had pushed me to the brink of death.

Raiden pulled the girl's hand and placed it on her cold cheeks while smiling seductively. "Quinn, I don't know what the real busyness is that you're talking about. But you've made me wait and I can't help but miss."

Raiden thinks Quinn is just a busy-ass for the sake of drawing his attention further. Of course he didn't show all that on his face. Raiden was always smiling, but behind that smile was a drill that many people did not know about.

Quinn spread out both hands, "So, can I hold you, Raiden?" The blue-sliced youth smiled ambiguously. "Come here, Quinn."

Finally Quinn came forward and grabbed the body of the young man higher than him, sinking his face into the chest of the field of the future King. There's no feeling of pleasure. Quinn just kept the image that was already attached to him. "I really like to smell Raiden, it's very calming to the mind."

Ah, this heart is still beating..what if I stab it right now? no, I'll be satisfied for just a moment.

"Haha that? you're a little bit skinny now. Do you eat regularly?" the young man's huge hand stroked Quinn's head crest, making the girl in his arms look up and carve a sweet smile for her.

"Yes, actually I've had a lot of snacks. To be honest I was afraid of being fat, but it turned out that it had no effect on my weight at all." - gritted while pursing his lips. It looks cute from up here, Raiden thought.

"Should I send you a lot of desserts that the palace cooks make? he's pretty good. Tomorrow I'll order him to send a cake here." Raiden used to do this kind of thing. This handsome yet cunning snake-like man immediately responded to Quinn's grievances in a conspicuous manner as if to show the world that Raiden cares deeply for and loves Quinn.

Basically Raiden just wants to make the higher-ups of the kingdom even more disapproving of Quinn becoming their Queen in the future. If the palace councils disagree, then whatever the popular vote for Quinn it will not make it certain to be elected as the candidate of the Crown Princess.

"Eh? it must have been very troublesome, no need, Raiden~" Quinn took off Raiden's embrace. "I'd be happy if you took me to one of the bakery shops here."

"Oh, what a great idea. Then we can leave tomorrow morning. I happen to be free."

"really? I'm really happy to hear that, but.." look at Raiden's face turned dark. He was waiting for Quinn to continue. "I'll go to one of the painting studios tomorrow to make a family painting."

Again a rejection that was as embarrassing as the last time when he came to express feelings. A few seconds Raiden gave a murderous look at the weak girl before him. "Suddenly?" asked Raiden in a slightly cooler tone.

"No, kok. I've been planning it since yesterday when you came to my house again."

"Hm, so."

The two of them then silenced each other and only looked at the same sky above their heads. Raiden comes not only to mince words, he wants to find out what Quinn is really up to. He knew from his spies that Quinn was no longer the same, including his feelings for the Ethereal Prince that had disappeared, visible from the look of his eyes that were no longer like he was looking at his world.

After receiving two rejected statements, Raiden was more and more alert to Quinn's movements. "You know, it's probably just my feeling, but you kind of want to get away from me, Quinn. And it made me start to get nervous." The rejection of the busy excuse was not really the Quinn de Alger Shuvillian he knew. Quinn, who was supposed to put Raiden first, was always clingy with him, and kept looking after him, and devoted all of his affection to him.

I was too blatant to show change. It's okay, just calm down Quinn.

"really? yeah, it's just your feelings. I'm trying to pass the time and make memories with my family, sorry if I make you lonely." Quinn's two eyebrows furrowed sadly, his clasped hands slapped the broad shoulders of that handsome little-faced young man. "Are you coming with me tomorrow? we can make a painting together, it'll be the most beautiful memory I have."

Raiden pulls Quinn's hand making her come closer. Raiden stared fixedly at Quinn's blue iris, "I actually wanted to ask to convince myself."

"W-why are you so sad, Raiden? did someone hurt you?"

"He now dares to return my gaze, usually he will avoid eye contact with a face that is already completely reddened," Raiden glazed over as he looked at the girl who was infatuated with him with compassion. "Do you like me?"

"Why do you ask that? of course I like Arden this much." Quinn moved her hands in a large circle, "Why do you doubt my love?"

Deg

Quinn felt like her heart stopped pumping oxygen into her veins. Feeling sick and stifling. "Ray..den...?" This was the first time Quinn had witnessed Raiden shed tears with such a pitiful face as if he was begging Quinn to stay by his side.

"You're the only person who cares about me. You're the only one who's always understood me even though I never said anything. You're the only one who's always been loyal to a human like me. I'm afraid you'll leave me too, I don't have someone who loves me as much as a normal human being, not as a Prince or a future King."

Your father and mother loved their son very much, but you hurt them. Aren't you too cruel to deny your own parents' sincere feelings?

Raiden hugged Quinn's thin body, submerging his head at the intersection between the girl's shoulders and neck. The tears are still flowing, "You're not leaving me, are you? I never said it, but I like you too, Quinn."

Describing yourself with tears is an ancient trick to ensnare the interlocutor at a game. Although ancient, that way is still able to attract the sympathy of opponents. "Raiden, don't cry. You made me cry. I love you, Raiden. I'm not leaving you." Quinn stroked the back of Raiden's head gently, trying to calm down the young man she liked so as not to worry about anything.

They stayed in the same position for two minutes. Raiden's nose was slightly flushed, the same as under his eyes. "Look at your handsome face getting messy."

Raiden smiled in relief, "I'm glad to hear that. I thought you were gonna leave me, too."

"Of course not."

Raiden patted Quinn's head. "Tomorrow morning I might be able to come see the Grand Duke and his family painted." Quinn nodded enthusiastically hearing Raiden say that. That way, Oddeth may rise faster. "I can't wait for the morning to come~!"

"Yes, me too. Oh about my crying earlier, this is gonna be a secret between you and me." The handsome young man blinked one eye while putting his long index finger in front of his lips. "See you tomorrow, my Quinn."

"My quinn..?"

"Your face is about to explode." Raiden without giving any cues peeked at Quinn's forehead before finally jumping onto a tree branch and descending through it. Quinn waved from the balcony of her room until Raiden covered the building.

Raiden is back on his original temperament. A cold and ambitious expression was exposed on her tiny face. "This canyon doesn't react much. Is he no longer interested in me? this can't be allowed to."

Raiden took out a golden ring of ruby gems that glowed faintly even after he was that close to Quinn. He was even willing to create a slightly romantic atmosphere just to provoke the reaction of the necklace. Too bad, precisely the ruby gem was shining with an interval of a few seconds.

The necklace will shine in response to Quinn's feelings towards her. The more Raiden approached Quinn, the brighter the gems produced as a result of the turbulent feelings Quinn had for Raiden. It should have been, but this time the necklace gave a different reaction and it was not at all pleasant for the owner of the necklace.

Someone emerged from behind the bush of the fence plant, "Your Majesty. Should I tighten up surveillance on Lady Quinn?"

"Jean. Am I too boring?"

The knight who was Raiden's right-hand man gasped in shock when asked for an opinion. "No, Your Majesty."

"It looks like he's testing me. Ah, maybe he wants me to go after him?" ask him on the wind that passes. "Huh.I'm so sick of having to act like love is everything to me. It makes me look pathetic." she lamented. Jean, a twenty-year-old man with long, pigtailed hair, looked down and followed where his master had gone. He chose not to answer rather than risk angering Raiden.

Quinn slammed the balcony door slightly as she entered her room again. The long curtain was immediately closed and left the room pitch-black. The roar of tears had soaked his cheeks to his chin.

Is trying to forget a deep feeling to someone this difficult? it was like wanting to give up life instead of holding back the tightness too long.

Already hundreds of times he kept chanting in his heart that he would live by not repeating the same mistake of staying in love with a bastard like Raiden again. In fact, the more strongly denied the more deeply entrenched the feeling was. The thought of Raiden's dejected face only made him worried.

"Haha! It's so ridiculous. How could I not enjoy the pleading face of Raiden? is he trying to fool me? pfft! it's a pity that he did such a futile act." Quinn let out a laugh recalling the thrilling incident on the balcony of her room a few seconds ago. His thunderous laughter made the innocent-looking girl look like a real villain.

"He who considers his pride number one, suddenly squeezed in front of a useless girl like me? it's obvious I'm one of the stepping stones he needs in the process of realizing his dream."

"He began to realize that I was not careless in approaching him. It's a little weird because she decided to tell me the second time" Quinn flicked her bangs back. His brain gets a new extra task at night that should be used to stop thinking for a moment.

"It seems I have to persuade grandfather to accept Finn."

Quinn did not go to bed after the Prince's impromptu visit. He turned on his desk lamp and wrote an official letter. "I forgot about this."

It turns out there are still some servants who move around the hallway even though the clock has shown at eleven o'clock at night. Quinn saw Butler Bastien separating several stacks of documents on his employer's desk. "Excuse me, Mr. Evan. Can I ask you a favor?"

"Your Majesty, you haven't slept?" the man who was the same age as Savero was aghast in shock as Quinn appeared nearby without making a sound of footsteps. "What can I do for you, Your Majesty?"

"Tomorrow morning please send this letter to the family of Marquess Sylvestria."

"Okay, Your Majesty."

"thank you. By the way, why haven't you slept, Mr Evan?"

"I forgot to separate out which documents the Grand Duke should quickly complete and which have a short deadline, Your Majesty." replied the one-eyed man politely.

"Oh, so? you should not have to work late. Grandpa will definitely understand, after all he will be leaving with me tomorrow morning. So you have time to clean it up tomorrow."

"Thank you very much for the great attention Your Majesty has given to such a lowly human being as I am."

"No problem. Then I'll go first, yeah."

A satisfied grin was imprinted on Quinn's lips. His work had indeed become more and more, but he felt a excitement that he had never felt. "Let's see what happens next."

Raiden´s. I may not be as smart as you, but I'm not as weak as I used to be so you can use as you please.

"Well, have a good rest, Your Highness Quinn."