I Will Be The New Me
CHAPTRE 4

Quinn can fall asleep in the early hours of the night to make many decisions to avoid the same ending again.

Quinn has really chosen to be a person with a new personality that no one else can take advantage of as easily as before. It doesn't matter if people are aware of the change.

The poor girl still carried a feeling of displeasure in whatever activities she did. The pain is too painful. Even up to the dream Quinn was still haunted by a feeling of sadness that excited to unconscious tears berlinang wet pillow.

The clock is showing at seven in the morning. And Quinn had just been able to wake up after Vanna called her name for the twentieth time. A healer was already sitting on a small chair on the edge of his bed.

The man checked Quinn's pulse with great caution. Savero, Killian, and Penelope stood looking at him strangely.

Quinn shook the doctor's hand and sat down, "Vanna, what happened to me?" Quinn didn't look at any of the family members gathered for her. He just stared at the servant kneeling on the floor right next to his bed.

Savero sighed. "Calm down. Let the professional answer."

The physician calmly explained "Your daughter has a sleep disorder that is already quite severe. It will get worse if Lady Quinn feels prolonged stress and depression. This could endanger his own life if it continued".

Killian's jaw hardened, his right hand clenched in his pants pocket. "As Finn said last night," his mind dislikes and does not accept the truth.

Savero massaged the base of his nose while snorting "Then can you give me a powerful medicine?"

The doctor could not answer whether it would be effective or not, but he gave a dose of powder-type drugs to relieve the stress experienced by Quinn. "Not everyone will fit this drug, if You do not feel there is a change or even not suitable, You can immediately stop its use. Drink every night after dinner."

Quinn had no interest in hearing everything the physician said. Killian's brother was engrossed in daydreaming about how he concluded the message Penelope had written in a roll of paper wrapped around one of the poppy stalks.

"You should not be too much activity that requires the brain to think. You can do anything that calms your mind. If your depression levels rise, you will have more trouble sleeping than this and your health will deteriorate." WEB."

Penelope had a worried expression, she was sitting on the edge of the bed holding the leg of her cousin's sister "Quinn, if you have a place you want to go, I'll accompany you to go there."

Quinn raised her face "Why are you here?"

Savero and Killian were surprised to see Quinn's cold face. Since when does the cheerful girl who always smiles no matter the situation and the present conditions openly show her cold side? Now, Killian assumes that the drastic change in her brother's attitude is due to severe depression.

"Speak politely. He's a guest here." Killian ketus.

Penelope patted Killian's arm while shaking her head, telling the young man not to say anything more "I'll stay here for the next two days. This may be fate, I can accompany—"

"Thank you but I can handle it myself." Quinn again grabbed the thick blanket and hid the small body under his warm blanket. "You all just go out. I'll skip breakfast." His voice shrank due to the blanket blocking his mouth.

Killian poked, "Tck!" he intended to pull Quinn's blanket, but Savero held her son's shoulders hard.

"Don't bother your brother any further than this, Killian." Killian could not resist Savero's will, what else when the man gave a sharp, murderous look. Savero doesn't usually care about the debate between Quinn and Killian. Savero this time seemed to emphasize the warning to his clone (Killian) not to disturb Quinn's calm.

This time it was completely different. Even the hard-hearted Killian could feel his father's attention on Quinn which he had been ignoring all along. Savero even asked what his eldest daughter wanted through Aston.

Savero's concerns are well-founded. He had felt it before. This happens because during the pregnancy of the second child, Sirena also experienced sleep disorders. It's getting worse for a long time. Two months before Killian was born, Sirena's health became increasingly alarming. Her body was so thin that some of the so-called healers said the same thing, i.e., Sirena was too thin and would affect her labor process.

Savero felt equally great happiness and pain. On the one hand Killian was born into the world healthily, but on the other hand she had to feel a deep sadness because Sirena had to leave forever leaving her and her two children.

Quinn's sleep disturbance must have traumatized Savero to the surface again so that the handsome man with the wall face worried about the health of his eldest daughter.

During the day, as Penelope and Killian walk the park together, Quinn knocks on Savero's office door impatiently.

Aston immediately opened the door and was surprised to see Quinn wearing a go-to outfit complete with a hat and a large suitcase in his hand "L-Lady..?"

"Let me in, uncle."

Savero put his pen back into the ink bottle. The document he was working on was pushed to the edge of the table and sat down as if he was just relaxing there. Her eyes were glaring at Quinn's figure "What do you need, Quinn?"

"Dad, from today on I want to stay with grandfather."

Savero and Aston were shocked to hear Quinn's sudden statement. There was not the slightest glimmer of doubt both in his eyes and from the words that came out of his mouth. Quinn could not have thought of living with her grandfather.

"W-Do you really want to do it?" Savero asked confusedly.

Savero's question was immediately responded to with a steady nod from Quinn. "Yes. I was just going to stay for a few days, but I changed my mind. You don't have to think about me, I'll live well. I'll come back if I think I want to."

Savero covered his gaping mouth, he was too shocked. His eyes blinked rapidly. The black-sliced man was unable to see Quinn's cold side. The girl who always laughs every day, smiles, always greets him with a tireless cheer and does not care if ignored, now looks at Savero as if he is someone else.

What is this feeling that Quinn has always felt?

"You've decided for sure?" count Shuvillian asked for the umpteenth time, making sure that his daughter really wanted to leave this mansion.

"Yes, dad. I think the burden of father and Killian will also be reduced by not caring for this troublesome frail child." Quinn smiled wryly.

"..." - ".Savero's mouth was tightly clenched. Tongue's cow. She didn't want one of her children to leave, but she couldn't blame Quinn for thinking that way on her because she never once showed her children her frank affection.

Since the death of Countess Sirena, Savero has been a difficult person to express himself in anything. But that doesn't mean he doesn't care about his people, especially his children and Sirena.

Quinn bowed respectfully. "That's all I want to say. Then excuse me, sorry to interrupt dad's time."

Quinn had not yet gotten outside the door, a female servant appeared out of breath. "What's wrong?" Ask Aston wonder.

"Lady.huh... Sorry Lady, Prince Raiden is already in the living room. He's waiting for you."

Quinn was stunned but it only took her a few seconds to remember. It was the anniversary of Quinn's mother's death, and she planned to visit Sirena's grave before going to her grandfather's house, Bastien Lombardia.

"True, today..."

It also coincides with Raiden declaring his love. After today, Quinn will be happier and more flowery every day. Without knowing what awaited ahead was only his own betrayal and death.

Scars of smiles imprinted on Quinn's face "Yes, I'll see her soon."

"I will not see the crown prince. The business isn't with me."

Savero has no energy to welcome Raiden. The shock that Savero felt made his spirit to move was gone.

"All right, Your Majesty."

A big lie when Quinn says her feelings are now normal. Despite having arranged all the decisions well, meeting his first and last love makes Quinn's heart almost explode.

From a distance Quinn could already see Raiden sitting on a sofa in the living room. The bright blue-faced young man with his beautiful bluish hair sat down while putting on his best smile. His seat was agitated as if he could not wait to meet Quinn.

Quinn's heart was pounding, unsure of what made him feel that. Was it the pain of seeing the person who had betrayed his true love again or was it because Quinn still had a deep taste for the man?

"Any Quinn!" Raiden stood up from the sofa, the intensity of his smile increasing "How are you? long time no see."

Quinn had not expected her smile to be this strong. Though one of the important components in his revenge is not to show a major change in the presence of Raiden. "A-um.. I-i'm good. How's yours?"

It's free. Quinn had already made a scenario in his mind about how he would behave normally in front of Raiden. But in fact, after dealing directly precisely his brain does not work properly.

A feeling in the past had stuck too deep in his heart like the roots of a banyan tree, just like that was embedded there.

"I'm good too,"

Quinn chose to sit on a different sofa. He looked at the table more than Raiden's handsome face "You want to go somewhere? Want me to go with you?"

"No need. I can go alone, really. I'm sure you have a lot of activities today."

Although it was only one second, Raiden's body was bewildered in astonishment at Quinn's different demeanor.

"Have I interrupted your time?" Ask Raiden. His eagle eyes caught Quinn's change in attitude towards him.

Quinn sighed softly while raising her face. Bravely gazing straight into the sky blue eyes of Raiden whom he had always admired his beauty "No. You have free time until you can come here, what's up?" Quinn must pretend to be friendly so Raiden doesn't immediately notice the change.

"Yes, today my training teacher is on leave. His wife will give birth in two days so I have some free time after studying." Raiden replied while scratching his non-itchy nape.

"so yeah. You came alone? Where's Charlotte?" Ask Quinn to just make small talk.

"Lottie? He was on vacation to the city of Nevea, he said he was eager to enjoy the beach view."

"Well, that sounds really fun."

"Yes, that's right. If only my father had given me a break for a vacation too. Oh right, Quinn, do you want to go on vacation with me?"

"We'll see if you have time for me."

Raiden chuckled "Yes too. But I can't ask Dad for permission. I'm sure my dad would approve."

"..."

Instantly the atmosphere became silent.

Quinn glanced towards the window that led to the garden beside her house. Killian and Penelope had already seen the palace carriage and were currently walking back into the mansion.

I have to find the right timing, Inner Quinn.

"Quinn", "Raiden"

They sat together, not knowing that they would call each other names at once. "You go first" Raiden invited the beautiful girl to talk first.

"Raiden, sorry for your birthday yesterday I didn't come."

"You still thinking about that? No problem, Quinn. You will always be at my show."

"You mean?"

"Quinn.there's something I want to tell you."

"Hm? What's?"

How happy he is today to get a statement of love from his beloved. Quinn used to think so, she had obtained a love that was only for her own. Quinn's wait is avenged.

Now there is no happiness. Quinn is fed up and disgusted to hear Raiden will declare his false love. How could this human be so cruel to deceive a girl who never hurt her at all? is he really human? Quinn thought Raiden was a demon in human form.

"Actually I..."

"You?"

"I'm ashamed to say it, but..." Raiden continued to avoid eye contact with the sweet-faced girl, his ears flushed red.

Quinn gave a faint grin seeing Penelope was close to the door. His feet have passed the doorway. "What actually?" quinn asked as he tilted his head.

Raiden took a breath then looked at Quinn steadily "Quinn I like you—"

Quinn ignored Raiden's statement. He even stood up while waving cheerfully.

"Oh Penelope!! I thought you'd gone for a walk into town, but you're still here." Quinn was excited to greet Penelope who entered along with Raiden's love statement.

The Ethereal kingdom's crown prince stiffened. His eyes were wide open, his hands clenched. What kind of humiliation is this? who would dare bother me? Raiden looked towards the door looking at the two living creatures that entered and stole the exact time from him "What the hell?"