Love hindered friendship
Flashbacks

Shabira came into the house with a cheerful face while carrying two large plastic bags. Jidan who saw immediately ran towards Shabira.

"Shabira, where have you been all day I've been looking everywhere you know" said Jidan

"Allah! You lie he said to find everywhere to eat is not sought after even though all day I was there to help the father" Shabira denied

Jidan then smiled as he scratched his non-itchy head.

"Hehehe... know you, the end is far away so I'm lazy there"

"Some of you want to do me a favor?"

"Yes, I don't have any playmates. Uh! By the way you bring it is a lot very?"

"It's a snack, you want it?"

"You,mau.Eh! But where can you buy this many snacks?"

Shabira then smiled as she let go and Jidan followed her.

"This is my father" Shabira replied

"Eh! Uh! Wait, you said dad? Did Om Atar admit to you that he was your real father?" ask Jidan curiously.

Shabira then smiled at Jidan while nodding. They then ate the snack but Shabira gave one plastic bag to her other siblings who lived in a change while the other bag for her and Jidan.

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Since the talk of the five people is now their relationship back again as before, there is no anger and mutual nyuekin anymore,Atar also began to approach Shabira to show concern and affection for the little girl.

That afternoon, Atar invited Jani to meet because there was something he wanted to talk about Shabira. He also came to meet Atar where they had made their agreement. There was Atar who was sitting waiting for Jani's arrival.

"Have you been waiting for me for a long time?" asked Jani who immediately sat beside Atar, on the long bench.

"No ko, I also just came" replied Atar.

Instantly an awkward feeling began to envelop them until they only flinched each other for a moment. Jani continued to look down without daring to look at Atar, while Atar himself, occasionally looked at Jani from the side.To expel the awkward feeling he inhaled a long breath then let out slowly then he began to talk.

"Jani, I'm sorry that I couldn't do much to make amends for you and Shabira, I was forced to follow Gio's terms, Jho and Azka because I'm confused how else they can be so they don't get mad at me"

"Yes, just follow them, besides I will not ask anything from you" said Jani without looking at Atar

"You don't do that, please give me a chance to make amends for you so if you and Shabira need anything to say to me I will fulfill it" Atar said, staring at Jani.

"Right now we don't need anything" Jani said

Atar then took out a brown envelope from his sling bag and gave it to Jani.

"What's this?" jani asked just looking at Atar.

"From now on every month I will give you money for the needs of Shabira and you, if you ask me less"

Jani then returned the envelope to Atar.

"Why returned?" ask Atar.

"I can still afford Shabira's life"

"You don't want to give me a chance to be a good father who's responsible for his own son?"

"I just don't want to bother you Atar"

"It is my duty as a father to support his own son, so please accept yes.This is for his school fees Shabira, his pocket money and please buy new clothes for Shabira, too, I don't know what Shabira tastes like so you're the one who bought it"

Jani looked at Atar's netra, there was sincerity implied by his eyes finally Jani received the money. But suddenly Atar took out one more envelope.

"I saw that Shabira was very close to Jidan, it seemed that the boy was very kind to Shabira." Atar said.

"From that please also give new clothes to Jidan yes, if there is any rest you can use for other Jidan needs"

"You don't have to bother, Jidan it's my business"

"I have more sustenance to eat it I want to pray, I hear Jidan is an orphan right? Eating from it I chose to give some of my provisions to Jidan, so it is accepted that this money also makes Jidan" Atar said with a smile.

For that reason, Jani finally received the money for Jidan. Atar then looked at Jani again while Jani continued to look ahead without seeing his interlocutor.

"Jani, I'm still wondering how can we do that and then you choose to leave, can you tell me all that because I really can't remember anything?"

Jani then looked down sad but in the end he told me also so that Atar was not curious anymore, while Atar just listened faithfully while continuing to look at Jani who continued to look down sad.

"I don't remember anything at the time either. When I woke up in the morning I suddenly saw you, we slept in the same bed, one blanket and..." Jani hung up her sentence because she felt heavy to say it.

"And without clothes, I was so shocked and scared back then, I kept wondering about what was happening back then, various negative thoughts kept haunting me, he said, I tried to shake things off and tried to think positively that nothing happened between us but..." Jani couldn't hold back her tear dam

"When I got up to pick up my clothes on the floor I saw there was a blood patch on my bed, I became more and more convinced that something had happened between us, I felt very broken at that moment. I'm afraid you're mad at me because I failed to maintain my chastity until I got married when you always warned me to take care of myself"

Jani's tears immediately flowed down his cheeks and then wiped his tears. Atar's heart felt sad and disappointed in himself, if only time could be turned in the past wanted it to feel like he was fixing all this so that Jani did not feel the pain of this mistake.

"I don't want to upset you with me, I'm afraid you're angry with me and I finally decided to go as far as possible, I just kept walking my footsteps without looking back because I was too scared"

"Perhaps because I was exhausted I fainted on the street, Mr. Hasan and Ms. Retno who at that time accidentally passed and then nolongin me,those who would come home after attending an out-of-town event took me home because when I was asked where I lived I always cried without answering anything..." Jani hung up her sentence again as it wiped away her tears that kept dripping.

"Finally Mr. Husen and Ms. Retno asked me to stay in the orphanage, I agreed because I did not want to go back home I wanted to avoid my problems, instead of me avoiding my troubles it turns out that bigger problems await me..."

"At first I couldn't feel anything but for a long time there was a change in my body, I started to feel a small movement in my stomach, I didn't know anything at the time and then asked Retno, Retno didn't talk much she took me to the doctor..."

"Where I was examined, the doctor said I was 5 months pregnant, like being struck by lightning in the middle of a hole I was very shocked at that time, my heart was completely broken, my heart was completely broken,after the doctor I kept crying because I couldn't accept my pregnancy..."

"I wanted to abort my womb because I didn't want to accept the baby in my womb but Miss Retno kept calming me down she told me all the stories of the children in this place that were thrown away by her parents,I felt sorry for the story that I finally decided to keep my womb and try to accept the baby..."

"After he was born I felt very guilty for thinking about killing him by aborting my womb, I cried and regretted all that from that I promised to raise him as best I could, I will also love him and try to always be happy, like that was what happened to me at that time" Jani ended the story of his dark past.

Atar then holds both hands jani while looking at her net wholeheartedly and earnestly she then thanks while crying.

"I'm sorry, Jani.Because I've cut a gaping wound in your heart, I'm sorry for making you feel devastated, depressed, scared and sad I'm sorry, sorry, if I had known for a long time I wouldn't have let you endure it all alone I'm sorry Jani hiks"

"You don't have to keep apologizing, I know you did it too, everything happened so we just follow the plot" Jani said

"Shabira always wanted to know what her father looked like, I felt sorry whenever I answered her curiosity with uncertainty. because now you also know that Shabira is your real child so will you confess to Shabira that you are her real father?" ask Jani

"Why do you ask that question, as if I don't want to acknowledge Shabira as my biological child?" Atar asked back.

"Yes, I just want you to confess to Shabira that you are her father"

Atar smiles at Jani, saying that Jani does not need to worry because Atar has admitted it to Shabira.

"You seriously told Shabira that?"

Atar then nodded with a smile.

"Then how did he react?"

"It's just normal"

"Can I? Not that he was so curious about his father"

"It turns out that Shabira had known for a long time that I was her father only that she chose silence.I am proud of her, although she is still a child but her mind is like an adult, she is very wise, she likes to help, she said, thank you Jani, thank you for raising our child so well" said Atar.

Jani just smiled without saying anything.

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