Love hindered friendship
Proposing

The wind at night felt so piercing the bones and joints, so, what else is the atmosphere in the mountains is very cold but apparently it does not shake their decision not even a hint of pity in their hearts to me, they still drove me this night.

With gontai I stepped away from the villa to find a shelter this night. Although my heart feels sad but all I have to do. For a while I decided to sleep in the office in the construction site before I finally found a contract for me to live in.

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The next morning all the workers came to the construction site. Actually today I woke up bad luck because last night I couldn't sleep from it I immediately cleaned up my sleep before Azka, Jho and Gio came to the office.

After everything was done, I took a shower in the bathroom because this is all I could use for a shower. When I finished my bath and got dressed I just came out of the toilet and dried my wet hair with a small towel. But apparently Azka, Gio and Jho have come and I greet them with my friendly smile.

"Gio, Azka, Jho you guys have come, sorry yes last night I slept here because I was confused where else to go"

"Bodo very, who is the nanya" said Gio.

Jho took my suitcase and stuff and then he threw it out.

"Who the hell is throwing garbage here to ruin the scenery" said Jho, pretending not to be aware of my presence.

His words really hurt me a lot, Jho really thinks of me like trash, I wanted to cry and scream at Jho and Gio, but I couldn't fight them because I knew they were like that because I was disappointed and angry with them.

I could only flinch and try to be patient despite my pride being trampled on. Indeed, I had never imagined my once so good friend would now turn cruel and heartless.

Again and again I can't blame them completely because I realize this is their form of protest because they think I'm a traitor.

Then I secured my belongings to a safer place after that I went back to the office to work but when I got back my desk and chair were no longer in the room. I know it must have been the actions of my three best friends but again and again I must remain patient to accept the consequences of my decision to keep marrying Jani.

I then gave my finish plan to Jho who a few days ago I had been working on, but Jho refused him he instead threw the map in my face until the papers scattered.

"I don't need this, we can finish the project to the end without you so it's better you just go back to Bogor. We don't need you anymore" Jho said.

I could only take a deep breath and take it out with the weight and then I picked up the paper one by one and put it in the map, I glanced at the face of Azka who had just sat in her chair while watching Gio and Jho bully me.

I know why Azka did not come to bully me because in her heart there may still be a little compassion for me to eat him all this time he prefers silence rather than having to follow me to show his dislike for me as I do performed by Jho and Gio.

After that I decided to leave the office. It seems that this time there is no tolerance for me anymore from them, they really want to end this friendship and then turn against me.

Well, maybe I should stop persuading them to take me back, better this time I focus on Shabira and Jani alone, where I want to take my relationship with Jani, that's what I'm supposed to do. I must immediately clarify my status with Jani.

My God, why can't my heart accept that my friendship with Gio, Azka and Jho is over, my thoughts were even more chaotic when I wanted to focus on Shabira and Jani, I was still reminded of my three best friends.

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When I was under the big tree where I first met my daughter, I kept my suitcase and stuff and then I sat on a mound of earth covered with green grass, I looked at the map that Jho had thrown.

I feel like everything really feels in vain, what am I doing if in the end it will only be useless trash that is thrown away, a feeling of disappointment, the annoyance and anger that these few days continue to plague my heart has now reached its climax.

I really feel frustrated, if only I could hold Jani's hand easily to face all this maybe at this time I would not be as desperate as it is now. But Jani himself seemed to give an uncertain hope, even now I am not sure that Jani already loves me.

Sometimes I wonder if the sacrifice I make will be worth what I get, or if it will all end in vain, I lost all three of my best friends and I also couldn't reach Jani's heart until she couldn't have it.

If it wasn't for Shabira who was my encouragement maybe this second I would have backed out of this love rivalry because I didn't want any division between our friendships. I was upset at my current situation and threw my map until the contents scattered then I looked down sadly with teary eyes.

Without me realizing that there were small hands that were picking up one by one the papers were scattered while staring at the picture faithful, he then approached me while showing me a picture.

"What's this picture, dad?"

"Shabira?!" myrag.

I wrote the lyrics to the drawing show by my daughter.

"That's a water dance" I replied.

"What is water dance?" ask Shabira again.

"The waterfall that dances dear. Have you ever seen Dubai water dance fontain disocial media? "

Shabira who never saw and shook her head.

"Dad seen it in person in Dubai, the waterfall was dancing and it was beautiful" I said.

I saw my daughter's eyes twinkling, there was a curiosity clearly drawn on her face.

"Did you plan to make the waterfall dance here?" ask Shabira.

"It was, but I wasn't sure if it was going to be made or not"

I didn't answer Shabira's question right away, I just stared fixedly at her face that looked very curious. I also don't want to tell you about Gio, Azka and Jho who are now hostile towards me.

I was confused what to answer but I had not had time to answer Shabira had asked again when the netraya saw there were suitcases and my belongings.

"Is this dad's suitcase? Why are Dad's suitcases and stuff here? Are you running away from home?"

"Don't love, you just need a new atmosphere so you can get inspired because your mind is so blind that you have to draw a picture of what" I replied by lying because I didn't want Shabira to know my problem.

"Dad hasn't answered my question about the waterfall"

Because I'm not sure Jho, Azka and Gio will make a waterfall on the project I finally told my daughter that one day I will take her to see the waterfall in Dubai. His face looks excited when I say it like that.

Yes, I really don't want to bring Shabira or Jani into my problems so that my problems, I solve them myself. I just want to see them happy that's enough for me.

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One month later.

I don't feel like time is turning around and now it's taking me to the finish line. This is the end of my agreement with Jani about making her fall for me, my life is suddenly shrinking at this time because I'm not sure I can make Jani fall in love with me because since I was kicked out of Vila and moved to a contract, my mind was so fucked up that I didn't try to conquer Jani's heart.

But I leave all this to God, may Allah give my best, may Jani accept me as her husband. This afternoon is the day where the tourist attractions we build will be inaugurated and soon opened to the public.

Many people were invited by Mr. Wilyam for the opening event where the tourists, even though I had stopped working on the project from a month ago, but Mr. Wilyam didn't know about it - maybe Jho, Azka and Gio didn't tell him about our problems until he invited me directly to the event.

Of course I would come to the event because however well Mr. Wilyam knew I was still part of the architectural firm he hired to build his para-visa, this is my honor at his invitation.

In addition to inviting us, his colleagues and many people he knew apparently Mr. Wilyam also invited local residents to attend the inauguration of the tour venue. He opened all the rides that exist for visitors to enjoy for free, this is a form of promotion so that many tourists who stop and enjoy many rides in this place.

Apparently this opportunity was not wasted by the children of the orphanage, the, they also attended the event because they want to enjoy and ride the rides that are in addition to the people at the waiting was also invited by Mr. Wilyam to hold a lecture.

All the events are over and now is the time for everyone present to storm all the rides, I do not come to play, he said, I just sat by myself watching Shabira and Jidan running around and playing on the rides they wanted to ride.

I also saw Jani was marching the children up close, they all looked very happy and it was enough to comfort my heart even though I was sad to not be able to join Jho, Gio and Azka are currently in talks with colleagues and investors.

Not that I don't want to join them but that my three best friends are different now, they are really hostile towards me and consider me like nothing so every time I join I am ignored.

Sad indeed it feels, if we exist but it is considered nothing, but want anything else I can not do anything more. I can only look down sad in the crowd with a heart that hurts when everyone is happy with the people he loves.

When I was swept away in this feeling suddenly there was someone holding a canned drink to me, I then looked my face at him who was now standing in my face. I took the drink and drank it, and sat down beside me.

"Why don't you join the others?" ask Jani to me. I then looked at the smile and replied.

"Yes later, now I want to sit down first" I replied.

"You're all alone here, why don't you join Azka, Gio and Jho, are they still mad at you?" Jani asked me a lot of questions.

I nodded because I could not lie to Jani because Jani was an adult I could not easily lie to him.

"Yes, let them be like that I'm fine" I said, commenting on the smile on my lips.

Then I took a small box with my pants that I had prepared from a long time ago and I gave it to Jani.

"What's this?"

"I think my time limit is up, my development project is done, I didn't do much to you because I felt like I was in a mess but.this is my last attempt..." I deliberately hung my sentence because I was preparing mentally with an answer from Jani that might make me more devastated or vice versa.

"I want to be serious about you, Jani, I love you and our son so much. Are you willing to be my wife who will always accompany me under any circumstances?" askaku expectantly.

Before answering he was seen to sigh and throw it away, the beautiful face seemed to be thinking and weighing a lot of things but in the end he returned to each other as well.

"Are you sure you want to marry me Atar? Will you not regret it later? Try to think well I'm not a girl anymore, I already have children" said Jani as if he was discouraging me from marrying her.

"You said that, Jani. I already know you're not a girl anymore, I know you already have children then why should you talk rich is it not me who has robbed you of your purity, am I not the father of your son then why do you seem to discourage me from proposing to you?" I asked a little manyun because of a silly question from Jani.

"That's not how I mean I just don't want you to regret it later because other than I have Shabira I also have 4 adopted children. You will be able to accept all my children. People know you're not married. Would you not regret if someone said Atar married not long ago already had five children" said Jani.

Actually I had a doubt but my doubt is not because I do not want to marry Jani but, I doubt because I fear I will not be able to provide for my child and wife later, but all I took away when I instilled confidence in myself that each child was carrying his own provisions so long as I was given a healthy body to look for and why should I doubt.

"I don't hesitate to marry you Jani, I'm sure and will never regret everything, since each child carries his own provisions so why should I back out to marry you even if you have five or more children? Even if I have to provide for all of you it means that there is a provision of children entrusted through my hands to give to my children and my wife, just so I was given a healthy body just to find sustenance so that I can provide for you and our children"

Hearing my answer Jani immediately lowered her head, even though I could see she was smiling with the words I just said, maybe Jani did not expect I would say that. But all of my words were truly sincere from within my deepest heart.

"Then what's your answer, Jani. Will you accept me as your husband?"

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