
Ever being the only one doesn't mean it's going to be forever, that's what Kinar feels right now. If you remember what is happening now, it feels like he wants to turn the clock around and fix things. But this time it was all just regret that made her cry alone in the hospital garden.
A sheet of tissue is propped up by someone who then sits opposite to him.
“Mistress?” Kinar was so shocked when he saw Arini suddenly beside him. He immediately wiped away the tears that had been dripping so as not to rest on his swollen face. Unfortunately, Arini has seen it all.
“Marwan said, you haven't eaten and drunk since. Go to eat. There are still 2 hours left until the operation of mas sigit is completed.” Lirih Arini while looking at the night sky that is getting thick.
It's almost past midnight and there's no word yet from the operating room. This means that Sigit's operation is still ongoing. Only one time the operating room door opens is when officers from the transfusion unit deliver blood to patients who are operating.
“Thank you madam, I was drinking.” Sahut Kinar with a raucous voice. Only this time he looked down and showed that he was an ordinary woman who had weaknesses. One thing that was not expected, the weakness turned out to be Sigit.
Arini sighed deeply, after waiting for Sigit uncharacteristically in the waiting room, he decided to go out and breathe the cold night air. The air in his lung cavity was slightly replaced and he could breathe freely without having to smell the disinfectant liquid.
“You want to know one kinar secret? I'm willing to tell it.” Arini began her conversation with Kinar. There was a tightness that he had to break so that his neck did not feel suffocated.
Kinar flipped his body towards Arini. He stared at the face of the woman who always looked calm.
“Yes mistress, I will listen.” Kinar Sahut. Talking with Arini might just drive away a little tightness in his chest.
“Then, the first time I met mas sigit, my heart seemed to find the end of a feeling. She was so charming that she easily made me open a special place in my heart. Then I went into the main house, I started to get scared. I was afraid that I could not endure the cold attitude of mas sigit towards me.”
“But then I met you. We talk casually and make me not feel too heavy going through those days at home.”
“You certainly know, how do I attempt to get the heart of mas sigit. Dress pretty like a model, body care to famous salons. That's not something I like. The principle of being loved for what it is does not apply when I meet with mas sigit. There must be a great effort to captivate his heart.”
“But as more and more things changed from me, I felt that mas sigit still could not accept my presence. I had time to feel insecure about myself and asked, what exactly is my lack until I can not trap the heart of mas sigit. Though I know, a man's weakness is from his eyes.”
“Beauty yes. Fashionable, definitely. Smart, of course. But it is not enough to make the heart of mas sigit change.”
“Until one day, suddenly mas sigit want to eat fried rice that I made. You said it was mas sigit's favorite fried rice. That night, Mas Sigit went into my room. We talked a little bit, although very awkward. I was so nervous because for the first time mas sigit hugged even kissed my lips. I still feel how gently mas sigit rubbed my face, how his warm breath swept across my face.” Seen a thin smile on Arini's lips, while closing the eyes of the shadow as if back present.
“I feel something changed from mas sigit and make me very confident that my efforts have really succeeded. Although still cool, but mas sigit gives a little attention to me.”
“But this time I was like aware of one thing.” His eyes opened, the bright light turned soft.
“Sigit rice eat my fried rice while smiling not because of the taste of fried rice. But since he knew, you were the one who gave me the idea of making that fried rice.”
“Mas sigit wants to enter my room because mas sigit is a man, who can have intercourse even without feeling though. His warm gaze is not because he loves me but because of a man's passion towards his opposite sex.”
“And mas sigit was never interested in me, not because I was not beautiful but because he had a most beautiful woman in his heart.”
“Mas sigit not can not change, but he does not want to change because I am not the woman he wants.”
“Why Kinar, why am I only now aware of it? Why did I realize that I should not be jealous of another woman like liana, but of her thoughts about the woman in her heart?”
“And why I just realized that maybe you are the one who makes the heart of mas sigit can not I enter.”
Arini looked at Kinar with nanar. One thing he managed to conclude when he saw Kinar's attitude. In the past he was too focused on his efforts to melt Sigit's heart so he did not realize that he should find out what makes Sigit's heart can never be broken. Kinar was nearby and it was enough to make his heart strong and ignore Arini.
“I'm sorry madam, sorry.” Kinar back sobbing. Because of his stupidity he even showed feelings that he should keep tight until death. Because of his stupidity as well he made his great mistress disappointed.
"Which part should I forgive you?" tympano Arini. Either this was a disappointment or an anger that was currently stirring in his heart.
“If I had known it a long time ago, maybe I would have been very angry. I will curse you and tell you to go as far as possible. I will not let the men I love think of other women.”
“But this time it's all different. Looking at you and the sigit, then the kean and the disa, the story is like spinning back from the beginning. Maybe this is what makes mas sigit so angry when he knows kean likes dia. To him, this was karma that happened to his son."
"If he knew, it wasn't karma. This is just proof that the heart cannot choose where it will fall. It would be foolish to call this a sacrifice because when the heart is broken, not only one person suffers. And I, will not let my son pay for something that is not his fault."
Drop by drop tears melted from the corner of Arini's eye. His feelings are really mixed, between angry, disappointed, upset but also relieved because he began to understand what really happened. Unfortunately he was late. He realized everything when he couldn't fix it. Can he just be sorry?
Meanwhile, in his regret, Kinar could only sob. Shadow of events some time ago such as repeated in the cavity of his head. He still remembered how the cherry on Sigit's face when he was going to leave for abroad.
“Kinar, now I'm a rich man. I became the only son of a wealthy businessman. Can go to school abroad and when I come home I will be the boss of the company in one of the big companies owned by Papah. There would be no one else who would dare to look down on me and look at me contemptuously. I'm going to stuff the mouths of those who used to insult us with the dollar bills just finished in print. Just look later.” He said with spirit. Like he wanted to prove something.
Only then did Kinar see Sigit have a great ambition for wealth. Dozens of years survive in difficulty, it is only natural that his mindset changes. The hurt is a result of revenge and the desire to retaliate for the arbitrary treatment of people in the past.
“You should know, Marwan and you can come. We're going to school together abroad, at the nicest and most expensive school. Remember, we have a promise to always laugh in our old age and this is one way.”
“At the reunion, we will laugh with satisfaction in the presence of naughty boys who might just be subordinates in my big company. I'll make them speechless when I meet us.”
Kinar just smiled looking at the burning spirit on Sigit's chest. Slowly, the Sigit begins to change or maybe this is the true nature of Sigit.
“But dan, looks like I can't come.” The sentence was uttered by Kinar timidly.
“Loh, why? You are the smartest of the three of us. You will be one of the most successful people in the future. You want to make a school for poor children, right?” Sigit clasped Kinar's hand tightly. As if convincing Kinar to achieve his dreams.
“Iya.” It was not strong to see the spirit flame in Sigit's eyes, until Kinar released his hand.
“That was my dream. But, I can't possibly leave panti.” Imbuh Kinar with his face.
Sigit termangu, digesting the phrase Kinar.
“Em, gini only. I'll have my men meet all the needs of the parlour. Children's school fees, meal expenses and other necessities. As long as you follow yes, yes yes.” Sigit sulks spoiled at Kinar.
“Hey, you think your money can take a shower of children? Or nina boboin them?” Kinar pinched Sigit's nose in annoyance.
“Sick nar,..” look, this cold guy can be spoiled too. Holding the tip of his nose red because of the pinch.
“Hahaha.. Yeah again, sometimes you think you don't use the right brain. Left brain all.” Ledek Clinic.
Hearing Kinar's words, Sigit simply smiled. The more his admiration for Kinar.
“You know, when we grow up, I'm sure you'll be a good mother. Loving, snacking and I want to be a father who helps you take care of your children later.” Cetus Sigit with plain.
Kinar only chuckled at Sigit's words. “So dad! Learn first real, just thought to be dad.” Fierce Kinar, elbowing Sigit's stomach on purpose.
Sigit scratched his head that was not itchy. If you've talked to Kinar, it must have stuck around.
Kinar turned to face Sigit. Raised his head until he could look into Sigit's eyes.
“You want yes young master, if later you succeed, you do not forget the same orphanage children. Love them a little of your fortune. It does not need much, as long as it is enough, they are definitely seneng.” Kinar rubbed Sigit's chest gently. His eyes stared warmly at the pair of sharp eagle eyes.
Sigit only nodded, asking Kinar that he remembered well in his subconscious.
Years later, Sigit and Marwan return home with a double degree. A pride for the three of them because they can achieve one of the ideals they dream of. Sigit immediately occupied an important position in his company and Marwan had always been his confidant.
What is not fun is the news that Sigit began to be paired with the daughters of conglomerates in Indonesia.
It's actually not a strange thing because it's commonplace among the rich. Married because of an arranged marriage and with an equal person. But it's stifling for those who don't have that equality.
“I'll marry nar.” The sentence became a lightning bolt among the beautiful rainbow belonging to Kinar.
“Oh yes, with whom?” Kinar was still enduring the tightness in his chest hearing the news.
“Women to eight papahku options. He threatened to take everything away from me if I refused again. How do I do nar?” sigit's face looked frustrated. Cowering languidly while pulling his own hair.
“Hey.” Kinar grabbed Sigit's hand to stop what he was doing. It's a Sigit bad habit that Kinar doesn't like.
“I want it first, are you happy now?” tanyanya while staring at Sigit lekat.
The man seemed to think, staring at the clear net of Kinar who was ready to shed tears if Sigit's answer disappointed.
“Hem. No one dares to humiliate me, it's one of my joys.” Answer it honestly.
It was as if a dagger had slammed into Kinar's chest upon hearing that answer. Perih and pain, become the right combination to hurt his heart and hope.
“Then, marry.” Shortened leg.
“Hah?” Sigit did not believe in KInar's answer.
“You know and, I would be so happy if you were happy. That's more than enough for me.” Kinar's voice sounded raucous. It's not that good to hide his wounds.
“But nar, promise us?” Sigit grabbed Kinar's hand for him to hold. Warm and warm, like you don't want to be apart.
Kinar tried to let go. Sigit's grasp made him feel even weaker.
“It was just our chat as teenagers. No need to remember.” Turning his face away from Sigit, he was already unable to hold back his tear not to drip.
“Nar!” exclamation Sigit.
Kinar chose to move from his place. It takes a bit more distance than Sigit.
“Shining!” Sigit pulled out Kinar's hand and hugged her body tightly. “You may just take it as a joke, but until now I've always been serious. I just want to marry you. It makes you the mother of my children. We will age together, as we promise, we will laugh until old age.” Firmly Sigit without giving distance to Kinar.
Hearing Sigit's words made Kinar have to painstakingly hold back his tears. This decision was difficult but he had to take it.
“Dan.” Kinar pushed Sigit's body away. He could no longer hold back his tears. “I don't want to be your wife. I just want to be your best friend. Friend who is always there in any condition.” His voice sounded gleeful.
“But,”
“I beg you and, you marry your papah choice. You don't want it in the future when our master is laughing at someone else?"
"You don't have to think about me. We are different now. You are a young master and I, I only deserve to be a servant. A waiter will not be suitable to be the mother of your children.” Reject the Kinar not in fact. But this is all he can do.
“Oh, so you think you're just a good waitress?” asked Sigit with disappointment. How could the woman he adored humble herself.
“Ya!” sahut kinar loudly. His lips were already shaking withstanding the nearly broken cry.
Sigit laughed in annoyance, he really did not expect with the content of Kinar's mind. “Now I ask you, do you love me? As an adult, as a female against a male.”
Kinar seemed to think. Replying to Sigit's cold-turned gaze. No matter what happens, it should not waver.
“No! I never loved you. We can only be friends, no other feelings.” Rigorously.
Like there was a hard blow on Sigit's chest when he heard the answer to the shinar. Not only was he upset, he was disappointed to be so disappointed by Kinar's reply.
“Okey, if you do not love me and you just feel fit to be a waitress, then from tomorrow you become a servant in my house. You want us to be close as friends, right? Then I'll grant it.” It was clear Sigit's eyes were barking with anger.
“And I cannot be a servant in your house. I can't leave the kids. Me,”
“ENOUGH! I don't want to hear any more excuses. If you still reason, then I will stop taking care of the orphanage children and we do not need to know each other.” Firmly Sigit can not be denied.
From then on, Kinar realized that he had made a mistake. Unfortunately, he could not change his words. Sigit had followed his anger and disappointment so that there was no chance for Kinar to reject him.
If he wasn't that stupid, would everything be different? Was his sacrifice not enough to pay for all his mistakes?
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