Marry The Heir
This is how a sense of calm should be when anchoring the heart to the right heart.

The speed of the fast car stopped in front of the main house gate. Along the way there was nothing they talked about, making the atmosphere feel tense and frightening.

She looked at her husband who stopped for a moment to look at the building before her. The house he hated, which this time he had to go back to. His hand gripped the steering forcefully as he was gathering his courage to enter.

The sound of his deep breathing, made Disa also sigh deeply. I don't know what Kean will do inside. Perhaps as per his request, Kean would let go before Arini and their relationship ended already.

Just imagined it was scary, a situation where he was forced to end a feeling so that no one else was hurt. However, isn't this what Disa wants? Not tortured in uncertainty.

The car drove slowly into the courtyard of the house. Without saying a word Kean released his seatbelt as well Disa. He went down first and opened the door for Disa. Maybe this will be the last sweet gesture Kean does for her.

Look, this man even extended his hand at Disa.

“Down.” With his low and thrilling voice. One more thing he should forget quickly.

There is no reason to doubt, is not this what Disa wants, there is clarity to her relationship.

Disa shook the hand and Kean clasped his hand tightly. He brought Disa into the house and ignored the greeting of Kinar who seemed surprised to see the arrival of the two.

The living room and family room just passed by. Kean's long steps led Disa towards the steps and retraced her at a rapid pace. Honest Disa's exhausted.

The upper room was quiet, like people were in their rooms. At the end of the stairs for a moment Kean sighed. Where will Kean take him, to see Arini?

Kean decided to go left to his room. But the room passed through Kean and finally they both stood before the door of Sigit's room.

“You want clarity don't you?” lirih Kean without looking at Disa.

Disa nodded slowly. His heart immediately pounded when the door that Kean chose was Sigit's room door. What will her husband do? Is everything gonna be okay?

It's getting less and less because of the feelings of Disa. His hands were cold because they were nervous even though they were held by Kean's warm hands.

One powerful push left Sigit's room door open. There was Arini who sat beside Sigit and looked surprised at the arrival of Kean and Disa. This was the first time Kean had entered Sigit's treatment room. Whether in the hospital or after treatment at home. Usually Kean just saw it from the door without coming closer.

“Can, kean? You guys?” Arini stared in disbelief. I don't know what he's doing next to Sigit, which is obviously the rest of the tears he just wiped.

“What's the son?” alternately looking at the tense face of Disa and the cold face of Kean.

“There's something I need to finish with papah.” Follow him with complete confidence. Not once did his gaze shift from Sigit that he was fixed on.

Arini looked at Disa, like asking for an explanation. She just shook her head, not knowing what her husband was going to do.

Eventually Arini chose to stay away, giving Kean and Disa some space.

Kean grasped Disa's hand tightly, very tightly as if reluctant to release it and he approached Sigit.

In the back there, there were Shafira and Kinar who were still panting following Kean's long steps and Disa reached the mouth of the door. Many questions in their minds, what will Kean do to Sigit.

“Pah,” voice heavy and deep it pronounced Kean without hesitation.

“I came with my wife, Paradisa Sandhya.”

Disa also stared at Sigit for a while, then turned to look at her husband when his name was mentioned.

“Women who are forbidden to marry me because papah thinks she is not worthy to be my wife."

"But I keep marrying her because I love her.”

“This woman is also the one who made me swear that I will not give papah offspring if papah still considers her low and unworthy.”

Until this sentence, Disa felt shocked. It was he who made Kean swear on his papa. His body suddenly limp and his hand grip almost loose, but Kean increasingly tighten his hand grip.

“What papah knows, until this moment I am still very disappointed in papah. Papah never gave me the slightest chance to become a child in the middle of the family hardjoyo.”

“Papah just thinks that I am a human being who was created only to continue the power of papah and will give papah posterity to continue everything.”

“Papah has taken a lot of things in my past. Taking my happiness, taking my chance to feel loved and wanted, also took my chance to feel that I have rights as a child, not just as an heir.”

Arini sniffed in place, hearing Kean's painful speech. That much pain his son felt and he could never do anything but just be a burden to his son.

“I can make peace with that. But, I won't let Papah take my future. Makes me feel guilty for the woman I love and forced to let her go. No reward, I won't let it.”

“I,”

Kean's sentence paused. He looked at Disa and looked at her with a page. His eyes were already red and wet, in a few moments they might break.

“I love him."

"She's my woman, she's my life, she's my healer, she's the one who made me try to make peace with Papah. Adhere to papah's wishes in the hope that everything will improve. Although papah never considered my efforts.”

“He was also the one who forgave papah even before I asked him to accept my family's shortcomings.”

“I believe him. She'll be a good wife. He'll complete me. He who says he is unworthy, becomes worthy in his own way. And him,”

Kean sighed deeply, with confidence he said, “He will be the mother of my children. Then I revoke my oath.”

Without feeling, Desa tears escaped dripping just like that on her cheek. He changed his hand to Kean. The fear that a few seconds ago filled the space of his heart, suddenly disappeared just like that, changed the sense of happiness because Kean thought it existed.

“Despite loving my children or not, I will still love them."

"I'll love them our way."

"I'll keep them out of Papah's reach."

"I won't let them feel what I felt in the past.” Tandas Kean with great emphasis.

Again, Arini's tears were broken. He sobbed back there with Kinar and Shafira.

Removing himself from the shackles of the past and his vows, allowing Kean to smile calmly, he has won over to face his own fears thanks to the woman beside him.

Once ago, Kean cupped both sides of Disa's face then kissed her forehead, switched on both eyes, then both cheeks and nose, ending with a gentle kiss on her lips. He no longer cared about the eyes that looked at them.

“I love you. I beg you never to leave me for any reason.” Lirih Kean expectantly.

His cold eyes, now turned warm. Making Disa's heart pound as fast as she had fallen back in love with the man before her.

Disa nodded slowly. Everything he wanted to hear, he had heard more than enough. Right now he just wanted to hug Kean tightly, very tightly.

Kean returned his embrace. Her tall body was holding onto the tiny body of Disa. He again dyed the head, sipping the fragrance of his hair that he so longed for. He closed his eyes, enjoying the smooth whirring that had crept back into his bloodstream and made his heart beat.

This is how a sense of calm should be when anchoring the heart to the right heart.

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Flashbacks

The hot atmosphere in Sigit's office was still clearly felt when Kinar walked into his room to give him medicine. It was only a few minutes ago that Kean left with a burning rage in his eyes.

In his place, Sigit sat languidly on the chair, leaning weakly without power. I don't know what was on his mind at the moment, which was clear from the reflection of the mirror glass before him, he looked very sad.

“Master, time to take medicine.” Doubtful Kinar put the medicine on Sigit's desk.

Hearing Kinar's voice, Sigit turned his chair and faced him.

“Kinar, do you still hate me? Hating my haughty attitude?” suddenly tanyanya. Questions that Kinar did not expect would welcome him.

“No sir, I never hate you.” The light bowed before Sigit. Not wanting to reciprocate Sigit's clingy views and make him feel guilty.

Sigit smiled faintly, then he went to Kinar, sitting leaning on his desk making their distance quite close.

“Then do you still love me?” tanyanya.

Sigit's question was indeed unexpected to make Kinar's feelings unreasonable. He clutched his own hands that were linked to each other. With all his courage he looked at Sigit.

“No sir. I no longer love you.” Firmly Kinar without hesitation.

“Oh yes? Then why are you still here? Aren't you able to leave here, leave me and be happy with another man?” kinar's answer turned out to be long-tailed.

Kinar sighed deeply and tried to smile at Sigit.

“I survive not because of you sir." Kinar's sentence sounded firm.

"Since the young master was born, I realized I have never had a place in this house. Everyone did not expect my presence, including you who always deny your own feelings on the great mistress.”

“You just don't have the heart, if you have to say directly that your feelings have changed a lot to me sir, but I can feel that.”

“I know, the business of the great mistress has melted your heart and I never blame it.”

“I survive here just because, young master needs me."

"He stopped crying as I carried him, he slept soundly as I hugged him and he looked happy as I accompanied him to play. Little thing you can't do, right?”

The phrase Kinar made Sigit turn his face. It's annoying but true.

“He's the only hardjoyo family that holds my hand tightly."

"He was the only one who made me feel that the hardjoyo family had accepted my presence and given me a place.” Kinar looked at his own index finger that Kean often held as a child.

“Only that's the reason I survived here sir. I love the young master. Your son with a great mistress whom you often forget.” Firm Kinar.

Sigit smiled faintly. He took a medicine that he put in his mouth. Taste it for a while before then he spewed it back.

“Do you know what is now happening to me?” Sigit moved from his place, turning to look at the garden outside his window.

“I have completely destroyed my own life as well as my son.” his voice sounds desperate.

“You should know, in the future, you will not hear again the name of hardjoyo that you hate kinar. Kean who will end it.”

“The son you love, he swore before me that he would never give me a descendant.”

“There will be no more a child begging to be loved and there will be no more a son who is forced to be the successor of the hardjoyo family. Everything ends kinar.” Sigh Sigit who was stuck in his place with tears dripping down.

Truly, Kinar never expected that Sigit would say this.

Then he turned to look at Kinar with his wet eyes.

“I'm pathetic, aren't I? I lost you also lost a son and the future of the hardjoyo family at the same time. I have done a lot to keep him. Maintaining the hardjoyo family to still look worthy as the heir chosen papah.”

“What's wrong if I just want to keep my promise to Papah if I can be like him? If he should regret ever alienating me. And she should know that I am still her child even though it was born from a womb that should not.”

Sigit was stuck with his deep cry. Kinar wept, weeping for the misfortune of the great lord sakaligus his friend. Unfortunately, he could not get close let alone hug Sigit to calm him down. He could only stand in his place with the pity he expressed through tears.

“You can still fix everything sir. You still have a chance.” Entertain the dinar in earnest.

Sigit just shook his head. His mind was deadlocked just to think of a way how he could fix everything.

If Sigit wakes up and sees what Kean is doing right now. Isn't that right, if everything can be fixed? It's just a matter of time and who comes to mind first so as not to fall.

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