Marrying My Beloved's Killer
Chapters 20. Sea Change

There were no words to describe how Sea was feeling at this moment.

Feel unwanted? Yep.

Feel useless? Yep.

Feeling hopeless, all his efforts in vain? Yep.

"I, my being, my life, everything about me, was a mistake for you. So what do I hope for you again?"

After his talk with Noah at the time, Sea's attitude changed. Sea spends more time in the room with the reason of illness.

The first day, right after the two were finished, grimacing with pain at the core, Sea returned to bed, continuing his sleep still with a mucus covering his entire body. Seeing that all was filled with guilt in Noah's heart. As a doctor, of course he knows how sick Sea felt due to his actions last night. That morning he let Sea rest.

“Where is Sea?” Ask Mami Joanna.

Noah would not normally have breakfast alone. Sea, her favorite daughter-in-law will always accompany her husband, thought Mami Joanna.

“Sea is still sleeping, Mi,” replied Noah briefly.

Mami Joanna's frowning. Since he first brought Sea to his house, it was rare for him to see Sea awake. Unless the woman is sick.

“Have you checked on your wife?”

“What Sea hurts?”

“You are a doctor Noah, if your wife is sick you should be able to pay more attention,” Mami Joanna advised her son.

Noah sighed, “Mi, who said Sea is sick? Looks like he's just exhausted!” Noah placed the spoon and fork roughly onto the table.

“Let him rest. Mommy don't bother him!”

“I'm done breakfast, I'll leave now. Excuse me Dad, Mami.” Not to forget Noah said goodbye to his parents by kissing the back of his hands alternately.

A doubtful Mami Joanna is also worried about Sea's circumstances, rushing up to her son's room after making sure Noah's car has stayed away.

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“Sea... Dear seanna!”

“Sea... honey, can Mami come in?”

There was no answer from inside the room. The worried mother was forced to open the door after asking permission.

“ Sea, Mami in yes, dear,” her screeches from behind the door.

Chequek.

The door he had managed to open, and the first glance he saw was the messy condition of the room. Found Sea's clothes lying helplessly on the floor of the room as well as red spots on the sheets, giving rise to a smile on the middle-aged beautiful face. Surely he understood what his son and daughter-in-law had done until this mess could happen.

“Sea... Mami will ask Mbok to bring your breakfast to the room,” said Mami Joanna. “Breakfast first, after that rest again.”

Without saying anything more, Mami Joanna rushed out of Sea's room. In her heart she cheered happily until her steps towards the dining room she sped up, impatiently conveying this happy news to her husband.

“Prepare to be a grandfather,” his whisper in Father Peter's ear.

No one knows, behind the happiness of a middle-aged couple who hope will soon be fond of grandchildren, in the room Sea continues to shed tears. It felt like Sea was hugging Mami Joanna, sharing a little of her pain with storytelling. Unfortunately, that's impossible for him to do.

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Three days have passed, and they are all the same. The sea locked itself more in the room. It made Peter's father and Mami Joanna worried.

The same was felt by Noah. The silence of Sea this time somehow bothered him a lot. Regrets, guilt, and loss he felt at the same time.

Like today, due to fatigue Noah woke up longer than usual. “Gosh... I'm late in Fajr Prayers,” murmured Noah as both his hands rubbed his face rough.

When he turned towards the side of the bed beside him, there he could see Sea lying on his back. Mukena belongs to Sea lying on the sofa, indicating that Noah's wife has carried out her obligations. One thing Noah realized, Sea no longer woke me up and invited me to pray as usual congregation.

Not only that, there were no more clothes that Sea had prepared for him to refuse, no Sea forced to bring her briefcase or Sea would roll in her arms in front of Father and Mami.

Still the same as yesterday, already three days in a row, back Mami Joanna who will prepare food on Noah's plate. Why don't I get excited to eat at home, huh? The taste of the food was different when Sea prepared everything, Noah's inner.

“Alright, kok.” Noah replied without daring to look at the netra of his parents.

“Why not just check with the doctor? Akh... Mami was so worried, actually what sick Sea. He always says if just tired and want to rest, but I'm sure it's not just that.” Her mother's comments made Noah choke on his food.

"Have you forgotten who our son is, Mi? Noah certainly knows better what is best for his wife" Peter's father commented.

Should I be thankful that Sea didn't complain to Mami and Dad? The inner war re-churned in Noah's heart.

The man was still hesitant, on the one hand he felt that what happened between him and Sea was not a big problem because both were halal to do so. However, on the other hand he feels guilty to Aneesa if later he and Sea will be increasingly attached and difficult to separate. For to this day, it was Noah, the woman who had been his wife, who caused Aneesa's death.

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Tonight, exactly a week after the darkest night of Sea's life. Different from the last few days, tonight Sea is no longer hiding behind a thick blanket while filling his fate.

This morning after visiting the graves of her parents, Sea felt guilty for wasting a week of her life. Don't I still have one duty from father and mother? His inner.

The sea spent a long time soaking. If usually he will choose the scent of lavender or lemon, tonight the aroma of camomile becomes his choice to help relax his mind. A week of time he spent just lying down, making his muscles feel stiff and the aroma of camomile is enough to help reduce discomfort in his body.

Like being born into a new person, tonight Sea is really different. Deciding to look different tonight, Sea's choice fell on a mint green mini dress with no arms. The face polish is also different, Sea no doubt when applying blush and lips whose color is bolder than what he usually wears. There was no purpose whatsoever, all purely he did was follow his instincts.

Peter's father and Mami Joanna were very happy when they welcomed Sea to dinner. “We're so grateful you're okay, son.”

“Excuse Sea for having made Father and Mami worried,” he said full of regret.

Mami Joanna moved from her seat, approaching her daughter-in-law as her own daughter. The middle-aged woman hugged Sea, and Sea also felt the warmth and sincerity of Mami Joanna to her. “Do not get sick again, take care of your health dear. But if you get sick again, remember your husband the doctor who is ready to take care of you,” said Mami Joanna.

Sea simply nodded, though inwardly he grimaced back when recalling that night. What else when realizing the presence of the man they were talking about.

The man with the status of her husband who she said would be ready to take care of her, was none other than an irresponsible man hiding behind the word khilaf.

While Noah who had just returned home from work, had to continue to swallow his saliva when adjacent to the Sea. The man cursed himself, why something was stirring within him when he saw his wife's completely different look. Even the scent of the perfume alone was able to awaken something that was asleep.

Did Sea forget the deal for the show in front of Dad and Mami? Why would he ignore me? asked Noah in his heart.

Couldn't stay longer in the situation there but was considered non-existent by Sea, finally Noah said goodbye to go to the room first.

That's enough, Mas. I surrender!

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Time passed, the strain of Sea and Noah's husband and wife relationship can no longer be hidden. The more the day Sea the more tormenting the inner Noah. The man felt unable to stay close to Sea for longer.

For some reason, every time he was near the Sea, Noah felt like he wanted to bring the woman in his deck. If possible, he wanted to restrain the woman again, making her helpless again in his power. Realizing that was impossible, Noah finally chose to stay away.

While Sea, the woman returned to her usual activities. College in the morning and work in the afternoon until evening. Luckily, he got permission from both of his parents.

Sea was grateful because Alfio also wanted to accept his apology. Even Sea did not expect that during the week he disappeared, the man was very worried about him. Sea felt even more relieved after being honest with Alfio regarding his status and who Noah was. He is grateful because now in addition to Tessa and Phila, there is Alfio who became the place of various complaints and grievances.

As of today, Sea's pale face and limp body invited Alfio's worries. “Do you get sick, Sea?” tanyakanya.

Sea shaking. “No, I'm fine. Don't worry,” Sea replied.

“But your face looks very pale, your body temperature is very hot. You have a fever, Sea!” Alfio's hand was already nimbly on his forehead without being prevented by Sea.

Even as if indifferent to the gazes of the other employees, Alfio led Sea into his room. Slowly lay the weak body of the woman on her sofa bed.

“Don't go anywhere and don't do anything! Today you have to rest,” said Alfio.

The sea chuckled with its weak laughter. “ You're overdone, Brother Al.”

“I only get regular wind, kok,” said Sea.

“My head is dizzy and a-a-“ is not finished saying the woman suddenly ran to the bathroom that was in Alfio's room. Sea spewed out all his stomach contents.

Alfio was sculpting in his place, what might be his inner.

After helping Sea lie down again, Alfio immediately left the woman with a reason for Sea to rest. In his mind was the only thing he had to do immediately.

After coming out of his room, Alfio immediately searched for the name of a person on his phone. “I need to contact him immediately. If my guess is correct, I need it to help me.”

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