Marrying My Beloved's Killer
Chapter 36. I loved her!

“Finally..” cried Noah when he heard the voice of Adzan Fajr reverberating.

The man did not need to set an alarm to keep him awake, because indeed since last night he had not fallen asleep even for a second.

There were too many memories in that room that made her miss Sea even more. The bed in which he had laid down his body at this moment was the same bed that had been a silent witness as he attacked the Sea fully n*fsu that night.

In the bathroom, as he was about to ablaze, Noah stared at the reflection of his reflection in the mirror.

“What mistake did you mean, Noah?” ask him to himself.

More precisely Noah was sneering at himself. The man recalled the incident one morning. Right after the night before, he gallantly thrashed his wife forcibly.

That morning, Noah's heart wanted to apologize to Sea. But his ego was stifled when he saw the unfriendly gaze of his wife at that time. As a result, that morning that spoke from his lips successfully ravaged Sea's heart. Like a very sharp dagger, Noah realized that his words had cut Sea's heart.

Noah's tightly clenched hand had punched the large mirror before him until it cracked. Noah has no power to hold back his emotional outburst when he remembers how despicable he used to be.

“You're so disgusting, Noah!” The man even cussed at himself, unconcerned by the fresh blood that had already flowed through his knuckles.

No need to worry about the pain in the back of Noah's hand, because his heart is much more painful now. His heart was empty, even though it had only been left by Sea for a few hours. The longer the more mistakes he made on his wife he realized.

Luckily, the mosque is not far from the Myles family residence. So when Iqamah was reverberating, Noah could hear him clearly. The man gasped, looking at the chaos he caused. While he could only sigh heavily afterwards.

His profession as a doctor was enough to help Noah to provide treatment on the back of his left hand. Wounds caused by his own actions.

After finishing dressing his wounds, then Noah went to purify himself and then carry out his duties as a Muslim. Like the last week, in his prayer this time, Noah again mentioned the name Seanna Filia.

“Wherever he is now, please Lord. Open the door of his heart to accept and apologize to me.” Noah prayed fervently.

The shadow of a shady face with a soothing smile on his wife reflected in the corner of his eyes.

“Allow us both to meet again, if that is your will. Make our way back together, if it is your best decision,” pinta Noah. This prayer really came from the bottom of his heart.

Noah folded the sarongs and prayer mats he had used. While putting it on the edge of the sofa, Noah finds a face that Sea uses everyday. The longing for the presence of Sea again spread to the deepest recesses of his heart.

“Huf.... This room holds too many memories of her figure,” complained Noah.

Noah was worried that if he continued to linger in the room, then he would not be able to withstand the tightness in his chest. He decided to sit in his backyard.

“Enjoying the beauty of the sky at sunrise, it seems like a pretty good choice,” murmured.

Initially, when he arrived there the color of the sky was still dark. Just by lighting from the garden lights, Noah sat comfortably and patiently waiting for the arrival of dawn. The cold air at that time, did not succeed in disturbing him. Noah's heart was much colder than the temperature that morning.

Without being prevented, his mind again brought back the memory of Sea. Again and again, Sea haunted his mind. Noah's smile expands when remembering, if at times like this he sometimes managed to steal a kiss on his wife's forehead.

Usually the kiss will disturb the sleep of the Sea. And usually after that Noah will pretend to be busy preparing before going to buy breakfast for his wife.

Satisfied to remember the moment with his wife, Noah again took a deep breath. Gathering a lot of oxygen, hoping the tightness in his chest will be over soon.

Shortly after, the color of the sky slowly changed. “What awe,” praise Noah.

“Is this kind of beauty you've always wanted to see from a window while in the hospital?” ask Noah.

Actually, he asked his wife that question. Because as Noah recalled, while in the hospital, Sea always asked him to open the window curtain in the hours like now.

Noah looked up at the slightly yellowish red sky with a very beautiful color gradation. The sunlight was not too bright not to disturb his vision, until that morning Noah was free to look at also admire the beauty of the sky at dawn.

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For a long time Noah sat alone on a park bench in his backyard. Sitting in that place brought him back to reminisce about how his first encounter with Sea was many years ago.

As he remembered, at that time his parents said they would go out of town for a long time for work. Unfortunately, only a day after Noah got so big a problem. Because of his negligence, a baby boy had to lose his life. The baby was Aneesa's son.

For months Noah continued to be on Aneesa's side. Accompanying the woman against the depression that plagued her by the loss of her son. Everything he did was his responsibility. Then when he was carrying out his role as a figure who was always there for Aneesa, that's when his parents returned after leaving long enough.

But his parents did not return alone, but rather with a beautiful girl who was introduced as the daughter of the owner of the company where both Noah's parents worked. Although he had admired the beautiful face of the girl, Noah's busyness with Aneesa made him forget the presence of the beautiful girl nearby.

One night, there was a lunar eclipse. Noah already knew that from the news spread on social media.

Actually, he's not interested in anything like that. But somehow, despite being tired that night Noah wanted to capture the rare moment of the lunar eclipse.

Noah stepped into his backyard, ready with a cell phone in his hand to record the beautiful moon that night. But just a few steps, Noah was surprised by the figure of a long-haired woman in a white dress that stood right under the bright moonlight.

“Ekhem...” Noah cleared his throat even though his knees were shaking with fear.

Hearing another voice, the woman turned around and called out her name. “Mas Noah!”

“Mas Noah, it's me..”.

“I Sea... Seanna.

Noah's gaze was fixed on the legs of the woman in front of him. Finally, Noah was able to calm down as he watched the two woman's legs tread perfectly onto the ground.

Akh..really, she was the girl that Dad and Mami had brought. Inner Noah at that time.

“Sorry.. I don't know if you're here too. It's so late, first-year students like you shouldn't stay up often.” Babe Noah who sounded like mothers invited the laughter of girls who turned out to be more beautiful in the moonlight.

“Where might I miss this moment, Mas,” reply.

“Followersku will be disappointed, Mas.. if I do not upload this rare moment,” he continued while giggling.

As a result, that night was the first night Sea and Noah chatted after almost 2 months they stayed under the same roof. The beautiful and cheerful sea was very pleasant to be Noah's chatting companion when he was tired of work as well with the spoiled behavior of Aneesa.

A few months after the night of the lunar eclipse, Noah was always looking for an excuse to get home early just to chat with Sea. Unfortunately all the fun had to be let go when Aneesa, the woman who became his lover complained that Noah changed.

“Your time for me is now reduced, dear.” Aneesa complained at that time.

“Do you not love me anymore? Are you going to leave me? I'd rather just die if I had to lose you too!” Such was Aneesa's complaint that finally made it difficult for Noah to meet Sea even though they lived in the same house.

As if fate did not approve of his feelings for Sea to develop, his best friend Owen also asked Noah for help to approach Sea. There was regret in Noah's little heart. He should never have introduced Sea to his two best friends as his cousin's sister.

But when he saw Owen who turned into a spirit to pursue a career as a doctor because of Sea, made Noah more sure to bury his feelings on Sea that had grown in his heart.

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The memory of his first encounter with Sea, the more convincing Noah if the feeling he had been doubting was the love that had long lodged in his heart.

Stupidly Noah didn't realize that long ago. Noah was stupid because he gave up the holy feeling instead of fighting for it. And now, his folly was repeated as he wasted the love given by his wife.

“Mami home...” Mami Joanna's loud voice brought Noah back from his daydream.

Not wanting to return to being a stupid man, Noah immediately approached the mother who was giving up longing for her father.

“Mami!” Pekik Noah's.

The couple who were no longer young was forced to break his embrace. “What's up? Why scream!” Mami Joanna Ketus.

He was still upset with his son. For him, Noah was the cause of his favorite daughter-in-law decided to leave.

“Where is my wife?”

“If only someone else had taken him away, I would have sued that person for taking my wife,” oceh Noah vented his frustration.

“Who has brought your wife's mist? The truth is, Sea has decided to go home,” replied Mami Joanna honestly.

“Whatever Mami said. Just give me the address, Mi. I'll pick up my wife,” pinta Noah.

“No... no..!” Reject Mami Joanna. His index finger moved to the left and then to the right right right in front of Noah's face.

“Do not disturb Sea again. His life is much quieter there. Let him be happy. She deserves to be happy,” said Mami Joanna.

“So, Mami won't tell me where my wife is?” ask Noah.

“Did Mami make my life unsettled?”

“Did Mami make my life unhappy?”

“Did Mami take away my right to live happily?”

Noah complains like a child deprived of his favorite toy.

Mami Joanna and Peter's father looked at each other, then both looked at Noah. “What do you mean?” Ask both at the same time.

“I love Sea, Mi... Well...” admitted.

“I love my wife!”

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