Missing From Bian
Want to Get Married

The incident was still going on in my mind. Almost my tears came out, like feeling in a blister right, even if it was just a kiss on the forehead. But we have no commitment. It's obvious Ryo doesn't respect me. I'd rather respect her if she was polite, like before. Got permission from my parents, not necessarily I want to.

I bit my nails back and forth. I used to do it when I was panicking, stressed, and upset. And all I feel right now. In my mind, do I want to go back to that city. Every time I come back, there are events that make me sad and upset. I feel stupid right now. My return was like it was on set, for me to work. I'm gonna blame Mom? Maybe his intentions were good, but why were the men not good? Even Ryo, Geez, that little guy dared to treat me this way.

The plane has landed. I want to hug Nando and cry. If I didn't want to tell Nando about Ryo before, but like my chest is full, and I have to tell him, I don't want to hold it myself. And there's nothing I can talk to right now but Nando.

Sure enough, as I walked out of the arrival door, the smile that I longed for lined up at the very front among the crowd of people. I either smiled or cried, Nando immediately frowned, confused by my expression. I walked faster to Nando.

" How ugly is his face?" Nando asked as he hugged me.

" Kesallll" I answered in tears. I can't hold it anymore.

" Why?"

" I'll be telling a story"

We also walked straight to the parking lot. Nando helped me scrape my little suitcase.

When Nando got to the car, he repeated his question.

" Yank story, what's up?"

" I'm upset, I feel like I betrayed you. But I don't want to, he's the bad one, he's harassing me..."

" What does he mean? You said jump, I don't understand..."

I took a long breath. Try to calm down a little. I just thought, what will Nando do after hearing my story later? Can he still accept me? Forgive me?

" Ndo... Before I do I want to apologize. So gini, once I'm there, I'm with dad. After talking about dad, mom said the doctor who took care of me, she proposed to me. The application was welcomed by my parents. And yesterday, when I came home I met the doctor, and he was my high school friend"

" then? "

I told Nando about the two days that happened. I told you everything without me covering anything up. I hope Nando is wise to listen to my story. Until at the end Ryo kissed my forehead. Also the annoyance every time I go home I feel at work, to the annoyance and broken mood.

Then we arrived at the apartment. Nando's coming down. From the parking lot, his face was already very red. I can feel Nando's anger. Maybe if Ryo in front of her, it's become jerky.

Arriving at the unit, I immediately sat on the TV sofa, Nando slammed his body on the sofa. I'm starting to get a little scared, Nando stretches his hand across the couch. I tried to get closer, put my feet up, and then put my face in his chest.

" Do you know how I feel now? " Task Nando.

" Anger.... " Answer me.

" Yes, if I don't think about your feelings, don't think about your father, I've called the doctor, I'm afraid. Or I go to him, I put his face in the bathtub"

I just kept quiet hearing Nando get angry. But just for a moment, Nando looked at me, then stroked my back. I think Nando can feel my fear, regret, and disappointment. His face returned to normal.

" Here you are, don't ever get in touch with him... Promise, don't pick up the phone or reply to the chat"

I'm nodding. Nando hugged me tightly.

" sniff? " ask her again.

" If the body is not tired yank, the tired is the heart.."

" The patient...."

" I want to marry Ndo..."

" I don't dare yank, like it's better I meet him, after we get blessing"

" Okay, I'm trying to find time to see my dad first. After that, I'll take you "

" Hopefully the road is not as sharp as we imagine yank..."

" You want to endure this condition, or do we have to succumb to one?" Nando's voice began to slow down.

I shook my head, which means I don't know either. I'm rattled.

" If my papa is angry, I give up all my rights, you want us to live from zero yank? It means I'm gonna find a job"

So far as Nando thinks?

" I gpp, I'm not a rich Ndo. I used to fight from zero, we both fought if it was supposed to be like that..."

" That means who gave me up?" His voice is getting louder..

" What do you think? Do we have to one belief, or stay like this ?"

" I just think about the family we're going to build later Bi, I don't want our children to be confused. Confused about who to follow. And I don't want them to think which is better. It's the same as if he's wrong for one of us. That'sthat's all. Although I know, our God is only one, the way we pray is different "

" I have, to this day, never thought of betraying my God, nor of inviting you to come with me. I never want to think about that. I'm afraid, that's what separates us"

" That's Bi's choice, it's a test... His choice is to leave you, or leave my God"

Degs...

Nando was right, it was a difficult choice and a difficult decision for him. What he chooses later, is a big burden and responsibility, because in the end he is the head of his household. To be honest, I couldn't decide on one.

" It's time we think of this Bi, the exam continues. After finishing Renya, now appeared Ryo. I'm afraid that we haven't been married in a while, let alone the new exam"

" Yes this is Ndo, his new test after Ryo, our beliefs and our parents "

Nando stroked my back.

" Have you been menstruating ??"

" Already, when camping you are also the same thing"

" I'm trying to shorten the process. But God like him has not allowed us to shorten it.. We have to follow the long way."

" Yes, just go for it..."

" I'm looking for a moment, yes, to meet Papa, may he be wise to look at this matter"

" I pray my way, may all be well and well... But whatever your decision is, I support it, and I'll be by your side"

Nando hugged me tighter and tighter. And we were overwhelmed by that atmosphere..

Both...

God, I want him...

May there be a way for us to be together...