Missing From Bian
Today, Tomorrow, the Day after tomorrow, and the Next...

" I'm sorry.." said Nando quietly, then kissed the tip of my head that sank in his chest.

" I'm sorry if I scared you, because of my anger" he added slowly.

I raised my face. I found her eyes still closed, but I knew she was conscious, maybe this was Nando's way of suppressing her emotions.

" I can't sleep alone. I tried, but I couldn't. I want you near me" I said.

Nando stroked my back gently, which I interpreted as the answer to my words earlier.

I still look at Nando's face. His eyes opened slowly, and he smiled. I kissed Nando's lips.

" Hey, you're angry..." Pinta.

Nando replied with just another smile. A little nod, then return my kiss.

Then Nando took off his embrace on me, lay down, and raised his head by leaning on the head of the bed.

" let's talk.." take her

" Chat what?"

" The future...." Nando said the word while sighing his long breath. I'm confused as to what Nando's intentions and goals are tonight.

" Where? you who love the clue, I'll follow" I said

" Yes the future, for example, if you have children, you want to be given the name of who is Bi?"

" Owwwhhh... I used to love Axcel, if it was a boy, I would call him Axcel. That's Nichole's girl, that you?"

" If you're his mother, his names are Axcel and Nichole too... Can you still argue with you ?" Nando replied with a laugh, and I pinched his stomach.

" But if you weren't her mother, I would have given her the same name. So later we meet, we see, what our partner's reaction is once they know our child's name is the same, hahahahahaaa" added Nando, and returned laughing loudly.

" Crazy for you... But if so, the name of the child can we make the password when we meet again is not Ndo.."

" There are you Bi... If you are married, where do you want us to live ? The city I mean"

" You answer Ndo first, I adjust later, I comment more precisely"

" I want to be in Bali. Rich life in Bali, there is no money there is still a way to find food. But as you say, if we run away, and still look for work from hotel to hotel, a bit of a mess. My parents will not be silent "

" Hhhmmmm" I responded to Nando's words. It seems like his head has started to get sane thinking.

" I was sorry, hahaha.. I used to want to go to medical school, if I were a doctor, it would be a different story. I can work without their intervention "

" Hey... not only is Ndo different, but your boyfriend is different, because if you don't work at a hotel, you won't see me"

Nando laughed and clucked my head slowly. Yeah, if he's a doctor, we won't see him. Cool he's a neurologist, and taking care of my dad like Ryo, aaah, that name always pops up and ruins my mood.

" And now?" lure me again.

" Actually, it was aq very sick Bi, it feels like I want to go, maybe some days I don't want to see you. But I'm angry, because what you said earlier, it's all true. Nothing is wrong "

" Yes Ndo.. Ask yourself, who should lose the most if this relationship ends? I'm. But I'm sincere, because I really love you, and I don't want to be selfish, I don't want you to betray your parents, and your God. I realize we're wrong, why are we thinking now? why not from the beginning.."

" Go home, and work at my family's hotel. You have to..."

" Right now, I think that I won't be able to say we should forget each other. I'm going crazy thinking that"

" so? " I'm actually calm when I'm talking to Nando, but not to my heart. My heart broke when Nando asked me to come home.

" I will not visit the city, until any time, unless you ask. We don't have to hold on. But, we will try to forget each other through LDR, hopefully with that, by holding back the longing, we can evaluate this relationship. Are we going to get back together, or are we looking for someone else to fill our hearts "

" Yes, that's a fair road. We'll keep in touch until one of us doesn't give any more news, and we shouldn't insist on always telling"

" Yes, if one of us doesn't give any more news, it means that the position has been filled. And others should be heartened to accept that condition "

" You gpp I work at that hotel?"

" No, mama also I'm sure will allow it, actually at this time I want to cry Bi.."

" Cry, there's nothing you have to hide from me"

" May we remember tonight all the happiness we've ever felt Bi? What makes this relationship, is the best relationship I've ever had"

" It's not just you Ndo, I'm trying to be calm in front of you, just so we can talk calmly and clearly... But in my heart, I feel so sick"

" I, remember my happy feeling when you first came to the hotel. I was shaking, I was trying so hard to look as calm as possible.I somehow smiled at my own smile so happy, then I resigned, when I knew you had a boyfriend, I said, yes, I didn't want to disturb Bi at the beginning. And I danced in my room, when I came home after dropping you off at the boarding house, the first night you leaned on my shoulder. I'm happy, and I decided to get your heart, even if it's just an affair "

" Hhhmm that night, I really messed up. I feel bad for deliberately leaning on you. Actually I'm afraid you think I'm cheap, GR, and really early in the morning I'm hard to get to your country first"

" Did you fall in love with me that night?"

" No Ndo.. Sorry..." Nando's face turned lethargic as I said that..

" so? When did you fall in love with me?"

" I don't remember, but each of you I'm comfortable, and don't want to separate, like for example you take me to the boarding house, when it's almost there, I think I want to say don't go home first"

" I know..."

" huh? "

" That's why I love that apartment, from the face you seem so tired because you don't let me go home"

" Yes, and I like the moment we camped out, yuk camped again..."

" Heyuk, when will you?"

" Tomorrow yuk, we go home from work and camp "

" Could you, come in tomorrow, go home Sunday?"

" Yuk, "

" Will work tomorrow?"

" It's Ndo, it's not good, my work piled up" I then glanced at the wall clock, it's almost 4 in the morning, like we had to sleep.

" Sleep now yeah, let's not get too limp tomorrow morning "give Nando, and cover my body with the blanket. I then looked for Nando's arm for me to hug tightly.

Today is long for me. The decision has been taken, until now still calm, but do not know after there is a day set as the date of my return later.