Missing From Bian
Second Night

By nightfall, my feelings were mixed. I held myself back from talking to my parents. The pain in my head was shedding a bit of the selfishness that had been on me all along. There was a small part in my heart that began to shake, saying the moment I had to give up and go back to my parents. I haven't heard from Nando.

Imagining my father in intensive care, I was afraid I would never see him again. Although from the beginning I was worried, I still stick with my decision to choose Nando. Maybe it's not just my selfish attitude towards my parents, but also that I feel sorry for Nando. Rest assured, if his parents disagree, and then want to live from zero with me, he will not be strong. We're just wasting time later. Because from birth Nando lived a life of dabbling.

This headache really messed with my head. This pain makes me alone, when Nando is not around, and my friends work, when I can't see the phone screen too long, what happens is self-introspection.

Then can't it be Ryo? I mean, okay if they keep setting me up, but I hope not Ryo, because he broke my heart. And Nando? I started thinking about life without Nando's affection. My chest's tight. I was crying too. This always happens when I think about losing Nando. That's my fear, if I'm without Nando. But we're already down the road, whose choices we each walk and keep smiling with the parents, or we stay together, but both of our parents cry over our decision.

Does this love blind us to God, parents, and the future? Then how's next? Is there any guarantee of her we'll always be together during her? Is there any guarantee we'll be happy together? Then, if the worst happens between us, who do we go back to? When our parents were disappointed, and our Lord betrayed us. Right, that's what I have to think, and I, I really want a wedding only once in a lifetime.

My daydream is long. It didn't feel like it was 4pm, and indeed the plan this afternoon I wanted to try getting out of my bed to try taking a bath myself.

When I got out of bed and stood up, I was still dizzy. My balance is broken. I thought, if I hadn't my heart would have fallen.

After the shower, I checked my phone, there was a missed call from Nando. I called Nando back..

" Yes Ndo..." My greeting. I hear Nando's like pulling his nose. I suspected she was crying, but I ignored her.

" Ndooo" I repeat again

" What's your condition, Bi?" ask her

" It's just trying to stand up, keep going and I'm taking Ndo's bath, still a little dizzy, you gmn?"

" I'll be back tomorrow. It's over here, tomorrow I go straight to the hospital"

" If you're tired, tomorrow don't come straight here, gpp, rest first aja yank" My voice weakened, there is a feeling not ready to hear the results of the struggle Nando there. Moreover, he did not directly tell the results. The logic is that if it's good news, he must have been screaming at this moment happy. My feeling is that the news that Nando will bring is bad.

" Ndoooo, are you safe?" Ask me again

" Yes.aman... "

" Have you eaten? Was it at the hotel ?"

" Here, was the same mom papa eat together, you anyone want to be brought tomorrow? By-by..."

" No, I missed it. You come, I'm happy"

" What is the condition now? What does yank feel like?"

" If you fall asleep or sit on the bed, there is no sense of Ndo. Like a healthy person. But I tried to stand up and walk, limp again, it felt dizzy wiggling that way"

" As if there was another earthquake? "

" Yes..."

" Tomorrow I arrive at about 10 yank, morning plane. Who's taking care of you tonight?"

" Don't know yet. I'm who gpp, they want the same rame-rame or change. I also want to know who can picket tonight. I also hope to be home tomorrow"

" Don't do anything. Try watching TV. Because looking at a cell phone also can not be long. Dizziness"

" Well, I'm gonna take a shower, and then call again..."

" yes... Yea..."

" bye..."

Our conversation is over. I feel like there's something on Nando. Because the language and the intonation of his voice are completely different than usual. It was sluggish, and like losing spirit. But I have to prepare myself for the worst, and I have to be strong. Don't burden Nando.

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" Sistaaaa... How are you?" Tetiba trio kwek-kwek enter, with the characteristic big sound semi yell, then sprinkle hugging me.

" Halloooooo.... It seems like you want to take care of these three??" ask me.

" No, tonight I'm with Dona, this mother can be yes." replied Risna.

" Iyalahhh his tail will be tipped where if follow" Yes, where might mba Iren take care. She has a child that still needs to be taken care of.

" I want to. When else can we shake all night, right? Even in the hospital, hahahhhaa"

" Well.... The purpose is not to take care of me donk huh? But it's tempting, hahahahaha"

" Yes in the samdlll "

We also joked and told him about the condition of the hotel - the end of this. For a moment I forgot the problem that was pressing me now, they had always managed to reverse my feelings all this time. From the beginning of my closeness with Nando, they were always supportive, and never once accused me of being a nondescript. And never changed behavior towards me, from before with Nando and after with Nando.

It was getting dark too. We ordered food. I don't have a family here, but I don't feel alone. There's always Nando and them.

" Eh snacking, Nando tomorrow morning already back you know, just like he did not do the office first, but do not know also if his afternoon to the office"

" Oh yeah? What time is Bi? Don't nyampe me and Donna are sleeping with the syanteeek position she came" said Risna worried.

" No, at least at 10 her words"

" So tomorrow night I'm not bobok here yes" added Risna again.

" if you want gpp, let Nando rest at home"

" Task the guy first. Let it be clear, yeah..."

" Wokggeeehh Ris..."

We continued eating, until Iren came home...