Muhasabah Love Hasna
THE MCH 45

Slowly Dini opened Hasna's room door. He just opened the door a little, he saw Hasna curled up in her bed. He could hear Hasna's cries there. And saw Hasna's body shaking from crying.

"Rai, is there not the slightest memory of me you remember Rai...?" Hasna said in between her tears, and it was clearly heard by Dini.

"Rai.. how am I going to live the days here, while you do not remember me, and you only remember Dini. hiks hyks.."

"Maybe it's better that I get hurt because you hit me than that I get hurt because I'm not considered by you Rai.. It hurts more Rai... How do I present your love to me again, while you insist on saying only love Early to Your Mother.."

"O Allah, do not punish me for forgetting or making a mistake. I cannot bear it, O God."

Slowly Dini closed the door of the room back. I immediately went down to the bottom floor.

Dini went back into his room, he took his little bag, he came out of the house without saying goodbye to anyone.

***

One day passed, Dini had not returned home. During that time, Bu Lena was in the Hospital and took care of all the administration of Raihan because today Raihan has been allowed to go home.

"Rai said, you should still treat Hasna well because she is your wife and you should be able to treat Hasna like a wife." Press Bu Lena on Raihan after they are in the car driven by Pak Ujang, the personal driver of Bu Lena.

Bu Lena has absolutely nothing to discuss the status of Dini now on Raihan because Bu Lena has an understanding that the marriage of Dini and Raihan is not legal. So he no longer needed to say that they were married. Because according to Bu Lena, fear later even make Hasna more hurt. Ms. Lena thought so much about Hasna's fate.

"Ma... But how..? I don't have any taste for him.."

"O Allah, forgive me.." Swishing Bu Lena while massaging her chest that feels tight.

Ms. Lena also remembered the doctor's message not to force Raihan. He also chose to be quiet and enjoy the exhausting journey that Bu Lena felt. Mom Lena remembered her late husband.

"Pa.. Mama misses..." Mumbled Bu Lena.

***

They also arrived home.

Bik Minah, bik Surti and Nesti welcomed their arrival. Hasna kept herself in her room.

"Bik, where's Hasna?"

"Sorry Ma'am, Non Hasna from the time she got home from the Hospital never came out of her room Mom, And Hasna always refused when she was taken to eat." Answer Bik Minah with a sad face.

"Astaghfirullah's... Hasna must have been very hurt.. "

"Sorry Mom, didn't I ask Non Dini?"

"Ah yes, she's fine right..?"

"Don't know Mom, when Non Hasna came home when Non Dini left the house, we didn't know where it went.." Report Bik Minah back to Ms. Lena.

"Oh yeah, maybe Dini went home to her Mama's House.."

"Hey you, where's Rai going?" Ask Bu Lena when she sees Raihan entering the room in Dini.

"Get in Ma's room, my body is still limp Ma, I need a break.."

"Yes I mean Mama, your room is upstairs.. There ride.."

"Ma, please don't force me yet Ma. I haven't been able to meet him.."

"Assalamu'alaikum's chat.." The sound of someone saying hello.

"Wa'alaikumussalam, Early?" Sahut Bu Lena who then quietly glued to look Dini.

Raihan who was about to close the door but when he heard his mother call Dini's name, Raihan undo his intention. He also went out of the room to make sure there really was Dini there.

"Din, you've finally come too.. I guess you're not worried about me..?" Said Raihan immediately feel happy staring Dini because Dini is there. But a moment later his eyes were fixated on something in Dini's sling.

"Din.. What did you bring..?"

"Rai, this is my son..." Dini walked up to Raihan and he opened the sling covering his son's face. The condition of Dini's son has improved, Dini who went from the House directly to the Hospital with the intention to pick up her son because he was allowed to go home. And he took his son to his Mother's House. But when Dini got the news that Raihan came home today, Dini immediately went to Bu Lena's House and he deliberately brought his son along with him.

"Your son..? Wh-meaning? Sahut Raihan stammered.

"Yes Rai, this is my son.."

"No way.. You lie..How can you have children while you are not married? You've just entered Din's college, still in the first grade, and you also promised me that we'd get married later after we graduate.."

"Rai. I'm not lying.. I have betrayed your love Rai... So please keep your mind off about me Rai.. Because I don't love you anymore..."

"No Din. You must have lied to me..."

Raihan shook his head. He tugged at his hair.

"Aargh..." Raihan shouted, he felt a great pain in his head. He ran into the room and slammed the door.

"Ma..." Say Early to Bu Lena who suddenly just hugged him from behind. Then Bu Lena moved towards the front of Dini, then gently rubbed the Early tears with her hands. Because it turns out that Dini is not strong enough to hold back her crying after saying it to Raihan.

"Darling... Mamma.. Mama doesn't know what to say to you.. But Mama should thank you Din.." Said Ms. Lena with teary eyes.

"Ma, Mama don't have to thank you.. Early should thank Mama because Mama still loves Dini even though Dini has done a lot of wrong to you.. And also Hasna.. hyks hyx.." Say Early while crying sobbing.

Bik Minah, Bik Surti and Hesti seemed to wipe their tears with their sleeves. They were excited to see that moment.

"Allow you to meet Hasna Ma.."

"Yes dear. please..! Here's Mama's granddaughter, let Mama carry.."

Bu Lena took over carrying Dini's son from Dini's hands. Dini also felt more and more haru because Bu Lena considered her grandson's Early child.

With a steady step Early up the stairs. He made up his heart, he had to do what he was supposed to do now.

Early knock on Hasna's room door. Once there was no law from within. Then he knocked it back. There is still no lawfulness. Dini held the door handle which turned out that the door was not locked at all.

Dini sighed slowly, then exhaled back slowly. Dini noticed the atmosphere inside Hasna's room. He did not find Hasna in bed. Then the netranya back around while walking in it turns out Early saw Hasna was in a state of prostration wearing a face behind the bed. Long Early waited for Hasna to rise from her bow. Hasna did not rise.

Just as Dini was about to walk up to Hasna, Dini saw Hasna in a slow motion rising from her prostration. He breathed a sigh of relief, he had thought badly of it.

Hasna said hello. Hasna finished her Dhuha sunnah prayer which was already to six rakaat that morning.

"Rome.."

Hasna gasped at the familiar voice. Hasna couldn't look. He just kept quiet.

TBC...