Muhasabah Love Hasna
THE MCH 57

Never fretting anyway, when we are afraid of losing the people we love where again unfortunately. We fall asleep and then feel something happening as if it really happened, then we seem to not believe that it is just a dream and we hope to wake up soon. But when we feel we are awake and out of the nightmare, but in fact, we are still in the dream realm again until we are really frightened because we cannot wake up to get out of that scary dream. Floods of sweat of course, even the sound of our cries in the dream world was as if it could be heard by others.

And that's what Raihan is now experiencing. He believes he was just having a nightmare about Hasna who suddenly got sick and died. He tried to wake up but in reality he still felt that it was real. Raihan shouted as hard as he could.. He prayed to his Lord to bring him out of the nightmare. With breath that already felt tight, sweat flooded his body, his body shaking violently from sobbing. Until the scream of Hasn's voice that finally made Raihan can get out of the nightmare.

"Rai, what's wrong with you?" Shouting Hasna. Hasna has repeatedly tried to wake Raihan up, but Raihan is like re-entering his dreamland. So Hasna could not take it anymore until she shouted for Raihan to wake up immediately.

Raihan's eyes opened, as if trying to gather his consciousness. His body that had been shaken had calmed down again, but sweat had soaked his clothes when the Long Alahan area was famous for its cold air. And occasionally heard the rest of Raihan's crying.

"Hasna's... You're still alive, aren't you? You're not dead, are you?" Raihan said instantly as he looked at Hasna who was sitting beside him. Raihan immediately sat down and felt Hasna's cheeks

"Astaghfirullah Rai.. I'm here okay.." Hasna's words convinced Raihan.

"Darling, you're not lying, are you? Look at your nose.." Raihan said while examining Hasna's nose.

"My nose why?"

"Your nose is bleeding baby.The blood does not stop flowing from your nose. And you refused to take me to the hospital and you died in my lap.."

"Awhile.." Raihan said back as he got off the bed and walked towards Hasna's suitcase, he was like looking for something. And it made Hasna confused to see her husband's behavior.

"Rai, what are you looking for?"

"An envelope, yes here you put it..."

"Amplop what is Rai...?

"The white envelope contains your writing in it."

"There is no Rai..."

"Hasna's... But it was like real life.I found an envelope with your handwriting here, while I was looking for a hijab for you to wear. Then I put the envelope back in here."

"Darling..here sit down again.." Call Hasna soft on Raihan. Hasna wanted to stop her husband's obscure rant.

Raihan obeyed Hasna's words, he went back up to the bed.

"Honey.. I'm really not in dreamland anymore, am I..?" Said Raihan who was sitting on the bed. He held both Hasna's cheeks.

"Rai.. You calm down, yes. I take a drink first.." Say Hasna softly.

Raihan nodded his head.

Hasna picked up the mineral bottle on the corner table.

Not forgetting Hasna opened the bottle cap and helped Raihan to drink.

"Drink first on Rai...Bismillah.."

"Alhamdulillah.. Thanks baby.." Raihan said then felt a little relieved after drinking.

Hasna nodded her head then put the bottle back to its original place and sat back near Raihan on the bed.

"Darling.it feels like I can't afford to lose you..." Said Raihan.

"Ray, death is the secret of God and it has been established when it occurs, which cannot be advanced or reversed in the least. But.. God willing I'm still healthy wal afiat Rai. You don't have to be afraid.."

"Yes dear... I'm thankful it was just a dream. I won't be strong if it really happens.."

"God willing, dear.when the time has come, God willing, you will be strong by yourself. Because I'm sure God won't test man beyond his means." Hasna widened her smile at her husband. But a moment later suddenly Hasna felt dizzy. Hasna held her head.

"Hasna's.. You're okay, aren't you..?"

"Yes Rai. I'm fine, the squid is a little dizzy."

"Young, uweeek. ahhhh." Hasna suddenly felt nauseous. And Hasna got off the bed. He ran to the bathroom because he felt something churning from inside his stomach like he wanted to be let out.

"Darling...why are you..?" Said Raihan who already looked panicked and very worried about his wife.

Raihan continued to massage Hasna's shoulders.

"Rai, it looks like I'm catching a cold..." Hasna said that she did not want her husband to worry too much about her.

"Darling, I'll call Mr. Ali, we'll go to the hospital."

"Rai. It's just a common cold, I'm fine.. No need to go to the hospital.." Say Hasna who no longer feels nausea. Then he wanted to get out of the bathroom.

"You don't have to walk, I'll carry you." Raihan said quickly holding Hasna. Raihan seemed not to want anything more to happen to his wife, because he had just felt how hurt when he lost his passion even though it happened only in his dreams, but it was enough to make Raihan very scared.

Raihan walked up to the bed, then lowered Hasna's body there.

"Or I'll just have the doctor come here."

"Rai, here there are only village midwives dear..."

"Yes, I'll have Mr. Ali send the Village Midwife here."

"Mmmmh, okay.. So that my husband may calm down, I will follow your words my husband.." Hasna said with a sweet smile to Raihan.

"Well that's good, Sholehah's wife can't argue with her husband, okay.."

Hasna nodded her head quickly, as she was also worried when she saw Raihan in such a state of panic.

Raihan immediately contacted Mr. Ali to bring in a midwife to check on Hasna.

After that, he returned to Hasna with a bottle of mineral water for Hasna.

"Rai, thank you.. Don't worry so much.."

"Mmmmh, you take a break, don't talk much first.."

Hasna nodded. Raihan rubbed Hasna's head gently.

"Rai, I'm happy that you kept your promise to bring me here for my honeymoon. He said in this area there are tourist attractions in which there are villas with European nuances deh Rai, I want to be invited there."

"Good sweetheart.. As long as you're in good shape, I'll take you there.."

"And I also want to stop at the Ummi mosque ya Rai.."

"Yes.."

"Then I want to stop by the mosque near Yulia's house too, okay?"

"No, no, no, other than that."

"Lho, why? I miss the kids I taught to teach."

"Just still can't.."

"You're jealous, same Haikal's sister.." Goda Hasna's.

"No. Who is jealous.." Said Raihan who looked wrong.

"Trus why can't.."

"Uweek, uweekh."

"Darling, you still want to throw up again. Don't stand up, just let me put my hands on..."

TBC...