Muhasabah Love Hasna
THE MCH 56

Hasna's body trembled like it was shivering with cold.

Raihan pulled the blanket and helped cover Hasna's body with the blanket. But then Raihan's eyes were glued to see the blood flowing from Hasna's nose.

"O Allah, dear...why are you..?" Said Raihan who immediately panicked to see pink blood flowing from his wife's nose.

Raihan quickly called Pak Ali the driver who delivered them. Mr. Ali did not stay there because Mr. Ali chose to stay at his in-laws' house not far from the Villa. Pak Ali's wife turned out to be a native of the Alahan Panjang area.

"Sir, please come here quickly.."

"Okay sir, I'll wait, but please hurry sir.."

Raihan increasingly panicked because Pak Ali who he called was not at home, he went fishing in the lake with his sister-in-law.

"Ray.."

A heavy voice of Hasna called her husband. Raihan approached his wife again.

"Yes dear.. Is anyone sick? Tell me.." Said Raihan who then carried Hasna's head over his lap while wiping the blood flowing from Hasna's nose using tissue.

"Rai... thanks.let me stay in your lap like this, I'm happy you can always hug, please ridhoi me.."

"Yes dear.but you must be taken to the Hospital immediately yes, you must be checked.but you are calm.."

"No need Rai, I don't want to go to the Hospital..."

"Darling.you must be examined..."

"Rai.. I'd like to enjoy my time with you even longer Rai, but. mmhhhhhhh." Hasna's words were cut off, she looked as if she was having trouble taking her breath stuck in her throat.

"Rai.. do you still want to fulfill my wish when I'm not around?"

"Darling, don't say that. Without you asking, I will fulfill all your wishes, but you promise.must be eager to live.and promise to always accompany my life Hasna.."

"Rai. I'm sorry I can't promise you, but you promise me Rai. I want you to marry Dini back. I'm sure you'll be able to open your heart again for her, because there will only be Dini as your wife.."

"Honey.. enough. don't say weird..." Raihan said as he continued to wipe the blood from Hasna's nose that seemed to not stop flowing.

"Rai. love Dini and her son. because other than you and Mama.. Dini does not get affection and attention from his family.only you are his family..huk huk huk." Hasna continued to try to speak despite her breathing and coughing. As Hasna coughed, the pink-colored blood also gushed out from her mouth. Hasna forced herself to speak again. Raihan seemed to be panicking more and more because of it.

"And me... I'm happy to meet you guys. I'm happy to be your wife Rai.."

Hasna seemed to take her breath in.

"Rai. later, please take my body to Padang, take me to Princess Ar Rahmah Orphanage not far from Grandma's house. The Orphanage is the property of Grandma's sister, I want to be bathed with the sisters there and help me bury beside the grave Grandma and My Mama yes Rai..."

Raihan was silent, but his tears had fallen on Hasna's cheek.

"Rai..you shall not cry.you promise Rai. I want you to welcome my body in the grave and you will close it again.."

For a moment Hasna was silent but then there was the sound of Hasna reciting the word monotheism.

"Laa. ilaha... Mu hammadar the Prophet.."

Raihan was fixated on seeing his wife who was so fluent in reciting tawhid even with a breath stuck in her throat.

"Hasna's..." Shouted Raihan immediately saw the lover of his heart was not breathing anymore.

"Darling..wake up. baby.don't joke... Hasna. wake up.. huhuhu.." Raihan's cry broke to the surprise of Mr. Ali who had just opened the door. Raihan was shaking Hasna's body which was no longer moving.

"Young Master..."

Raihan heard Mr. Ali's voice calling him.

"Sir, please call an ambulance.." Tell Raihan to Mr. Ali who stood glued to the door.

At first Mr. Ali did not dare to open the door of the room, because he had called his Young Master several times but there was no answer and when he heard the cry of his Young Master, he said, Mr. Ali then ventured to open the door.

"Bad Young Master.."

Mr. Ali immediately called the ambulance with an emergency call on his cell phone.

"Hasna hold on. I'm sure you're just passing out baby.." Raihan said as he kept holding his wife.

Raihan put Hasna's cold body on the mattress, he immediately took the hijab from the suitcase of Hasna clothes that he would wear to his wife. However, Raihan still wants to keep Hasna's aura to be invisible to others.

As he picks it up, Raihan accidentally sees a white envelope falling along with the hijab.

Raihan opened it, in which Raihan could catch a glimpse of Hasna's handwriting scratches. Raihan closed the envelope. Then put the envelope back in the suitcase. Raihan told Pak Ali to get the suitcase into the car.

Raihan quickly approached Hasna again, with a trembling hand he put the hijab on Hasna's head. Then he kissed the old Hasna. And Raihan brought Hasna's head back on his lap according to Hasna's request who wanted to always be in his lap. Raihan kept calling Hasna's name hoping her Hasna woke up. From the beginning of a soft tone to the tone of the scream even though it still does not make Hasnanya wake up.

The sound of ambulance sirens broke down the streets they were taking. Raihan who despite having been told that Hasna's pulse was no longer beating by the nurse who accompanied them, but Raihan still insisted on taking Hasna to the Big Hospital in Padang City. Raihan can't believe his wife is dead anymore.

Time seems to go on for so long. Raihan can't wait to hear from the doctor who examined his wife.

The doctor told him Hasna had died about two hours ago.

"Innalilahi wa inna ilaihi Raji'un.." Instantly the words could only come out of Raihan's mouth. Raihan was sitting limp on the floor of the Hospital, his body shaking violently.

He did not expect his Hasna to leave suddenly, without him knowing the cause. Hasnanya has been suffering from a deadly disease all along. Raihan was about to ask the doctor but his tongue felt faint. He cried in silence, with a heart full of sorrow and seemed to not believe everything that happened just like that.

Raihan hopes it's just a dream. And hope to wake up by seeing his Hasna healthy. Although Hasna had to be angry thousands of times at him, it might be much better as long as Hasna lived with him.

As strong as Raihan rose to stand up, his legs felt not firmly grounded anymore, but he had to see his Hasna. One time he tried, but Raihan sat on the floor again.

TBC...