Muhasabah Love Hasna
THE MCH 55

"Yes Allah... I seemed to be tested many times, but this time I felt I was no longer strong, Rabb.. I'm not strong enough to face the cold..." Hasna was crying there. Until a hand touched her shoulder gently made Hasna instantly stop crying.

"Will it cry?"

Hasna knew the voice well, a voice that lately made Hasna's heart upset because of it, a voice with a tone that was so cold and flat. No more Hasna heard the soft and romantic voice of her husband, since Raihan was declared suffering from Amnesia Anterograde by the Doctor.

And last night it turned out to be just a dream Hasna felt. Where he is so happy because Raihan has remembered it and they also like each other to give up longing in dispelling the cold of the night.

Hasna quickly wiped away her tears, she did not want Raihan to see the weak side of her. Unlike when he felt jealous of Dini first, Hasna immediately poured out her heart to Raihan but now Hasna did not want to look weak in Raihan's eyes.

"If still, it's okay.this shoulder can be used as a place to lean if your burden is too heavy."

Hasna shook her head quickly.

"I want to go home, sorry if I had to go out without asking your permission first." Say Hasna then, then she immediately stood up from her seat. And he immediately ran away from Raihan.

"Wait the fuck.."

Hasna stopped her steps. And he could feel Raihan walking up to him.

"You don't think I'm tired.. You think I'm strong enough to go through all this with me pretending to lose your memory.. I'm tormented Na, really tormented..."

"So..?"

"Yes, I'm just pretending I don't remember you and pretending to just remember my past and forget the time we just knit."

"Why are you doing Rai, why?"

"Because I'm not strong when it comes to the reality of having a second wife, and it's all because of you that I want to remarry with Dini, Hasna.. While I'm happy if it turns out that my marriage and Dini is not legal. Because I. I just love you Hasna, I can't share my love for others be it Early."

"But.. It's not funny Rai, it's not funny.." Hasna looked Raihan in the eye.

"Yes Hasna.I'm not joking, I'm serious Hasna.."

"By making me almost crazy because of you, that's what you said seriously.haaa." Saying Hasna who was really angry at Raihan. His eyes also looked glassy again. As much as Hasna's energy to hold the tears so as not to spill.

"Hasna, I'm sorry.. I just felt like your love wasn't entirely for me, so I had to.." Raihan said while bowed, he did not expect Hasna even angry with him.

"What's? Do you still doubt my love?"

"Why Rai, why do you still doubt the sincerity of my love for you..?"

"Why do you still doubt I don't love you completely..? Why..? Rai. I almost went crazy because of your attitude... And that's what you said I didn't love you completely.." Saying successive and fiery Hasna.

"But you are indeed Rai, my love is indeed divided, divided into the Owner of this Soul.." He returned with a weaker tone.

"Hasna, I realized I was wrong. I lost control, I was selfish Hasna.. Forgive me.." Said Raihan with a feeling of regret, he did not expect it would be like that. His passion was really angry at him. In his hopes, Hasna could easily accept the reason why he had to pretend to lose his memory of Hasna.

Raihan hugged Hasna tightly with a body that shook violently from crying regretting his actions, and it made Hasna's heart melt.

"Yes Rai, I don't deserve to be mad at you.. And I was also wrong, because my good intentions turned out to be a burden to you.."

"Na. you know, I can't be mad at you the most, when you're mad at me, my heart feels so broken..." Raihan said as he continued to hug Hasna. His body continued to shake because of his increasingly broken cries.

They spent the morning in the room. I don't know how many times they did, which obviously they both let go of each other after a long time held back.

"Darling... Ii'm sorry.. Thanks for everything..." Said Raihan gently in Hasna's ears which already looked so exhausted. They had just finished purifying themselves by taking a big bath before laying down his body back on the bed.

"Rai, I'm sleepy.." And Raihan seemed to immediately understand that his wife's habit would immediately be sleepy afterwards.

"Sleep baby... I will always be by your side.."

Hasna smiled too. He took one of Raihan's hands and placed it on his chest.

"Rai. I'm sorry that I've been so angry with you.. I fear Allah is angry with me Rai, for my voice is rising before you.." Hasna said in a hoarse voice, her eyes closed but Hasna was forced to talk to her husband.

"Darling... I have forgiven you long before I apologize, because I want to always grudge you, so that Heaven will be entitled to you because of your cowardly husband's ridho."

"Rai, I'm so suspicious, you didn't actually go into a coma after the accident."

"Lho, if that's true, baby, I only realized two days earlier, and I was so afraid to wake up. When I realized that you were next to me, I wanted to enjoy that time alone with you.."

"Yes, Pardon Rai.. Is your back not sore and fall while continuing to pretend to be in a coma for two more days?" Hasna said with a smile but her eyes were still closed.

"No. I really enjoy in the kelonin you keep."

"Then, the doctor was also good at acting means yes Rai. including Hery.."

"Dear, the young doctor was my senior in school, Hery was forced to invite the doctor to work together considering that I am a cowardly man.." Said Raihan while smiling wryly.

"So I'm not the one you first saw when you woke up from your coma Rai..?" Said Hasna, smiling with her eyes still closed.

"Darling.You still remember that time Hery came to the Hospital and you asked Hery to help take care of me for a while, but in fact you just returned a long time ago, that's when I woke up baby... I can ask Hery a lot of questions.."

"Then you guys worked together to get me..?"

"Darling, I'm back to feeling guilty.."

"Mmmmm.. Rai.. thank you yes. I am very happy. The difference is you're just pretending."

Raihan immediately recalled the sentence that came out of Hasna's mouth while sleeping on her lap she was over the car last night. Raihan smiled as he said, too,

"That's because your heart is too good, dear.you don't want to be prejudiced even if your heart is hurt.."

"Aami... Rai. I slept first.."

"Yes, baby. sleep.." Raihan kissed Hasna's forehead and rubbed his crown marks meridhoi his wife. Raihan further tightened his body and wrapped his hands around Hasna's waist who was sleeping on her back.

Raihan who was busy rubbing Hasna's hair finally fell asleep.

An hour later, Raihan suddenly woke up because he felt the heat from Hasna's body attached to him, making Raihan's body flood will sweat. Quickly Raihan got up to sit down, he checked Hasna's forehead with the back of his palm. Raihan was immediately shocked because he felt his temperature was very high.

"Astaghfirullah, the heat is so high.."

TBC..